Midnight Dreams

Kisah kawan baik dan memori kami

2011-09-06T19:49:00.006+08:00

Chinese New Year 2010 :)

Abang saya kawen pown dia dtg, sweet kan?

Saya sayang Rara!

ra, thanx sebab tinggalkan aku. ehhh, ni bukan post nk marah2 kau. takkk. no way! ni ikhlas dari lubuk hati aku. cewahhh!

tadi mase aku drive, yela drive sorang2 kan..tibe2 aku teringat.

teringat masa kite slalu g kelas same2 ngn kete kebal tuh.

teringat masa kite bangun lambat, then rushing g kelas.

teringat masa masuk kelas even dah lambat, wat muke innocent (ok. muke aku dah gelabah time tu).

teringat time pas abs kelas otw balik umah, lalu kt federal..kan ade jaspal punye iklan. kau slalu ckp, "ti, cube kau tgk..hot kan?" "hot dow, laki tu..pergghh nk kiss ke tak ni?" *merujuk kepada billboard tu lahh*

teringat kite slalu melalak lagu bruno mars.."today i don't feel like doing anything.." pastu kau lesap g dating..eh meeting. byk la lazy song kau! hahahaha..

teringat masa masak same2..eh ke kau je yg masak? hahahaa..inti karipap terlebih masin..tapi makan jgk..

paling teringat masa aku merajuk gile babun ngn kau, tak bercakap. tapi kejutkan kau jgk. wat breakfast for two jugak. still masih malas drive. tak bercakap dalam kete. hanya pandang ke luar tingkap (dah la time tu jem) sunyi sepi kete time tu. masuk kelas duduk asing2. tp depan belakang je pown. sume membe kite hairan garu kepala nape kite senyap je. sampai2 kelas terus study kauuu! terkejut mak nokkk! tapi along the class, ktorg dah oke. slowly la ice nk cair. wat2 muke toya tu dah biase. kau ingat tak?

ape daaa membebel. eh helo, ni luahan perasaan oke. rindu.

thanx sebab tak stay longer. kalau kau stay longer, mesti aku ni nk berkepit je ngn kau. sume bnd pown, "ala rara kan ade, oke punye..dont worry ehh.." mesti sampai skg aku malas yg teramat nk drive, manja ngn kau lebih2..padahal reti je. hehehe :)

yes, i tend to be clingy. i hang around you like its nobody business. ok tak la sampai cmtu. melampau lak aiii..that's why, long distance thingy is not for me. nanti hari2 aku meruntun hiba. kalau kau nk stay, stay here with me forever. cewahhhh! haru la kau ni tina! puuiihhhhh!

haha, i love you Siti Maheeran! muah muah!

berbuke same2 last year kot :)

Berdebar-debar

2011-08-07T18:40:00.003+08:00

Assalammualaikum, readers!

aku nak tnye korg pernah tak kuar dating, then korg rse berdebar2 jantung cm nk terkeluar, segala hati, perut, limpa nak terjatuh? tbe2, korg flushed, tgn berpeluh- peluh dan jd clumsy (kalau kau mmg clumsy tu bertambah-tambah clumsy la)

ye. aku pernah.

byk kali dgn lelaki yg sama.

i mean kalau first time, kire logik la kan? ni everytime kuar kot, aku rse cm nervous gile. tapi, pasai pa pown aku xtaw.

lelaki tu, xde la hot cm aaron aziz ke remy ishak ke ape..dia biase2 je. normal kinda guy. dia just nice. and moderate.

so aku pown tnye la kat membe aku psal feeling ni. dia ckp itu adalah emotion reflection. waahhh. jap. aku tak paham. explain sket.

cmni, bile kau suke kat seseorang as in crush ke temporary feelings ke ape..sure lah kau akan berdebar2, tgn berpeluh-peluh, semua jd kelam kabut. or maybe kau just akan rse berdebar2 sgtttt, tak gitu? actually, dia pown mengalami perasaan yg sme. strong sgtt emotion wave dia ter-reflect kt kau. dan kau pown mendapat 2 kali ganda emotion tu.

tapi kalau dah byk kali kau cmtu, aku rse korg mmg syok la. tapi, tiada sesiapa yg berani berkata-kata. tiada siapa tahu mengapa tidak berani bersuara.

haaa, cmtu lah dia bgtaw aku. dia kate ade bce buku about it. aku nk kne cari la buku tu. nt kalau jmp, aku explain more and more.

ps: ngn lelaki tu je aku rse cmtu, ngn lelaki lain tak.

3 things

2011-08-06T15:07:00.003+08:00

Hai..ngh busy ni *lap2 sesawang, berhabuk!*

haa oke2.. 0_O

berkilat dah oiii.

setelah membaca/terbaca beberapa entry dari pelbagai blog lain, tbe2 aku rasa nk tulis jgk. bukan aku tak nak tulis bfre this, tapi rasa cm tak perlu. tapi entry kali ini aku rase perlu. *ekeleh, perlu sgt ke?*

ekeleh, bace la dulu..cmni..

dalam beberapa bulan yg lepas, which aku tak ingat la. aku ade kuar ngn sorang guy ni. dia classmate aku time skola dulu. actually, relationship ktorg mmg cm anjing ngn kucing. selalu bergaduh, tak same kepala, ade je point nk kenekan each other. tapi dia ade ajak aku kuar, most of the time aku tolak. sebab aku tak minat. *tapi aku tolak cre berhemah la* time tu mmg busy ngn exam bagai..so aku mmg tak kuar sgt. then tak taw cmne, tergerak plak nk kuar ngn dia. so set time sume. yela aku kan gatal. oke. maybe aku sje nk try. tgk cmne. besides ktorg dah kenal lme sgtttt. so xde pape la kan.

disebabkan rumah ktorg dekat, aku pown amk la dia. dan mmg aku tak naik moto sbb aku takut tahap gaban. dia tak kesa. ktorg g mne ek? haaa..sunway. lahh, aku mmg suke g sunway. so aku mmg happy la..tapi dia. dia tbe2 jd pelik. dia jd gentleman. wtf? bukan aku tak suke. tp aku terkejut. sebelum tu aku ade ckp kt dia, aku nk beli handbag sbb well..handbag yg aku pkai tu cm dah tak cantek. bile aku dah jmp, aku tros beli la *stok tak pikir pnjg punye, suke rembat* then tbe2..dia bawak kan bag tu utk aku. wtf 2? tbe2 dia ckp baik2 ngn aku. oke. pelik. sbb mne ktorg pnh ckp elok2. kalau tak jerit kt each other mmg tak sah.

aku bertambah pelik. plus dah start rimas ni.

then pastu, ktorg terus blk. sbb aku dah rse tak selesa dah ni. then ade la dlm seminggu dia try call aku. mmg aku angkat tp borak2 kejap je. nth. aku rse tak selesa. so aku tak suke.

pastu bru aku taw, ape perasan bile kuar ngn perasan cmtu. bukan tak suke totally, just tak selesa dan rimas. sbb ianye berlaku secara tbe2. kau bayangkan la, dulu time skola ari2 ktorg bergaduh, tp bile kuar jd lain plak. aku takut la.

point dia kt sini. tibe2. tibe2 jd baik, tbe jd cool. tbe2 jd gentleman. tbe2 aku jd takut. sbb ianye secara tbe2. dan slalu perkara yg tbe2 ni tak kekal. kalau kekal jd chronic. cm acute (tbe2) then kalau dibiarkan jd chronic. so aku dah tuka dia jd neutral blk.

dia mmg confident habis ble kuar ngn aku. maybe sbb dia rse dia continue degree ape bagai sume, ble keje dpt yg best, gaji pown masyuk nt kan..tp oh tidakkkk! aku tak terusik ngn itu semua. sbb satu. kalau aku tak selesa ngn kau, means its not gonna work.

oh lelaki, jgn kau ingat kau berduit, keje bgus, blaja smpai phd kau boleh dapat sume yg kau nak. including pompuan. tu sume bonus. tapi kau mmg bengap2, lembs dan tak memahami. so cmne? will it work with just your fucking money and title? nth. tp aku rse tak. kalau awek kau materialistik tu maybe la. oh and a gold digger. maybe, maybe.

aku slalu percaya, the best relationship will happen when you and your partner achieve this 3:

1. mutual understanding

2. mutual trust

3. mutual respect

"how can we be together forever if you don't understand me, and i don't understand you. when we don't understand each other, how can we trust each other and by that time, i don't think any of us will respect each other anymore."

i just want to be with the person with a common sense, please.

sekian.

5 things i did

2011-06-13T19:40:00.002+08:00

I am sorry i ditched you. okay. that's harsh. again. i am sorry i abandoned you. its not your fault. its mine. totally mine. but i missed you. so i'm going to tell the craps that i've been doing for the past few weeks.

gonna do this in point form.

1. i am busy planning my future. yep. im graduating, gonna take the Nursing Board Examination this Wednesday. but, i've got contract so why do i still need to plan. what? i planned after my 5 years contract. yup, i knw. im optimistic. in this kinda way.

2. i'm in vain mode. what the? yeah. i do constantly compliments myself. i like my feature. my lips, my lower lip actually. my eyes. my chin. my boobs. my hips. my hair. listen. don't you ever hear people say, "you got to love yourself, before you want somebody else love you" or "love yourself, then you find somebody admiring you". call me whatever you want, but if somebody to compliment on your boobs, or practically anything about you there's only two meaning- 1. they feel superb jealous of yourself. 2. they secretly want to destroy you. enuff said.

3. im sky-ping-pong. okay. skype-ing. not just with you. i do it with my other frens too. and telling them basically my day, my probs. and gossiping. but i do it mostly with you. i often told you this bunch of my problems, i forgot to ask yours. i'm sorry.

4. i am busy daydreaming. Zzzzz..to go to an island and swim in the deep blue sea..and hopefully don't get sunburns. yikes !

5. this got to be the dumbest thing i've ever done since graduating high school. re-establishing a relationship that i know was worthless. why? seriously. okay. because there's so much memories that i don't want to let go. and yes, it's been in my sleep. pathetic. it took weeks after weeks until i've come to realization that he's not worthed. i really liked him, but it was long gone. and i threw the memories to the open sea.

i tink that's the most i did when you and i were separated for awhile. well, besides than studying and cleaning the house..pretty much yeahh..

okay. im gonna go STUDY ! seeya!

2011-04-27T18:57:00.002+08:00

If you could see my hair right now. super duper messy. akibat dari input yg diterima pd hari ini dr pukul 9-5. i was so restless, everytime. and keep thinking about the breaks. and i wanted to pee. it was really cold. i'm sure its -ve something. haha. but really.

and we ate the candy, too much i tink im goin to get a diabetes soon. urgghhhh. but it was so tiring and cold and boring. but overall, the food was awesome! there's breakfast, tea @ 11 am, then lunch @ 1 pm. omg. see the time. and we still ate. rezeki jgn ditolak weii..kenyang giler.

btw, i attend this talk. nk cri tempat tu dah la payah. sesat. last2 naik teksi, itu pun lepas dah berpeluh-peluh. jauh kot ampang park ngn holiday villa. agak ah. long story. actually dekat je pown. salah direction.

jap g nk lepak ngn cha lg. mkn lg. oke. xyh la. minum je sudah.

Ketidaksabaran

2011-04-23T12:37:00.002+08:00

OMG! best gak tinggal berdua je. x leh blah, balik umh sebab nk gune mesin basuh je. takde duit nk beli token kt sini (ye, mesin basuh kt kolej gune token rm 3). and ofkos, malas gile babs nk bsh tngn and and watpe nk membazir. gune kan je kemudahan yg ade :P

ohhh, before that g beli mee goreng and burger. sedap gak. not bad. share ah. aku dah pokai kot. then rara g explore dapur, tetibe.. "ti, sweet giler parents kau!!" lahhh. kau apesal plak? yela. parents aku mmg sweet dow. aku cm speechless. actually dapur tu mmg lengkap giler. tinggal nk bwk periuk belanga je. tu yg rara terharu tuuuu..dan excited. tak sabar nk masak. hahahaha!!

then nth la! cm best giler. borak2. pasal kawen, bf dan persiapan perkahwinan!! wahhhh! aku plak yg excited. padahal yg nk kawen sape. lol. ok tina, sila bwk bersabar. anda bukan sekarang. byk lg giler aku nk achieve! hahhaaaa!!

so conclusion nye. aku tak sabar tak sabar tak sabar!! cepat lah abs bulan 4.

Housemate

2011-04-22T19:08:00.002+08:00

hey peeps!

ni entry syok berdua-duaan je ye. len xyah la sebok. errrr..

halamak! x sabar dow nk ber-housemate! da la ngn best friend! gegar weh rumah tu. sehari x jerit sesame x sah. jap! tu bukan jerit. tu mmg cre kami berkomunikasi dgn lebih efektif. ade satu hari aku dok ckp slow ah, lemah-lembut..skali rara " ape ti?? x dgr lah! "

"ape masalah kau? aku ckp kuat kau kate aku jerit, ni aku ckp bebaik,kau x dgr..ey kau ni "

so terpakse la ulang suare. ceh, cam PA system.

yang penting kau masak. len kasi aku setel. wah, kau kan chef aku. yela, fine ajar la aku msk skali. aku teringin nk masak yg susah2 skit. western reti la nokkkkkk! hahahaaa!! poyo. asam pedas tu penting, kang dia blk nk rse. nt aku fail dow!

yg plng excited nk angkut periuk belanga dan sgl bawang, kentang, garam, gula, nth ape lg. pastu nk wat house party! eh, silap. house warming! ni lg syok. rara nk msk cm kenduri. seyes. aku dgr cm penat. tapi rara suke so, oke la kot. dgn rela hati aku izinkan. mama pown x taw nk ckp ape dahhh...gasak korg la. yes yes yes!!

oh bahagia weh. chop! asal kau ckp cm pengantin baru? yeke? mne ade! aku cm happy tp sedih kot. ambivalent weh. yela. dia stay ngn aku smpai june. tu termasuk waktu dating ah tu. huhu~ nasib baik housemate, at least dpt la tgk muke kau, gado ngn kau, merajuk ngn kau, main masak2 sume..hahaha

well, at least aku x yah la nk terperap dlm hostel ni je. boleh la jmp jiran2 lain. borak ngn acik depan, beli jajan kt umh sebelah ke..tetibe rindu dok umh flat. sebab jejiran kt umh aku skg cm, oke. aku xde jiran sgt la. org yg aktif bersosial hanya ayah dan adik shj. membe aku mmg jauh skit la. cm umh dia down the hill..and ade yg kt tmn lain. so cm blk layan astro lg best! nasib baik aku oke je tgk siaran ulangan *smpai hafal skrip* bile diorg cuti2 uni, boleh la meronggeng.

ermmmm, so skg ni tunggu ah smpai abs bulan 4.

mood: tak sabar! :)

Happy

2011-04-19T20:14:00.002+08:00

Yg ni post semalam. tulis arini sebab, semalam penat. tak larat. dan mengantuk giler2.

so tulis skg ah. tp cite semalam punye.

we can finally see each other in the eyes, and smile! omg! like seriously happy giler. ok. at least i'm happy. maybe kite sorg je yg happy? hehe~

Post penghargaan

2011-04-17T23:48:00.002+08:00

So ade org tnye aku, pesal aku wat blog. dah la xde org komen nk wat gak. haha. senang dow. first, suke ati lah! second, i guess i'm a sentimental person kot.

mama asyik soh kemas almari yg kt kolej ni, dan segala bnd lah. *almari kt umh pown cm tongkang pecah*. bukak2 je almari, pkr2..nk buang ape. xde bnd nk buang. more to tak boleh buang. even baju tu cm x kene ngn style skg. susah dow nk buang bnd x pkai ni. sume cm pkai. tp kdg2 rse semak nk buang pastu pkr 100 kali, xjd buang. agak lme utk aku membuang brg. cm bnd comel2 lg lah aku tak buang, even x taw function bnd tu, aku simpan gak. mmg penyimpan aku ni. heh.

ouh, one more thing. i just want to say thank you ayah!

ayah, thanx for everything. kan dah ade kete. xyh la beli baru lg. pkai je yg lme.

ayah, thanx for slalu check kan engine kete. nk harap tina mmg lah tak. taw start kete, hit the pedal. tu je. tp skg dah taw! yeay!

ayah, thanx for byk2 bersabar. sbb ade ank yg degil, xdgr ckp, suke melawan (igt terer sgt)

lagi lagi

ayah thanx sbb subscribe kan channel 710, 711. bermakne skit. sbb ade glee kt star world. heh.

ayah, thanx sbb byk bg nasihat utk anak gadis yg bwk kete sorg2. huhu..dah la malam plak tu.

ayah thanx sbb you never disappointed me!

see, i want to marry a guy just like my dad! and for mama, thanx for the full tank, again. cm taw2 je aku xde duit nk isi minyak. heh.

2011-04-15T13:12:00.002+08:00

Good luck for your games! have fun! try not to break or sprain anything. We both been busy, but its ok. we'll find some time. right? right? ok. maybe not. heh. T____T

Tonight

2011-04-10T23:42:00.003+08:00

hello peeps. first thing first. skype not responding. heh. :(

bru lepas blk supper wif belinda, my roomate and one of my bestie. yup. if she can live wif me for 3 years, consider that awesome.

right now, i miss you. but i'm sure your not. kan kan?

so wassup? takde pape. just thought nk kuar mkn ngn rara and waited for her in her room and fell asleep. -__- she came back from work and i well...told her i'm hungry since i didn't had my lunch and dinner yet. just had a hotdog bun and a nescafe mocha. it already digested. anyhoo, she asked me to come with her and have supper or something..then i asked, "dgn sape?" she said, " spe lg?"

"oh, ur bf..". "ti, faster get ready, he's on his way.."

ok. i'm gettin ready. to be honest, i just want to spend my supper wif rara. not me, rara and her bf. then thank God, my rooomie's back. so i told rara.."ra, i'm sorry. tak nak kacau kau ngn bf. aku g ngn belle, see u at work tmrw.." then, of course.rara would say..its okay..bla bla bla..tp its me. aku tak biasa la weh..like segan giler..so its okay. maybe next time.

i'm okay with it. come on, ur my best friend. i'm happy for you. tapi, next time..girls day out.no boyfie. or even boys.

ps: sometimes i'm a person who enjoy table for two. no more threesome.

Whole lot things

2011-04-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

There's really a lot of things a i wanna write. but there's you and rara so yeah, xyh la tulis2 sgt. skype kan ade. aha!

thank you ayah, mama! kereta. full tank! i loike! eh, i love! oke. setelah merajuk, menjerit, meluahkan ketidakpuasaan, explain bnd yg sme berulang kali, merajuk semula, letak, campak, tidak layan panggilan telefon. huh! eh, bukan psal full tank or not. tp pasal kereta di ambil alih oleh saya, maka di bwh pengawasan saya. ayah risau. konon. ayah, i'm 21. esok nk kawen dah! bak la kereta kebal tuh. tak ckp pown cmni. actually, xyh ckp. diam dan mogok.heh. jgn contohi perangai ni. ni anak gedik. mengade2. bajet bongsu.

ayah, jgn la risau. i can take care. i got rara. it's ok. i'll be fine. walaupun selalu giler merajuk ngn rara. ehemm ade la sebab2 merajuk tuh. selalu nye, ditinggalkan.huhuu..sedihhhhhhhhh. dan takut. last time kne tinggal, ade org nk fly. like omg, why is everyone leaving? yes. dude, i cried my lungs out.

dude, i am very happy. but scared. it will be when i'm graduating, i'm sitting for my final, when you come back and when rara's wedding. you come back and fly again. again? i really don't know what to say later, what to feel, what to do. i do awkward things. i'm scared.

you are by far, the most coolest dude i've ever met. i'm lucky am i? ok. perasan. haha.

Adam Young & Taylor Swift- Enchanted

2011-04-06T17:33:00.005+08:00

They are so cute together! its Adam and Taylor! oh btw, he is the Owl City guy. yea, u know that songs..Vanilla twilight, and Hot air balloon. and everybody know who is Taylor Swift right? Can you believed it? he wrote a song for her! like a replied to her song- Enchanted. its awesome.

Taylor Swift and Adam Young

^__^

The letter that Adam Young wrote to Taylor!!

Enchanted by Adam Young (a reply to Taylor's song- Enchanted)

There I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered “have we met?”
Across the room your silhouette starts to make it’s way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you
Oh Taylor I was so enchanted to meet you too

This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go
I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you too

The lingering question kept me up
2AM, who do you love?
I wondered till I’m wide awake
Now I’m pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I’d open up and you would say,
Hey it was enchanting to meet you
Oh Taylor I was so enchanted to meet you too

This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go
I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you too

This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you too

Please don’t be in love with someone else
Please don’t have somebody waiting on you
Please don’t be in love with someone else
Please don’t have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go
I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don’t you let it go
I’m wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
Taylor I’ll spend my whole life wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you too

I was never in love with someone else
I never had somebody waiting on me
‘Cause you were all of my dreams come true
And I just wish you knew
Taylor I was so in love with you.

Parallel lines and the other lines

2011-04-06T16:22:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i just wish we're like parallel lines. not the thing that we have in common. its that we never met, even though we are walking on the same path.

but somehow we're like that every other pair of lines, we met once and then drifts apart, forever.

and i think that is really sad, because every other time..i do think of you, and everything else in between. i don't know what am i suppose to feel.

but it's funny, sometimes in my dream..or i thought that you would text me, "i missed you". but it never happened, forever. i want to do that too, but i can't. i'm afraid.

it felt so weird that we always meet and i thought we could have the conversation we used to, but then again it stop me.

i could never look at you in the eye again. i am so sorry.

2011-04-04T15:57:00.002+08:00

I didn't talk to u . but i wished, u would have talk to me.

Now we are strangers.

Too

2011-04-01T23:04:00.004+08:00

too tired to write.

too sleepy to think. until next morning.

too happy to have a plotting or blair waldorfing.

too confuse to care about you.

really. im confused. so i've decided to just let it be. whatever happened for a reason.

you happy with your life. and i have friends to make my day better.

so me no worries.

i really hope you'll be happy. eventhough i always have my best memories with you.

it's okay. we're moving on.

Almost.

2011-03-24T01:30:00.008+08:00

I don't know if you still mad at me. or really hate me. i don't know.

but why does it seem that everything i wanna do, it almost included you?

for the past 2 days, i have watched some interesting movie trailers. okay. then without my conscious, i said "okay, nak tgk movie ni dgn _________". tapi tibe2 en, "eh dah tak kawan, mane boleh ajak tgk wayang". same goes to when i wanted to buy something, "rse cm nk beli gak lah utk _______" but then again, "eh, mne boleh.."

so cmtu lah. i guess i just have to get use to it. sometimes when rara said something then tibe2 aku ter-reply plak "ouh..dia pun suke gak, or ade..."

pastu cam "asal lak aku ckp psal dia ek, sengal lahh.."

you see. often we spend our time with someone for a certain period of time, then suddenly a crisis happened and we both keeping a distance from each other. first, we thought..its okay..will be alright soon. then, after days and weeks when you were alone and suddenly thought of that person. that's when maybe all the memories came back. then again, ego will try to stop and things will be back to normal.

yes. eventhough im busy with my college life, everytime i paused the memories came rushing through. what should i do now?

no. i don't want it to end like this.

i hope so too

Sehari harian

2011-03-22T01:15:00.003+08:00

Nak tgk suju tak dpt. bruno mars tak dpt. bieber jgn haraplah. oke. maroon 5?

bukan tak nak tapi, dah pokai. nasib baik aku mkn free. kalau kne byr, kurus dah aku. size 0 weh. boleh join ANTM. eh silap, MNTM.

dah la takde duit. nasib baik ayah kasi every week. ;) boleh la survive skit2. tapi, byk bnd kne byr sbnrnye, for example, duit kelas, duit coupon food fun fair etc. dah la coupon tu 2. 2 book. aaaaa, lebih kurang lah. so, nak tak nak kne la byr. aku lg byk spend duit utk kolej ni dr diri aku sndri weh. rse nye kne gune khidmat AKPK lah..susah gak nk uruskan kewangan ni. math kau dah la lembsss tina oi! hahahhaa..cne kau boleh dpt A? nway, spm kot. dan ye, aku bukan bdk account. so logik r..kan kan??

weh bedah!

asal kau 'in a relationship'? ngn sape? asal aku xtaw?

huh? kejadah?

ini satu trick kot weh. utk mengelakkan..well you know what lah kan..

aku kan single n ready to mingle.

ahhh, aku x cye kau ni.

xcye sudahhhh!

kau takde pakwe? xcye aku!

ye, bedah. kwn kau xde pakwe kot.

-____- '''

heh. bpe kali aku nk terangkan ni. ye. kau stalker aku kt blog ni haa. tp tp, dia best friend aku kot. tolong lah percaya. haihhhh, nt dia blk kau tnye lah! byk bising plak. hahahhaa...

oh kau nak taw tak?

haritu kan kan, aku plan mcm2 utk future aku. nk continue post basic lah, degree lahh..smbg contract lahh..mcm2 lahh..so time aku plan2 tu, tbe2 cm terlintas plak. bile nk kawen kalau cmni? (pergghhh, pikir psal kawen dah kau, beso dah!) ekeleh, gadis normal cm aku mmg la. kau tu lain la, cantik, pandai. sekali petik je wei (nth2 xyah petik pown). buat itu ini itu dan mcm2 lg, dah late 20's. kire cm nk 30 dah la. gulp! kalau aku sebok nk cri duit dan kumpul sijil serta merantau, alamatnye bedah, tak kawen lah aku! tapi, tibe2 rara ckp.."along the way ade lah tu..yg kau nk cri watpe.." eh, betul lah kot. :p

kau sengal lah Tina. patut la Zainur pnggl kau noob -___- ''' haihhhh..

ergghhh, ape noob noob??!!

siap lah mamat tu! hahahhaa..

dan td tbe2 aku menangis wei. aku takut. tbe2 aku terpikir (byk bepikir betul lah bdk ni, pastu nangis). nth cmne aku boleh terpikir, mst ade hikmah aku jd nurse kan wei. sepatutnye, org degil dan noob cm aku xleh jd nurse. pastu aku terpikir (again) byk bnd aku blaja semenjak aku jd nurse, well at least aku taw ubat2 ni. dan juga family aku sgt lah health conscious, so aku tak risau sgt..bpk aku terer wei gune glucometer tu haa, prick sndri kt umh. (tp aku pantau buku dia) so far, undercontrol. sume sihat sejahtera. alhamdulillah..

dah la kau ciwek! nangis je keje. sume nk nangis. tgk 127 hours nk nangis, tgk code blue kt tv nangis. ape lg yg kau nak nangis? terharu then aku nangis ahh..sedih kot weh code blue tu. aku kalau pasal bpk ngn anak ni aku tacing beb. aku dah la slalu degil, tak dgr ckp, degil, suke buat sesuka hati dan sesedap rse, merajuk plng lme kat umh..haha..rina pown pening ngn aku~

ni haaa, membebel je keje. pergi tido lah! orait bosss! nyte!

Long post

2011-03-20T19:57:00.003+08:00

Its a short weekend. why? well..as you r reading this, i'm already at my college. probably attending meeting. if not. well...skype? maybe..reading notes. or else..zzzzzz.

anyway. even though its a short one. i learn a lot and do the thinking.

firstly, human are definitely not the same. maybe i misjudge. or being judgmental. call it whatever you want. i said this because, i often posted somethings for my friends, either good or not so good (won't say bad though). for example, i often write a post about my friend in France. either i miss him, or simply because i miss him (again). or just wanna tell him about my chaotic life. yes, i do tell him by writing because sometimes writing is way much easier than telling. maybe we both kinda bz and if i talked, i probably forgot what i'm talking about. so if i wrote, i could just re-read. anyhoo, my point is. you can't get upset (way over upset) about what i'm writing. especially if i didn't maki you, can't say i did. it is wrong. and i don't understand why are you being so upset when i already said "i'm sorry"? for my France dude. thanx for giving me a definite answer for my question. no dude, its not you. but rather a guy whom i ought to know. but somehow, i couldn't recognize him anymore.

secondly, i hate living alone. i just don't understand my dad. why can't i go live nicely in balakong? oh, wait. its quite far. so my dad bought a house (just a flat) for me to live and near to my workplace. okay. thank you daddy. appreciate it. living alone is scary. but my dad said, i can't be too dependent on people. its time for you to stand on your feet. stop being clingy. and everything. oh well, just want you to know dad, i'm the-more-the merrier kind of girl.

thirdly, i miss you. and i love our friendship. i love it so much sometimes i'm afraid i might lose it. well, you know i might say something unintentionally and next thing i know, you don't talk to me or even skype or ym me anymore. then i'll be more than just a loser. what's more than a loser? idk. and i don't want one. so sometimes i just keep quiet. but being too quiet is weird. so i talked. a lot sometimes. and when you called me, i often forgot to ask about you. i'm so sorry. and you are not calling from anywhere near. better remember that next time.

DAIR

2011-03-15T00:05:00.003+08:00

Maaf wifi. aku x kisah dah. nak gune jgk (dah nak abs download bru mntk sorry, ceitttt). biar exceed asal kan dpt tgk GG ep 18. episode ni sgt critical oke. Hopefully, Chuck sempat tgk dgn harapan mata dia terbeliak dan aku tepuk tngn dgn happy nya..yes! take that Bass! in ur pretty face!

ye. kau lupekan lah si Chuck (taste dia urgghh). amik lah Dan. Walaupun dia Humphrey dan tinggal di Brooklyn. tapi tapi, dia lagi baik baik dan baik dari Chuck. memang kau tak rase nk naik limo dah pas ni Blair. sila naik cab. atau naik limo anda sendiri (memang sah lah). padan muka Chuck! hang pi lah kat Raina hang tu. Go Humphrey! ehem, aku suka Dan lah. eh, mane ade khianat. mmg aku dulu dulu suke Dan. tapi Archibald tetap di hati. dia punye charm you can't resist. tapi taste dia, org tua2! takpe, asalkan dia bahagia.

Sabar wei sabar. esk bwk earfon g kelas. tgk dlm kelas. mantap!

ni episode 17. berdebar weh tgk episode ni..haha

I miss you

2011-03-10T18:52:00.003+08:00

You know, my first choice wasn't nursing. it was more to hotel management and tourism. why? because i like to travel and telling people about great places in the world.

then, i want to open up a nursery. nahhh, not the plants one. its more like kindergarten. why? because i love kids. yes, you and you may not believe it but trust me.i can handle pretty much kids. my way of course. after spm, i worked as a teacher at this kindergarten, then i met this cute chinese boy..emmm that time he was just 3 years old..he so cute and cute, i wished he's 17 (im 17 at that time) i really like him. i still do. he got the cutest face and smile. anyway, i took care of him. pretty much everything. i taught him ABC,123..songs (even chinese one). i bathed him. i slept with him (yikes) woke him up. played around with him, scold him.

his parents are hard working people. they always came back late. then i had to stay with him until 8pm sometimes. i don't mind, but my parents are..so guess what?

i bwk dia to my house! yeay! he stayed with me until his parents came and pick him up. cool eh. amik cinapek bwk blk umh. ckp melayu wehhh..hahaha!! i miss those moments. dia sgt cute!

i think, he's 7 years old now! wow! same age as my niece. Good luck boy!

btw, ape motif kau tulis post ni?

ekeleh, aku rindu dia aku tulis lahhh! i miss Lee Hao Min!

I hate Rara!

2011-03-09T18:27:00.003+08:00

I believe between 2 best friends there should be some healthy arguments, little bit of drama and so whatever. i didnt talk to my best friend since yesterday evening until..errrr..i can't remember the duration exactly. but hey, we talk now. like we never talk before.

anyway, i do feel bad. if i do something then my best friend is not by my side. usually we had breakfast,lunch, dinner together. but this morning (we dare not to speak yet) so i had breakfast alone. same goes for lunch. but somewhere between classes we 'bergaduh' and then there's more. then there's pause. then only we talked. and end up, having dinner together. which i called her because i had meeting but she's already in her room. so i straight away went to cafe and start to think "i can't do this. i have to talk to her, ala buat bodo je." then went to her room buat muke x malu sket, "ra, dinner jom." then segalanya kembali normal. tu je. all you have to do is. put on your thick face and say sorry.

tak nak kawan sudahhhhh!!

IHY

2011-03-08T17:54:00.002+08:00

Memang malas nk type. nk story pun cm malas. disebabkan kau la.

i could never go to sunway,

could never go to cupcake chic,

could never walk around in sunway,

could never go to midvalley and hang out in mph again

could never go to carrefour in midvalley ever ever again.

could never watch the movie we used to watch again.

wait. i know you possibly don't care. but i do. its been this long and im really tired of this. all of this. i said sorry. for whatever i ever did to you. but you just don't care. i did wrong. and so do you.

i know we are not freakin couple but i went out with you way too many times than anyone else. i don't know why you kept secrets but i don't. i hate secrets. that's why i never keep one.

i really hate you. you are a distraction. big massive one. why can't you just quit your job and move from pj. that would give me some peace. cause i won't. i have contract. if not, i'll be out from your face.

even if i was mad at you, i'll be fine after a week. we could talk it over and apologize and do whatever we want to. but it has been 2 weeks. oh, i have my own reason why i text-ed you using rara's number.

i hate you i wish i never met you.

R&M part 1

2011-03-03T17:35:00.004+08:00

Sem 6 byk mengajar aku. macam2 lah. self reflection, time management, leadership, communication and everything.

dan juga research and management project. ala, yg kne wat research about something that you think need improvement, especially about my college or clinical area. kawan baik boleh bergaduh (kalau dapat same group), musuh kne tolerate sesame sendiri, dan yg tak pernah bertegur atau tak rapat sebelum ni dirapatkan hubungan mereka..

seronok tu memang la, as im the kind of person who likes to work in a group. =) tapi bukan sume org suke bekerja dgn org ramai. ade yg suke buat kerja sndri, dan pass up hasil kerja mereka (kadang2 mereka beri rubbish pada leader) yg mana buat bagus tu, keep it up!. kesian aku tengok leader every group. to tell you the truth, even leader aku cried sbb dia igt diri dia tak layak jadi leader. eh, tak la! sebab leader ni, lecturer kitorg yg chose. mereka ade sebab tersendiri mengapa mereka chose kamu. jadi jgn bersedih dan cheer up! everybody made mistakes. so what we have to do? learn from the mistakes and never did the same thing again.

kalau kau leader dan kau ter amatlah soft spoken dan baik hati, emm be careful sebab as far as i know people like to take you for granted. haa, time ade meeting la kau nak dating, nak kuar la, nak tu la, nk ni la..kalau nk dating tu boleh, tapi habaq mai awai2 nokkkk..bukan last minute. sebab project ni group work, mana mungkin buat seorang diri (even ade lagi 10 org). lain la kalau emergency, dan berdating itu adalah kemahuan dan bukan keperluan, apatah lagi di kategorikan sbg kecemasan...pffttt..

part yg paling tension mase time literature review. nak kne bace literature tu bukan skit, tp byk taw tak! mostly ktorng amk from google scholar (thanx yaw!) dan database such as science direct dan proquest. lain2 tu pndai2 la korg cri. must be reliable taw. and give credit la tu those who cited the phrase. kang kau kne cop plagiarism.

part yg plng best adlh mase create questionnaire. time ni idea tibe2 je tumbuh cm cendawan (bernas ke tak, tu lain cerite)..hahahaa..pastu korg gembira bile questionnaire korg di approve oleh lecturer. time tu, boleh la distribute kat kawan2 dan junior2..tgk cmne hasil nya..so far ktorg bru buat pilot study..dan result serta feed back dari mereka not bad lahhh...ade gak idea nak wat bab management nanti..

yeay! malam ni nak distribute soalan yg betul2..nanti kite tgk hasilnya. :-)

k lah, nak rehat dulu. penat beb, kelas dari 8-5. otak ni kene rehat jap...zzzzzz...

1,2,3 Go. just let it go.

2011-03-01T21:55:00.002+08:00

Ready dah nak tulis. sebab tak reply msg kite, x app friend request kite. so kite tulis kat blog je lahh..anyway, sume org taw..ape2 pun kite akan tulis kat blog.

fine. kalau tak nak approve friend request kite. tapi at least kite dah mintak maaf. kite dah pikir2, kalau maafkan kite pun, things will never be the same. so, takpe. maafkan lah kite ok. pasni kite tak kacau dah. lagi pun pasni kite akan jadi super duper busy.

actually, kite mmg tak patut pun marah dan tak bercakap. but, nth. cm tetibe lak. pastu bile pkr2 balik, like lahhh...bukan nya bf kite pun. so, watpe nak marah dan jealous (?). bukan nya pernah declare couple ke ape. even dah kuar byk kali pun cm..well..nth. takpe la. takde pape yg serious. just a picture je kan.

takde sape wat salah pape. ok. maybe kite.

hmmm, ok. dah. cm tu je la. it has to end. somehow, somewhere, and some time.

Happy weekend

2011-02-27T21:59:00.003+08:00

My weekend. i love weekends sometimes i don't know what to do. haaaa? hahaaa..ok xde la. just teman rina shopping kat mines. gile la dia. nak beli spec cm go mi nam. ala, yg nerd tu. dah dapat suke lahh tu wekkk. turn aku lak. emmmm, nak beli ape ek?igt nk beli heels, ke flats, wedges? nahh..dah byk kt umh. last2 beli handbag. awwww, cantik (sendiri puji) kaler putih. xde kaler ni lagi. sebab tu beli.

cmni. ouh, i miss her hair. da lme x style cmni.

nway, aku ngn rina mmg ade satu thing la bile shopping. kami tak pikir panjang. kalau nak yg tu, tu lahhh..dah toksah nak round2 satu mines, last2 tmpt tu gak. just cam, kami ade feel bile nmpk something yg kami suke..trus beli lah. xde cmni "jap ah, pikir dlu."or "round dulu lahh.."

aku xde mase nak layan. kalau beli baju maybe lahh..atau kasut (esp kasut) sebab bab kasut ni lain sket. rambang mata den...nak yang tu, jap g nak yg ini. kalau raya, bju sume aku paling cepat, tapi kalau bab kasut, errrr.... -__- ''' ish, rase cm nak beli satu kedai je..haaa.. susah la maaaa..

pastu, balik. kne cepat sbb rina ade tuition. xyah susah, cikgu dtg umh. home tuition. parents aku lagi suke cmni. ade privacy dan senang one on one. eh, asal aku x ajar dia. sape ckp aku x ajar. aku special bio ngn eng taw. tapi rina hebat gak 2 subjek ni. kdg2 je dia tnye aku. aku kan kamus bergerak dlm umh..pfffftttt..(ni rina yg bg gelaran ni)

then, petang sket. ade pasar malam. tapi tak. aku g petang dlm kul 5 cmtu. bwk kanak2 riang. yela, mereka itu. mak aiiiii, berzaman aku x g pasar malam tmn umh aku ni. byk nya org asing. takut dow. terjerit-jerit gak la aku kt sne. kang hilang plak budak2 itu. rajin gak, bangla, ngn mat nepal ni beli sayur- sayuran. terer ke diorg masak ek? cm hebat je. bwk plastik byk2..nway, rajin lah tu kann kann..dah kau beli ape je bedah?? errrr, air asam boi ngn cendol utk mereka berdua.

igt nk pekene apam balik, tapi abg apam balik x smpai lagi..haihhhh..

after that, " haaaa, meh la cikgu join ktorg tea.." *break time*

layan kal ho naa ho..(gile hindustan at heart). actually, dah tgk byk kali. tapi tetibe nk tgk lagi (kau slalu je tetibe kannnnn) pastu cm x sempat abs (dah la 3 cd)..hahaha..pas rina abs tuition je trus mama anta balik kolej ni haa..

ceitt, ade meeting. tu pasai nokkkk..hehe..

Pasal name camni la jadi nye..

2011-02-26T18:19:00.002+08:00

So, asal kau poyo sgt smpai lecturer pnggl kau datyn?

lek r derrrr, aku amin kan je. mane lah taw, untung2 aku jadi datin, kan kan? haaa, membe kau jugak. boleh ke cmtu?

xde. mane ade. actually, aku pun tak pasti tapi aku cube terangkan lah ye (mengikut teori aku)

semua org sibuk memperkenalkan diri. al maklumlah, time tu sem 1. setiap kali mmg kne sesi suai kenal ni.

"my name is Sayidatina Atiqah binti Zamri...bla bla bla...."

"wah, your name so long ahhh.."

"emmm, yes but..."

tibe2 dak2 kelas aku rmai2 ckp "call dia datyn je"

"????" (dgn muke x bersalah padahal...)

"hmmmm, okay lah, datyn. next!"

since then...gosh. tibe2 rse nk tuka name lak. until now ok. lecturer aku pnggl nme tu. lagi satu, disebabkan datyn aku kne cop dak sombong. snob la. mcm2 lg.

actually, kalau aku tak senyum kat kau tu jgn lah terase plak. takkan aku nk senyum je 24/7. sakit otot2 muke aku oke. maybe, time tu aku bru kene halau kelas ke (gulp!), kene marah ke, ngh bengang ke, bru bngn tido ke, ngh pkr bnd lain ke..

cube kau bayang kan, kau dok jejalan kt koridor kelas tu senyum sorang2 (sorang2 !) kalau ade rara tu lain. pelik kot. silap aribulan, org kate kau giler weh (salah satu faktor kau kne cop giler ni lahh dia). hahahaaa...

lagi satu, sebab og cina susah nk sebut nme aku. (kdg2 melayu pun same). kalau tgk name tag aku ade la dlm 1 minit dok pkr camne nak sebut nme aku.. last2, "nme you pnjg la, nak pnggl ape ek?" cisss...

nway, aku still suke dan sayang nme aku fullstop. nak pnggl datyn ke, tina ke, atiqah ke (well, xpnh plak org pnggl aku cmni) yg penting kite enjoy ! hahahaaa.. :p

Kisah ini tidak benar

2011-02-25T13:27:00.002+08:00

Kisah pada pukul 8am, di dalam kelas. yg agak hening (sibuk mendengar story lecturer nmpknye)

tibe..

"Datyn (she really called me by that name!), wat did you do last night?!"

"errrr..."

"go out and wash your face!"

*go out and wash face*

but i'm not even sleepy. ok. maybe your story rather boring than what's on my mind at that time.

i'm not in the class (?)

i was thinking about something. ergghhh.

so last nyte. i had some lil fight wif rara. because she used my fb acc to send msg to that someone. sayin "we need to talk"

to which, he send a text msg sayin, talk about wat?

then, i figured out. maybe i did send him msg (unconsciously?)

but, it turns out. i wont do something like that. that's just not me. so i made her explain for me. it was complicated n yes, i cried. why does she have to made me cry??

anyway, the problem solved. i mean about the msg and the talk. the rest, i haven't figured it out yet. just not yet.

ps: my roomate said, "mate kau sepet sgt. tu yg dia igt kau tido kot. dah dah pergi wat plastic surgey." pfftttt...

9 tahun bukan nya mudah ;)

2011-02-24T22:23:00.003+08:00

Okay. tak de la susah mane pun (noted that from pown to pun, selepas tgk video inianwarhadi dah berubah gaya tulisan)

anyway, poyo je title post this time. tapi, tak pe. yang penting isi kandungan nya. hehe..

apa yg 9 tahun nye cik tina oiiiii?

setelah bermain teka-teka dengan budak Toulon (ye, dia lembss gile.."ape yg 9 tahun?")

setelah di beri pelbagai hint, juga tak dapat teka dgn jaya nya.

haihhhh, takkan la wedding anniversary aku kot..(kawen pun belum lagi)

so terpaksa la bgtau dia, dan ade byk lagi bnd kene paksa hari ni, ceehhhh. siap la kau.

well, da 9 tahun friendship kot!! (dgn nada excited dan muka yg ala innocent, tapi dia bukan nya nmpk pun)

bhahahahahaahhahhaa!!. selambe je dia gelak! cisssss! tak lawak ok.

wei, asal 9? takde la, ni planning utk next year so 10 la kan kan..(still nada excited)

"aku, kau, jija, zarith, eh kau ngn jija dah lg lama kotttt...so, aku, kau, zarith"

"3 org je la ni?"

"limited lahhhhh, i choose my 9 years frens.."

"ok. kau g la sambut, aku ade lg lama kot.."

"ahhhhhhhh.."

nak bwk awek la, bf lahhh...tak boleh. membe only.

"eh, asal. party aku bukan kau.."

"kau nk wat party gak..ekeleh..fine."

btw, dia tak puas hati sbb aku letak nme aku Scherbatsky. wahahahahahaa!!

"kau bajet robin laa...?"

"well...approve cepat!"

kne pakse approve. pergi party kau kne pakse, nak approve pun kne pakse.

to which aku dgn nada kesal dan bersalah terus cakap "emmmm, takpe la. dah takyah approve"

taktik wei, taktik. hahahaa..

kate 9 tahun. tak berjaya taktik nih nmpk nya..

argggghhhhhh.

dia kate "wei, kau tu take care"

aku ok je dude. kau balik m'sia cepat2.

actually aku ugut dia (jahat wei) kalau tak nak celebrate 10 years, tak yah balik terus. stay kat sane.

"ok la tu, boleh sambut 12 tahun terus."

kalau ngn kau dude mmg tak mudah. asal ngn jija ngn zarith sume aku ok je. tgk, kau yg huru hara kan hidup aku. heh.

Tried and tired

2011-02-21T22:34:00.003+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY TIRED.

no, i'm usual hyper. but today i'm just really really tired.

of everything.

nak nanges weh. aku tak pernah rse penat cmni. byk giler bnd nk kne wat.

actually, more to nak kne perah otak dan fikir.

dan. ade lah lagi yg wat aku cm haihhhhh, "da la biar la." atau "takpe, soon the memories will fade"

tapi tolong la. jgn nak berahsia lagi. tak suka. kite tak rahsia pape pown. atau kite mmg tade rahsia nk bgtaw. takpe lah. keep busy. nanti bile space dlm otak aku ni cm da penuh, boleh la aku delete mne2 yg x patut. tp slalu dia ter delete sndri.

i don't always say goodbye to people. but you're an exception.

Goodbye. i hope not to see you in anytime from now.

Weekend

2011-02-20T21:53:00.002+08:00

that's the queue.

i'm leaving. thanx for the memories.

btw, penat weh last week. nth pape. asal kne stayback smpai kul 5pm?? tulahhhhhhh da sem 6 ni kne berkorban.

byk.

korban time tidur petang, which aku buat. sebab kelas aku tak mcm korg. kelas aku 8-4 plus skg 1 hour. jd la 5. break pown alahai. break pown kdg2 ade meeting. aisshhhh...

korban jejalan g pasar mlm/petang. tadi adik aku tnye, "kak. kau dah x g psr malam ek?"

"huh? pasar malam? bile pasar malam? mane?"

"lah, pasar malam kt universiti ahhhh...."

"oh. eh? nth. da lme aku x g dowh, trimas sbb igt kan aku.."

so, cm nk g plak esok. da lme x jejak kaki. kalau dulu, nasi lemak kukus dia mmg sedap. alamak, ckp psal food. td dinner aku j.co je. cukup lah tu kan. at least cukup kalori utk bertukar menjadi tenaga dan utk...errr...taip? hahahaaaa....

korban time berangan. disebabkan itu, aku berangan dlm kelas. cehhhh...

btw, saya ade misi! misi ni penting. walaupun saya sendiri adalh misi (nurse), tp misi ini lg penting. nanti dah berjaya saya umumkan.. takpe, sidekick saya rara. dia sudi membantu.

okie dokie.

nak men GG game ni. best plak!

daa~

Tell me.

2011-02-18T00:11:00.003+08:00

Aiiishhhhhhhhhhh, jinja! eh, ape kau merepek daaa??

oh, sorry..dis mean, aishhhhhhhhhhh really la..in korean.

i send u text, u didn't reply.

i ask u what's wrong u don't want to tell me.

i commented, u didn't reply too...

yaaaaaaaahhhh~~how am i supposed to know whats wrong. i really really want to help you.

if you could just share your problem, maybe it could be less burden for you, right?

but its okay......

take your time, but if you ever need help, if you could just turn around maybe you can see me.

btw, i really miss you.

you are really nice to me how can i forget you?

Macam-macam part 2

2011-02-12T12:32:00.004+08:00

Jom lompat tinggi2!!

da habis house final yeah2!! tp tp ade osce. daym. weh, x baik mencarut skg! nt kau fail dow. oopssss..kayh2.

"boleh bakar notes kan rara?" "

"aah..nt kalau kau kne resit ke (mntk2 pass la oke) kau cari abu paper tu dgn harapan sket magic akan berlaku, paper kau ade blk sehelai2 cmtu."

"boleh ke?"

"mestilah tak, bengong!"

hahahahaha!!

the conversation between two best friends can be a lil bit of errrr...idiotic. but only applies on certain condition. like what we are now.

even dah finish ngn exam, still ade research assignments to do. yes! alterations i like! how to make my hospital a better better place to stay for patients. patients lah. org sihat dok umah baik- baik, diam2 taw! nurse nk g keje. hehehe..

oooohhhhhhhhhh, since im one of the person yg agak lambat untuk dapat stress, but believe me. rara xde stress. she's stress-free punya olang. bile kau stress haaa? aku taw, bile kau stress kau tido kan? kau tido 3 kali sehari. in duration of errrr...nth aku x kire. hahaha..

tapi skg, nak balik umh.

nak men game, nak jmp jija, zarith. lepak2 ngn diorang. gossip seperkara dua. hahhaa..

nak makan j.co (every week mkn donut, patutla muke cm donut!) oke. fine. steamboat plak ah!

nak nak nak niiiiiiiiiiiiii..rara belikan, please?

sedap weh. aku pernah rse yg black forest nye cm sedap giler. betol tak tipu.

Rara, Sunway jom! aku tetibe nak makan cupcake plak. ni Cupcake Chic punye pasal la ni. post pic yg comel2. dah la dpt balloon kt pavvy nye outlet. nak nak!! =)

my daily dose of happiness. hari2 kne telan.

till then, adios!

Budak Toulon. cmni la.

2011-02-12T01:38:00.003+08:00

Dude. bile kau nk blk?

aku nk num France ah cmni. bile kau call aku ngh study. sometimes aku termiss nk angkat. sometimes aku tak bawak phone. sometimes aku lupe mne aku letak phone aku.

then cmne. kau deactivate fb. sbb kau nk study. cmne aku nk sampaikan mesej2 dari org Malaysia?

susah cmni dude. :(

ps: kene la wat cmni kot. nanti balik bgtaw awal2. aku da keje nti. nk apply cuti. kayh.

Macam-macam part 1

2011-02-11T16:35:00.003+08:00

Dude im so sorry i didnt pick up the phone. ummm, i studied and forgot to bring along my phone. heh, call me when you get this. and forgive me? =p

btw, fyi. i just finsihed my house final!! yeay! yippie! *lompat tinggi2*

oke. tipu. esk ade lg last paper. tp last paper, apedehal kan? Multiple choice questions aka MCQ. and ni part plng best. ade 100 questions to be answered!! oh wow. lets sleep! *bang books on the table* hahaha..td dah men pop quiz ngn rakan sekelas. ok la kot. (?) tak! mane cukup. ade byk lg kene cover.

takpe. esok akan datang jua. study malam ni smpai muntah cm biase.

skg, nk berangan activity pas exam.

rase cm nk karaoke. da lme x nyanyi kuat2!! nak nyanyi nak nyanyi!!

nk men game! adik drop it. my turn now. GTA aku dah berhabuk. "tp tina time exam pown main game gak..smpai kul 4 pg apedehal...."

"eleh, biar lah. aku da level up kan ko nye game pe..kecoh. wekkkkk.."

then igt nk men masak2. ni mungkin reaksi rina.. "masak? ouh yeke. g la.."

then nti.. "eh, adik..tolong masak makaroni bakar..oke. aku tolong"

kalau ade adik kesayangan masak, kau lek je..aku memang best pe. rara pndai masak, adik pown sme, mama lg masak sedap sedap.. untung la..

ape nk buat kalau takde chef2 ni?? eh, aku reti masak wei. tp diorg slalu offer nk masak. so...hehe...

"sori dude. nt aku blaja dgn lebih tekun.." kau bukan nk blk skg kannnn...kalau esok kau blk, skg jugak aku soh rara ajar kan masak asam pedas..kau lek je..nt mesti siap dan sedap.

dah dah.

lagi2. nak tgk movie ah. pe lg.

nak touch up umah baru, nak manje2 ngn kete kebal..

haihhh..macam2 la. tp pas abs exam ni ade CNY party kat umah Vicky! Yeay! hai uncle, aunty! long time no see!!

btw, there's no strings attached! so kau tak payah nk risau ok.

Help?

2011-02-04T20:52:00.002+08:00

Yep. something bad happened to me this afternoon. i should have told the staff in the first place. n yes, im desperate for everything right now. so, what i can say now is that..im really really really sorry. please punish me, scold me. its my fault. but don't bring this up to my college. please, please. gosh..im really scared now. im so scared i could throw up anytime.. :( haihhhhh...

PS: i stopped living in fairytale. Disneyland is for kids.

Tolong la ingatkan aku

2011-02-03T22:08:00.003+08:00

Eh lme gak x update ek. ok lah. tp slalu je usha blog org lain. haha. stalker.

lately, eh bukan td..aku letak status "yea, i like you. if not, i wouldn't go out with you"

actually dia cmni. "no, i don't like you,so i don't go out with you" well..mane boleh terang sgt.

tp betol oke. aku x kuar ngn sebarang owg. it has to be someone that im comfortable with. seriously like, kau ckp kau kenal aku 8 tahun or cm bukan smlm aku kenal kau. so what? aku kene kuar ngn kau la? u got to be more than dat. maybe aku kenal kau time skola, hi2, bye2..dok satu meja. mkn sme2. then after that you left me, then you got me back. you expect i would say "yes"? its not wonderful years with you. it never happened. of course. your very good looking, great course your taking. major in marines..bla bla bla..but that's it.

then you said, i'm bad. guess again. who cares? you don't fucking deserve my kindness.

I'm in LOVE. with MALDIVES!!

2011-01-29T19:03:00.003+08:00

Hello, hello!

ade org tak? heeeee... sori beb. lme x hapdate. lappy wat hal. xley detect wifi. ceitttt. gne lappy rara on fb. tu je la. smbl lihat2 nuffnang. itu sje.

lain2, psal post aritu..ceh setelah sesi meluahkan perasaan di hadapan cermin ok dah. tak marah. kalau marah pown mmg btol2 marah la!

nway, me and rara dah kire2 hari bersama (gler, cm lesbo plak dgr!) tak2, bkn cmtu. heh. spe phm ok lah..10 hari je beb! wtf! wth! stfu! x aci x aci!! kate 2 minggu! ni saploh ari je.

to Zainur: sori dude kalau x sempat blaja masak best2, chef stay as stated above.

btw, im so sorry to dad & mom. xdpt nk simpan duit bebaik! tgk wedges leopard cm *droolssss*. tgk MNG wallet *droolssss* sale tuhhh!! cpt grab! duit esok2 boleh kumpul kan kan??

next month allowance boleh lagi. ade time lagi nih.

haa..yee..kumpul duit nk kawen. aku nk kawen dah. teettttttttttttt..

haihhh, 1001 alasan diperlukan utk mengumpul duit. duit, duit, duit. takde duit, jgn byk ckp. tgk je ok. haha...ade duit tp jap, simpan utk 'emergency'. haha..

ok. nak berangan.

since aku ngn rara slalu berangan, so boleh la kan...kan..

rmai org nk honeymoon kat paris. but not me. at least not to see the museum, the art, the history. i particularly, one of the person that dun really enjoy much of the art, history bla bla bla..maybe nak shop pown cm tak mampu (ceh, being real plak =p)

but im more to practical. i dun like to see the past and being so great about it. i dun even noe the people! geezz...so where to lahhh?

MALDIVES!! BEACH! SURF! SUN!

well besides than, CORALS, OCEANS, MARINES!! and and A BOAT! (a yacht would be nice too)

Mauritius also can lahhh. as long as there's beach, oceans, and nice weather!! i dun mind being under the sun as long as i get to swim swim and swim!! yeay!!

last time went to langkawi omg! i spend most of the time at the beach! then get sunburn! hahaha!!

we can go snorkeling, go around the island, sleep on the white sandy beach, swim the whole day, having dinner at the beach, ahhhhh..niceeee!!

*snap fingers, slap face, both sides!*

oi oi, bangun! nak mimpi lagi?? *nak lahhhh!*

hehee...kan best berangan weh.

thanx Mr. Google for the dream!!

Paranoid?

2011-01-27T00:24:00.004+08:00

So, statement. aku caring? pffftt...caring psal kau? double pfftttttt....plus wtf?

please la weh. kau dah block aku. pastu kau kutuk aku kt fb. kau gler dow. emmm, psycho much?

atau ur just being coward. how bout this. come to me, and say it in front of my face. senang kn? jmp hari2. ai, x puas hati ckp depan2 beb. kau yg ckp kan. skg kau xleh buat?

skg cube kau bgtaw aku, spe yg sebok2 sgt nk taw psal aku smpai sakit telinga kau dgr, sakit mate kau tgk?? kalau setakat grup girl, xde hal la beb. aku rse diowg boleh tnye sndri kot. ke kau sje2 gebang? kan kan? kau kan bajet hero. or heroin. nth aku x kesah. ye, aku sengal. tp kau bangang kot. kau yg cri pasal ngn aku dulu. aku x pnh sebok2 nk taw psal kau. asal weh. kau PARANOID!

oh, lg satu..aku dgr byk gak cite psal kau. tp as well, idgaf. kau paranoid. tu psal kau kne amk taw.

ah, x kire. ni kan blog aku. suke ati ahhh...

Stfu,idgaf

2011-01-25T18:18:00.004+08:00

Oi, hello!

satu pesanan harini. jgn jadi bodo. igt aku x taw kau stalk bce blog aku ke sengal. eh, ni bukan yg kat nun jauh tu. ni yg dekat2 ni haa..tp actually, kau x phm bhs dow. ape mslh kau. dah block tu block je la. taw ape mksd block? halang! xkasi tgk. xkasi taw. haaa..rule kalau dah block org ni, jgn sebok2 lg. kau jge diri leklok. byk mulut jgk sini. tp xkisah la. kalau kau nk bce jugak, silakan. even satu post je. boleh naik kan traffic blog aku. x kisah x kisah..mari2 jemput cik adik, abang, sume2 lah..

ps: childish weh.

If

2011-01-25T00:55:00.001+08:00

What if i stay forever

what if there's no goodbye?

From me to u ;)

2011-01-23T23:31:00.003+08:00

I will miss you. i always do. Siti Maheeran.

kan kau ckp.."titi, kalau la aku taw 2 thn lepas..kau akan jd best friend aku. mesti lg best. mcm2 kite plan sme2..msk sme2..hehe.."

awwww ;) rara, rara..

kau mesti xtaw. tp aku rse aku dah ter-bgtaw kau. ape je yg aku x cite kat kau.

"rara, kalau 2 thn lepas kau taw aku akan jd best friend kau, kau rse kite still kawan lg ke skg?"

im just glad. really glad.

u r my:

1. chef

2. mechanic

3. study partner

4. crying shoulder (tho most of the time u dun noe wat to do)

5. dream partner!! (i just love doin this with u. keep me awake in class)

hey, kau ajar aku bce motor trader! haha. kau ajar aku pasal kete. until now, aku clueless.

"papehal aku call kau je la eh?" < ------- LMFAO

Rara, tinggal bpe bulan je lg dow. cmne weh? well, im scared u noe. :(

Tak boleh sweet sgt! nanti diabetic!

2011-01-21T00:08:00.003+08:00

Congrats to my bestie! Azzriza for breaking the betting! yeay! TGI is on the way bebeh. tunggu je la. tulah. i da agak punye. mane boleh stay single. ishhh dah 21 kot. for you lah. not me. i 27 kot. hehe. nak kumpul duit byk2!!

btw, Zainur..muke bf Azza cm kau dow.

back to the story.

aku x suke. eh byk plak bnd kau x suke. itu x suke, ini x kene. well biase lah. we have to be choosy to get the best! ceit.

okay2, aku x suke kan. bile kau state yg kite kawan, just kawan kan. xyh la wat bnd2 sweet sgt. kang diabetic plak aku. heh. serious dow. one thing you need to know about me, i fall so easily.

but easily find way up lahh =p. aku x boleh la. jgn nak sweet sgt ngn aku. org cepat perasan la sng cite.

bf aku pun x sweet cm kau. dulu lahhh. mne ade sweet cm kau. kan kawan je. haaa. oke?

aku suke kau weh, tp bukan skg nk confess sgt. nanti lah. nanti mesti aku bgtaw kau. pastu kau...errr..nth la. xpnh terpikir plak. tapi kau best dan memang sgt baik.

bak kate best friend aku, "kau ni tina, jgn cepat sgt suke org lahhh.."

kau x boleh sweet sgt ngn aku. nt aku gedik, kau parah. haha. ade ke? sengal.

2011-01-19T21:18:00.002+08:00

Aku dah ckp jgn plan. skg tgk cmne? patutla aku tido smpai kul 9pm! so kau tinggal kan aku sorg2 kat kolej ni? cmni la kan. btw, td aku mimpi ke ape? kau ckp nk blk kan, ikin admit seri kota. yelah, fine. adik kau sakit.

woi! haih. adik dia sakit kan. ape la kau ni. xkn nk jeles kot.

so ape aku nk buat malam ni? aku nk lepak ngn spe? haaa, rumet! join rumet tgk the tourist la. buat milo sorang2. slalu berdua. lepak kat pantry. sok sek sok sek. ade je bnd nk cite. heee..

aku rse bile dah blk hosp msng2 mesti nangis gila babs. skg pown aku nk nangis. kau nk tinggalkan aku weh. promise kau stay ngn aku sebulan nt oke? promise! kite masak sme2, g kolej sme2..cuti sme2. excited plak! see, i told u. kan aku ske excited bnd yg nth pape ni. haha.. =p

kau jgn jd cm zainur fareezal ek. both of you make me cry. leaving. jgn lah leave, stay je lahhhh..nanti aku sorg2. seri kota jauh. ceh, padahal klang je. dah dah. g balik cepat. jge ikin. dia sakit tu. esok blk boleh minum milo kannnn? yela, esk nk mkn ape. duit xde. sob sob. mkn pasir kot.

If you want to know about me, fucking ask me urself!

2011-01-19T18:29:00.007+08:00

Dulu aku ade membe. mse mule2 msk sini. ala malay dah la sket kt sini..cewaaahhh ckp cm kau kt overseas. heh. xde. aku study kt pj je haa...mse mule2 msk kolej ni, ktorg kawan2 la. just xknal lg. so kawan je la bodo2 cmtu.

pastu dah lme sket. boleh la aku nyanyi lagu ni. I SEE YOUR TRUE COLOR....lalalaa

then, tetttttttttt..tak kwn dah. oke. sbb ape, tu tak boleh la bgtaw. aib kan org wtpe. ish tak baik. yela aku memang x baik. dah. jgn kawan ngn aku lg. aku suke ckp byk, kalau kau bdk pendiam mesti kau bengang ngn aku. ckp tak henti2, dah la ckp laju. setiap hari aku jerit2 dlm kelas. high pitch plak tu en.

kalau kau perasan kau tua sgt, mesti kau igt aku kuang ajaq gler. oke. kau perasan kau tua. tp x tua mne pown. eksyen je lebih. yelah, aku tak suke dgr pendapat kau sorg je. mne boleh! mentang2 kau "tua" dr aku, so kau je la betul. aku yg "kecik" ni dok diam2 dgr ckp kau..ooooooohhhh. mne boleh. dgr la pendapat sme2.

eh yg ni, aku bg contoh. kne tulis contoh gak en. haishhh.

lme2 tu. dah x bercakap. kire putus kawan la. actually, byk bnd npe ktorg x bercakap. oke. xde la ktorg cm "weh, kau gedik..aku xnk kawan kau lg.." or " kau x belikan teddy bear putus kawan.." haaaaa, kau gler hape..disebabkan teddy bear putus kawan. cehhh. tak logik!

maybe dah byk sgt flaws yg kau ngn aku dah nmpk in each other.

dah tak larat nk bertentang mata, berjalan seiring dan mcm2 lg la. so biar jela. 1 bulan, 2 bulan..3 bulan dan nth la. kalau kawan pown cm...nth la. dah tak same cm dulu.

tapi. bukan itu point aku.

point aku ialah, apabila aku tidak berkawan dengan seseorang itu..maka aku tiada niat atau harapan untuk mengetahui tentang org itu. atau erti kata lain, "do i care?" "nope".

boleh blah.

tapi apesal kau sibuk2 nk amk taw pasal aku. aku msk sem ke tak. aku nk pkai tudung ke nk bukak ke, pkai blk ke..yg kau sebok2 apesal? kau tak taw hujung pangkal toksah nk sebok oke.

ade aku sebok2 amk taw pasal kau? takde kan? lantak la. pastu nk taw, tnye rumet aku plak tu. eleh, tnye la aku sendiri. aku boleh jawab.

aku tak suke la weh. kalau aku tak kawan kau, jgn sebok2 pasal aku.

I'm so glad dude.

2011-01-19T00:59:00.005+08:00

grrrr, i wanna destroy this tower. *x puas ati sbb xdpt g* cehh.

Awwwww!! im sooooo happy!! thanx dude! seyes nk nangis dah. kau asyik buat aku nangis je. sedih taw x! sob sob sob. even tak kol, tp kau on gak ym. sbb dpt text aku yg sgt annoying..ngeh ngeh..

ape lg. chat lah. hehe. nanti kau balik taw taw. aku tunggu. cewahhhhh!

siap tnye lg. "ble korg graduate?" hehe..

btw, kau nk g Amsterdam!! x aci x aci! nak ikut gak. heeeee...btw, dude. cm mak aku ckp "oh zainur g paris, milan sume cm nk g chow kit jea..hehe" yelah, cm dekat je kan.

td aku tbe2 emo. aku usha ticket xde promotion! sume mahal2. kalau lah aku kaya, dah lme aku melawat kau anytime dude. cm tmpt lepak aku kalau aku kaya kat France. hehe. cehhhh, berangan la lg byk2, tina oiiiiiiiiiii!!

ayat x bole blah weh. yelah teringin gak men salji, jmp membe kau, men masak2. hehe. padahal kau nk main salji je kan tina? ckp je la. cehhh. pastu kau nk shopping kan kan?

ticket mahai2. xdpt kumpul even for a year. yelah skg ni gawat. eceh.

i miss you. eeeiii, geli. ewww, ewwww. tp ape nk buat. dah gedik. cmni la jd.

truely true. nothing more true than this shit over here dude.

Dia dah hilang kat mane nth!

2011-01-18T18:50:00.002+08:00

Dude. like kau kat mane dow? aku rse kan, aku rse lah kan...rse dan rse nye. cm kami sume rindu kat kau. kami? erk? kami ke? haa ape apelah. aku bru bace blog hanis zalikha dude. kau kenal tak? alah, awek cun tak kan kau xkenal. cewahhh. nway. membe dia kt Germany. dia g visit weh. tbe2 aku teringat kau. nk visit kau dkt france. tapi aku xde duit skg weh. aku sedih weiiii.. T___T. aku betol2 nk melawat kau kt sne. aku, rara, jija sume lahhh...eh, ade ke tmpt nk tdo nt? heh. xpe. itu lain cerite. cm seronok la plak aku tgk hanis tu melawat membe dia. pulak time xmas.

fb kau deactivate. aku xtaw npe..ym pun x. lg hampeh...nt lah aku wat skype. boleh lah kite ber skypig. taw taw. kau tunggu je nt.

jap2 aku nk kire. May, June, July,August, September, October, November, December, January!! 9 bulan dah dude!! wow!! terharu siot. lme dah kau tinggalkan m'sia ni. hukhukhuk...nk nanges!! nk g France, nk g France!! *nangis guling-guling*.

dis year kau balik kan? kan? raya dis year kau blk kan..ala, balik la. mak kau asyik tnye aku je ble kau nk balik....ha? ble mse? haha. perasan siot. yelah dulu kan kau cakap " kalau aku balik, aku tak nak bgtaw kau pun.." then aku replied, " apesal weh? cari pasal la mamat ni.."

"aku nk berdiri depan kau tgk reaction kau.." haha. try la. "aku buat bodo je..."

haritu kan kau cakap, kau nk stay France lme sket. nk buat master lah hape la. jd 4 tahun dah plakkkkkkkkkkk!! fine. stay la. tapi dis year kne blk. teman aku tgk movie. main arcade. makan2. teman aku shopping..hehe.

wey, seyes kalau kau bce gimme a call. kalau la aku taw num kau kt France tu. haihhhh...

aku ade bnyk bnd nk cite. well, besides yg aku nk grad dan ble kau blk aku dah kawen ade ank sume...tetttttt!! mne ade cmtu. best friend aku kt France! x boleh kawen selagi dia x balik sini!

amaran keras! hahahahaaa.. nt spe nk jd bridesmaid? dude kau boleh kan? hehehe..

imy lah dude!

Too early to think about it!

2011-01-17T19:26:00.003+08:00

I will always be by ur side. but ur not mine.

Okay. so today i just wanna state that i still wish that my husband is my best friend..well at least not some stranger.

so waddup? tbe2 post cmni? ekeleh, like i have a bf lahh now. ok. no. im single. n n loving it. gedik2 tu biase. sgt dahhh.

i was thinkin that some of my frens that are going to marry. so i asked, "da bpe lme kau kenal dia dow?"

"ade la dlm 6 bulan...."

i was like, seriously?? kalau jodoh kau, alhamdulillah.

but but. me not like that. i'm still standing tall stating that my husband should be my best friend. oke. kalau dlm 6 bulan hari2 korg dating mengenali diri masing2, which i found teramatlah boring dan boleh meningkatkan aura kebosanan dlm diri psgn masing2. weh, hari2 jmp. hari2 dating. cm belangkas. bosan dow. tapi kalau dah suke. em, redahhhhhhhh je kan.

tapi 6 bulan. kau nk taw psal aku. cm x cukup weh. first 3 month, i am sweet. i am smiling everyday in front of you. i laugh at ur stupid jokes. bla bla bla. yelah, sume sweet kan. yucksss!!

geli dow. seriously, aku tak nak cmtu. maybe u need at least a year to know my freaking habit, oke maybe first date or two kau dah bole agak. aku mkn lmbt, dan yeah slalu tak habis. so what? kan kan. kau kenal aku, kenal kau. dah. bole kawin. end of story.

opppsssss. mane boleh. aku x selalu senyum mse kau dtg jmp aku. maybe something on my mind. aku maybe rse bosan ngn kau nt cmne? nth2 aku sleep walking. nt kau terkejut. haha. byk lg kot yg kau kne taw psal aku. n of course parents aku x kasi kawen tooo early. ambooiii, mentang2 da ade umh, kete, keje sume kau nk kawen lah. heh.

my point is, aku tumpang gembira ngn kau. tapi im sooooooo not going to marry a perfect stranger. n love at first sight. yelah. mse aku darjah 5 kot. ceitttt. tipu sume.

you have to get ur heart broken and the person who come to fix it, is yours forever.

Cupcakes!!

2011-01-15T23:24:00.002+08:00

Hai!!

harini kan kan kannnnn..celebrate birthday mama!! actual date esk, tp tina xdpt la esk. bz kot. journal cm sial xsiap2. pergghhh. dah mencarut. amek kau. aku bengang ni. tp tak kire! mesti siap jgk. biar berkang-kang mata (ni ayat rara)

awwwww! i loike lahhh! rumah baru cm dah lengkap. tinggal nk beli kabinet dapur. for which i said to my parents "ekeleh, xyah susah2. xyah besar2. bukan slalu masak pown, lalalaa" beb, umh bujang beb. what do u expect. kalau ikut umh tu kan yg kat balakong tu kan, haihhhh. memang x maw. besar gabak. tak suke. nak comel jea. boleh?

btw, td share cupcakes ngn Amer! nth npe. yela. sharing is caring. kot. fmly tak mkn byk bnd manis2 ni. so, share ngn amer je lah yg selebihnya tu. sedap pe. black forest. i loike! usually tak suke yg ade berry2 ni, tp yg ni cm oh okay, not bad. tp kalau bisou tu, maw diabetic aku. manis. cupcake chic sedap. nak link? nahhhh

http://www.cupcakechic.com.my/new/. beli la cupcake diowg. sedap taw!

kat sunway ade, curve, pavvy. yeay!!

nway, dia dah abs kedit. so nk msg ngn spe? alahhh. mcm la kau xde membe lain. bukan dia bf kau pown kan. dah dah.

Konklusi

2011-01-13T11:18:00.002+08:00

Selamat bertemu kembali!! cewahhhh! mne je la kau menghilang kan tina? haha. ade je wei. leka ber tumblr jap. reblog! reblog! reblog! hahaa!

http://dtynatqh.tumblr.com/ meh r join! kte bole reblog reblog! haha! ni adalah media yg agk bgus utk mengekspresi kan segalanya! fashion, emotion, words. yelah kalau kau malu2 nk bgtaw kt org yg kau suke dia ke, kau marah ke hape. nk show high class fashion ke kat sini la wei. as in pictures wordings or typography. best kan kan? nway, korang usha2 je la.

anyway, first thing first.

Alhamdulillah..dapat jugak aku masuk sem 6! ape kau ingat senang2 je kolej aku nk kasi org pemalas cm aku ni masuk? huh. hampeh tarak wei. tapi tbe2 seruan dan keinginan untuk graduate on time membuatkan aku terpakse bertungkus lumus, berhempas pulas membanting tulang (?) ke hulu ke hilir mencari procedure. oi oi aku bukan fail exam ke hape oke. just that, kolej aku tersangat la strict. maka aku pun telah meng strict kan (ade ke ayat ni?) diri.

so ape je yg aku buat? new year party. assunta nite. sunway gateway xdpt la wei. bz kottt...pffttt. sedih la. xpe nt2 pown boleh.

tulahh. ni kalau parents aku bce, maw membebel 3 hari 3 malam. haha. npe 3? sbb aku xpnh blk umh lme2. haha. 3 hari cukup. xdpt lebih2. keje lahhhh...ni alasan plng baik. eh, tapi betol pe. aku keje. bukan suke suki nak cuti-cuti ni cik kak oiiii...!!

btw, ade org tu dah ade new hairstyle la. awwww..!!

dah2 jgn main2 lagi. tolong jd serious. muke ketat oke. eh, sengal, mane boleh? nt byk kedut! tak nak! nk senyum je. even pale otak berserabut. ha. ni bru boleh. hehe.

Sometimes we just need time

2010-12-29T18:32:00.007+08:00

Our love is like a song. you can't forget it.

i hate u S! no. not my Serena. its another S. eh wait. name aku pown start with S. tapi asal lak aku nk benci diri aku. ish3...

yang ni S lain. S ni dah lama gak aku kenal since sem 1. dulu. dulu lahh, aku memang agak tak suke dia. dah la bossy gler. berlagak pandai. agak rude. tapi aku tak kesah sbb aku bukannya sopan sgt pown. kau nak rude? aku pown bolehhh..tapi lets put that aside.

ehem. mcm2 aku jmp bile search rude.

try lahh =p

nway, like someone said. don't judge a book by its cover. tak kenal maka tak cinta. cewahhhh!

but sometimes or just a human nature still judge someone by the cover. yelah, kalau kau pkai selekeh gler, mesti org igt kau ni miskin ke atau kau sakai ke hape. or or kau pkai smart, sebijik cam chuck bass..mesti org igt kau ni ank dato' ke, anak org kaya mne nth..oke. dah jgn tipu diri sendiri. ye. aku pown same. kadang2 terjudge dan termissjudge. then kne la mintak maaf. jgn kau plak nak bodoh sombong kat sne. malu wehhhh!

kalau kau pkai cmni, mst org igt kau power gler lahh. terms and condition apply.

wahahhaaa!!

orait. so ditakdirkan. aku posting selama 4 minggu weh. ngn si S dan ade lahh org2 lain.. kami cam omg! boleh dikatekan agak satu kepala even tu kdg2 gadoh mulut. eceh, biasela gurlssss!

now that we've been together for 4 weeks, i tink we could do this together. without having our silly cat fight. ryte2.

ish3! oke, aku blonde tu. if it ever happpens!

skg ni kami boleh bergelak ketawa bersama2. gossip sme2. haha..she still annoys me sometimes. but, im annoying too! its inevitable. haishhh..

fullstop. dah. next!

about this people.

Bill & Giulliana

nth la.btol ke aku eja nme bini kau wehh? asal lak tbe2 mereka? tak. actually as u ol noe, diorg ni ade wat cm reality tv psal hidup diorg. so aku terpikir, mst life diorg sgt exciting and interesting every single moment. mst ade drama, dilemma, conflict? tak kesah la. hmmm. nk wat reality show gak, tapi hidup aku tak se- interesting as mereka. ade tak spe2 nk wat life aku exciting. haha..berangan je kan kan..

as if ur life like Serena and Blair lah kan...cehhh..

and and, for tonight go Malaysia go!

yeah!

special thanx to miss google!

Salah tengok ke?

2010-12-29T00:27:00.003+08:00

So i guess this is where we have to stand. did you regret ever holding my hand?

never again. please don't forget. don't forget.

I seriously don't know where we went wrong. but i really really like the time when we were together. i can finally be me.

nway, aritu g pasar malam ngn rara. mse ngh tunggu rara beli tiket balik ke tmn jaya..oh kami pergi psr malam di universiti. shj. dekat. 70 sen je oke. kot. haha. back to the story, mse ngh usha bju kt stesen tu, ade sorg kapel ni. chinese. diorg ask direction, tp in mandarin lah..bukan aku tak nak reply. tapi jgn la berpura2 mcm kau hebat sgt mandarin oke. sikit2 boleh la. pastu aku dgn jujurnya, ckp "sorry. im not chinese" then dia ngerti, dia tnye la dlm english. heh.

then aku ckp kt rara, wei. aku dah hitam sunburn pown org still igt chinese ke? haih..sambil buat muke perasan. haha..

time ni sunburn terok gler!

8-5

2010-12-28T22:22:00.003+08:00

Arrgghhhhhh!

asal aku bngn kne dgr suare dia wehh? n aku rse dia yg kejut kan aku kot. seriously annoying.

"tina wake up. we got practice." then i didnt respond to her. which she said "tinaaaaa"

then this is what she got. " im not going lahhhhhhhhhhhh". then i turned and continue sleeping. i lied. yes. i lied. its just to her i told im not going. i just don't really really like to respond that much to someone that i don't like. malas nak ckp banyak ngn dia. just one fucking sentence shut her down. and that's a cold one. yela. aku taw x baik. tapi dia pun bukan nya baik sgt ngn aku pown. disebabkan hari ni hanya kami berdua je dlm bilik, oh rumet lagi sorg keje noon. sorg lagi annual leave. xmas la kate kan.

maka, aku tido smpai pukul 10 mlm. smlm smpai kul 9. bgus2. ade kemajuan. hahaha..

btw, aku plng tak suka keje 8-5. takde tea time. then aahhhh. nth lah. penat giler kot. no. more to mengantuk actually. yelah. kau duduk..eh berdiri dlm bilik doctor tu haaa..pas2 case notes. jadi operator. tolong bukak pintu. macam2 lah. tapi cam alamak bosan dow. its just the environment maybe. pasni back to ward. yehaaaa! yes ade can nk shape up. konon keje byk smpai takde mse nk makan..wahahahahaha!! lame giler wehhh....

oh i just found out.

if two people were meant to be together, they'll find their way eventually.

macam ni.

Chuck Bass n Blair Waldorf!

Sibuk nak jadi penukang jugak

2010-12-27T00:08:00.007+08:00

Since Gossip Girl season 4 aku download dgn success nya. maka, dgn ini i declare im back to Blair Waldorf mode. sape xtaw Blair boleh kira lame lahhh. pergi tunjuk muke kt tempat lain. boo~

Ekeleh, ade ke ayat penukang?

Okay.back to the future..eh future? salah dow. present time. back to college. dok diam2. jgn suke suki kuar until 31 taw2..

yelah..yelahh. aku ngh bace buku ni kottt..aku dgn sabarnye menunggu tarikh itu..hohooho..

*x sabar actually, hari2 ckp pasal 31, post pasal new year* kalau x jadi kau plak tunjuk muke kat tempat lain oke! hahahaha..btw, ape aku nak buat ngn 31? oppps, xleh bgtaw sgt..ade stalker dow. taw2 je dpt arahan atasan mengatakan aku tidak dibenarkan melakukan ape2 pd 31..ni yg malas ni. ade je org yg nk menyampaikan. haihhhh~mind ur own business lahhh

yes! roger that.

weekend ni. hmmm..weiiii aku da reti pasang rail langsir!! hebat tak? hebat tak? hehe~ kau igt senang aku nk drill wall ke? kalau xde kekuatan mental dan fizikal baik kau tolong pas tool je kat aku. hahaha~~

seyes berat driller bosch tu.

weiiii..mane ade aku drill. aku tolong paku kan je sbg penanda. sje gatal2 tgn. dan kesian tgk ayah aku buat sorg2..aku hanya mampu pas2 barang je. tulahh, xde plak adik laki kan. sume pompuan je..abg dah kawen. nth mne je la dia tu. ayah aku cam xsuke tgk kami bertukang kot. hehe~tapi tapi tina nak try gak..*sambil buat muke excited pegang driller dan rail langsir serta paku dan screw* heh..

rumah kau bru nk psg langsir ke? xla dow. ni umah bru. ye. aku ade umh bru. nanti senang2 dtg la. aku buat party parta ke hape kan..haha. biase2 je umah ni. tapi aku suke. comel je. bukan cam umh skg. cam muzium. kalau pindah bawak brg2 umh lame tu, maw 3 hari 3 malam bru abis..hehe. penat2.

nanti bile dah siap2 sume. cantik byk2 (skg cantik sikit). aku post la pic.

buat mse skg. kau pergi tido mimpi indah2. jumpa dlm mimpi oke. jumpa aku. bukan pakwe atau awek kau. itu lain. haha. nite u ols!!

Life kau membosankan aku.

2010-12-22T21:33:00.008+08:00

Okey, okey, relax. tarik nafas dalam2, tahan jap..n exhale.

result nak kuar wei. nak buat bodoh je, bole tak?

malas sungguh. dah la kene dengar leteran bebelan dari tutor. penat penat. tu yg tak cukup tido. pastu bile result da cm hampeh, nangis pun tak gune. haa, bak meh rm50 p bayar resit paper. sape soh tak blaja rajin2. asyik on9 je. tgk gossip girl sampai boleh hafal skrip. nak jadi cm blair lah. kire duit beli kete lah. joli2 sedunia lagi tak kire..fuhhhhh! memang padan kalau result kau cam hampeh wei.

tapi tapi, tak kan la kau expect aku jadi cam skema badak wei. tu zaman high school aku tuuuu..

btw, diorang kt sini takde life wei. nak plak yg dri kampung mne nth (eh kalau terase nasib ah) balik kelas, mandi2, bukak buku. bukan ke kat kelas tadi dah bukak buku? sekarang tutup ah plak. sian buku. asyik kene bukak je. tu life mereka.

aku tak biase lahhh. duduk2 bace buku. novel takpe. siap terbaring-baring pown aku boleh. dah kate stay pj, ape kelassss lepak2 dlm hostel. mari meronggeng ahhh. i have my own life here. its party every fortnight. hah? kejadah? tipu lah. taw xpe. giler, takde la smpai party every fortnight. kite light2 sudaaa..haha.

tulahhh, aku tengok ade org2 kat sini. rilek je duduk kat dalam tempat ni. kesian kau. takde membe kot? kalau ade pown cm kau ah. tak paham aku. even mak aku pown tak paham mengapa mereka begitu. tapi mak aku suruh jadi cam diorang. sikit2 la. maka dengan itu, ehhhhh..tak boleh ma. ini salah. mereka tidak bersosial la ma..itu zaman batu kot. B.O.S.A.N

bersosial plak. kang korg ni bukan boleh. kate aku poyo.i mean, keluar lepak2 ngn membe..maple jap. shopping sakan (?) celebrate something kat luar. dinner dgn yang tersayang. mengupdate kan list movie korang. haaa..cmtu lah. takde la aku clubbing, shisha, seks rambang (?) plak kan, kau giler ke hape. btw, i know ur anatomy better than u do. so, korg pikir2 lah balek. haha.

cmni lah muke aku everytime aku nak study

kesian kat anak kau. bace buku smpai jadi cam ulat! hah!

jeles ngn kau! bak meh sikit!

yang ni takpe. the only exception!

dan jadilah mcm mereka! oh wow! cute nyaaa korang!

eh, ade meeting. this is college pathetic life. x yah masuk kolej wei. jadi socialite lagi best. huh.

sume2 pic tu, credit to google.

Bebelan hari Ahad

2010-12-19T23:26:00.003+08:00

Okayyyy..seriously. i need a new wardrobe. spe2 yg bju sikit seciput tu bak meh la wardrobe korangggg!! wei, membazir space la. aku punya cm nk runtuh dah ni..

nasib baik lg 6 bulan je. after that dah kne halau. nasib baik ade tempat perlindungan..hehe

rumah baru!! yeay! ayah n mama dah beli kan ;) thanx! beliau cakap, nanti senang..dekat sikit. xyah ulang alik jauh2..hmmm betol2..wat perabih minyak kete je..ckp psal kete ni kan..rse nye dah ready. ok, boleh la rembat satu kete..ape2 kete je la ayah..xkesah punye =p setelah dikire2 tolak tambah darab bahagi..sudah tibe mse nye utk memikul tanggungjawab membayar duit kete, umh..

heh, nasib baik la aku nurse..xyah pening pale g keje nak pkai baju ape oke! just spend utk shoes, and handbag boleh la kot..hehe..

haaa..td g pilih katil..omg! i loike la..besar giler..size king oke..(kat umh queen je) takde la plak aku nk tido sorg2...gler hape..katil besar tido sorg2..cuak dow..mst la tido ngn adik2. eh tak ramai pun, kami bertiga shj. ade bling2 weiii katil aku..cantik dow, nt da smpai next week, aku post. igt g usha je, skali mama ckp..beli skali la skg..senang! order sume siap, next week hantar..perghhh..skali ngn almari..haa besar gak..i loike! ekeleh murah je kot, kt cavenzi tu haa...aku xde la nk g ikea ke macy ke court mammoth ke hape..bosan dah dok balakong tu haa..lepak tmpt len plak. pergghhh. dah bosan ek? hahaha...

haihh. byk plak nk membebel kat sini..dah dah..esok sambung. nite2!!

ps: bosan kot entry ni kan, xde pics. but whatever. my blog, not yours! haha..

That someone

2010-12-18T00:12:00.004+08:00

I'm happy now. i know you always there but you are not here when i needed you the most. somebody has taken that place. and i really really like that somebody.

but we don't really have to put labels on it, aren't we?

hoi, dah la. jgn merepek.

tak nak. nak merepek jugak. i dun wanna be a realist. not just yet. i wanna be like this forever.

booo...

tadi kan kan..kite lepak (?) ngn Amir..hhaaa..ape plak lepak. cm pelik. nth. mungkin lebih dari itu. tgk muvie oke. tron! muahahahahaa..best gak. tapi x byk warna bak kate Amir. boringggggggg...we mean dunia diorang la. bju satu pesen, tp ade putih (org baik), oren (geng jahat)..glow in the dark wehhh..tu yg plng teruja. oh besides that, diorg ade satu cam device ni..yg boleh tuka jd vehicle..

cool dow bnd nih! nak satu!

pas dia dah tarik bnd ni jd dua..tbe2..

tadaaaa!! motor yg sgt tough! i loike!

anyhooo..bfre that kami jejalan di sunway, usha dress dan bju..wahhhh, Amir pasni boleh la jd teman shopping! seriously i really like kot shopping ngn dia. maybe because he likes shopping too ;) teman dia beli bju jugak, kite yg choose..hehe..then terjumpa membe dia plak..mrk berborak-borak..lme xjmp..nth. then pas muvie, g mkn kat popeyes! i loike! tapi kite kn mkn lambat, ape nk wat..haihhhh..lopekkkkk. then balik la kot. penat siot. masing2 keje siang hari ni..haha..

then Amir ckp, kite byk mse lg..senang2 nanti boleh kuar lg..mkn eksrem ( oh, ini sy yg mahu)..kite berdua mmg selalu senang! haha..

syg, nanti nak beli jacket tu nk ikut! nak beli dress jugakkkkk =p

btw, thanx for everything.

Tak larat dah weii..

2010-12-16T00:37:00.003+08:00

Waaaaa....mama..x nak da blaja. penat. ayah, belikan je la kete tu..tina stay kt umh bru eh eh..jd bibik ke..nak muntah dah blaja ni...

agak2 boleh la kot ckp cmni, memandangkan nk grad dahhhh..cisss, house final pown x start lg kau nk berangan kannnn..

bile kau nak start blaja betol2 ni oiiii..td tu kau buat soalan-soalan past year ngekkk...

eh tak kire ke tu? study gakk..ahhh aku nye definisi lain..kau lain.

btw, aku dgr house final cam lawak pun ade. cam game dow..hahaha..

gelak la gelak...kau try jawab. tak berpeluh jgn berkata-kata..

disebabkan house final la, aku rse penat study wehh..

house final house final house final house final house final house final house final!!

Perasan busy je

2010-12-13T16:19:00.004+08:00

I am still trying to find a perfect planner or organizer as my days soon will be hectic ( i think)

so i'm writing it here. please do remind me.

1. 18.12.2010- Azzriza's bro wedding. must attend!!

2. 19.12.2010- My cute lil niece cukur jambul/ aqiqah kenduri

3. 25.12.2010- Swimming and work out @ Palace of the Golden Horses with BFF!!

4. 1.1.2011- Cash out day with BFF!!

5. 9.1.2011- Annual Dinner @ Subang Grand Dorsett

6. 15.1.2011- Sunway gateway!!

hey, where got busy. oh not to mention between those days i might wanna go outing with amir. but we haven't say any word about it. but pls pls pls, nak tgk tron!! hehe..gedik ah.

anyway, now its posting time..so my working hours are from 8- 4pm. tireddddd ahhh..bile nak grad ni... T__T

did i mention tired just now? yep. wanna go and take nap now. enjoy your day!

yep.

Obliviate

2010-12-12T21:55:00.002+08:00

After a week, i'm ready. to write about it. since im not going to meet you again, so here goes..

its not easy.

i already knew when you asked me out for the second times, its not going to work. i know you got sister that is my age, i knew it just won't. i knew when you called me budak. i always knew. i knew it from the way you talked, walked and just about everything. i'm not that naive, I've dated guys before..so i already knew when its not working..when you called me on my birthday.

but you know what is the saddest part?

me knowing it from someone else. it could be bitter if i heard it from yourself but go on, i swallow it anyway. now, i look like a fool. foolish. that's me.

should have known, but why am i doing it? just to see how far one can go. and recover. for me, the hardest part is, the kind of feelings you have. a mixture of anger, sad, relieved (not sure if i even felt it), disappointed.

i wish that phone call is the damn last one. i do not wish to see you. i hope i will not see you. i have thrown it all away.

be happy. as i couldn't wish more than that. i'm weary and you are long gone.

the end.

Keep it cool babe

2010-12-09T23:52:00.007+08:00

Hello from not-so-friendly place. yep. college.

its a hectic week. college night which is the lamest thing ever happened to me since coming here. why? we can't bring a date. from outside. by other mean, you can't bring your bf/scandal/bff/gbf so whatever. you have to agree with me this time, if you ever consider yourself a human with feelings who fortunately live on earth. if not, errr..i guess you Martians? damn you!!

ape? tak puas hati? boo you martians

the event will be held at the college itself..duhhh..(it is college night anyway) and we will be doing perfomances..and exchanging of gift, since they will be celebrating xmas. they not me. note that. i never really like all this kinda thing you know. its not fun maybe because there are no guys (?) and bff? i have to say again, its lameeeeeeee..pls do something about it k.

i was thinking (again) to go for ice skating. maybe amir can help me with it. he's very good with skateboard. hey, skating and skateboarding is almost the same. its all about balancing..wow, just when are we gonna do that? we will be going to our annual dinner, sunway gateaway..bla bla bla.. isn't it cool? should be fun. should create smiles and laugh.

wah, ramainya orang!! sume nmpk cam semut aje..hehe

oh oh, and i kinda want to buy this books..

why am i reading tony parsons anyway? i like star wars and barbie perhaps? haha..its totally different from other novels i read before. Parson's story is from a guy point of view.. from a husband, dad, ex-husband...etc. its so fun to read. well, as for now it seems...

as for Kinsella's..its a part of my life. shopping. can't avoid it though.. ;)

that's all for now, nites peeps!!

Demi Lovato- don't forget

2010-12-08T20:08:00.002+08:00

weiiii..asal aku asyik nyanyi lagu demi lovato? dari tadi, don't forget..don't forget..tulahhhh bila orang dah asyik forget, lagu don't forget memang sesuai..awwww

hehe..g la search youtube sendiri, malas plak aku nak paste-paste link kat sini..

nah, demi lovato- don't forget.

anyway, thanx to azza..pasal ko la weii aku asyik nyanyi demi nye lagu..hehe

sorryy..dude. aku ngn disney mmg xboleh dipisahkan. even for 40 years. hah!

About someone

2010-12-07T22:53:00.006+08:00

Hye hye peeps!

aku happy. korang happy tak? haa..tak happy? takpe happy la untuk aku oke..

tulahh, bile aku happy kau tak happy. bile aku emo..mmg cm pffttt..dah dah..jangan spoil mood aku, sekeh kang!

aku happy sebab aku tak stay kat hostel yg obviously membosankan, terutama pada hari2 cuti macam ni..da la cafe tutup, nak makan ape pown tak taw..cissss (ni act part plng bengang)

tapi tapi nasib baik ade dia..introducing Amir Izwan! yeay!!

dia tgh syok layan game kt ipod touch tuhh =p

well, dalam banyak2 aktiviti (even tak byk sgt lahh kann..) aku paling suka when we went to mph and read books!! haa...i read novels which i can't remember the author name, but i certainly remember the title, Man and Wife ;) while Amir bace about Jet and Fighters..boysss..ape nak buat kan kan..hehe..

lahhh asal dalam byk2 tempat kau lepak kat mph weiii.. movie start lambat lagi, so..pergi baca buku lagi ada byk pekdah taw takkkk..heh *muke skema*

oke la, until now..mana boleh cite lebih2..next episode ahhh.. =p

*yela dia best friend aku and something between that*

Salam Maal Hijrah

2010-12-07T10:27:00.003+08:00

SALAM MAAL HIJRAH!!

Semoga tahun ini lebih baik baik dan baik dari yang sebelumnya..

ada banyak lagi kekurangan yang perlu diperbaiki ye..

Lee Seung Gi- Words that are hard to say

2010-12-06T21:40:00.005+08:00

That toulon dude gave me this,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t4sNaEpAdpc&feature=related

so that i can smile 24 times/day? i don't know alright. he said just 24 is enough. i smiled 22 times today. then something happened that made that smile stop. just something.

ape daa..and he asked rara to make me smile again. heh..

i need to comment a few things though he said "jangan memilih sangat, just take what i give you"

1. mane plak aku membe ngan gengster weii..

2. aku emo. yes. tapi tak baling kerusi, meja ok..haha

3. awek tu comel en, cam aku..haaa (compliment is needed)

4. mamat tu (lee seung gi) cam kau dow..nerd abis! haha..

5. sume2 yang diorang actually buat tu we kinda did before lahh, except for snooker! not yet! haha..sangat suka! (easily excited over small things)

but you noe me well, so you know i liked it. this korean thingy..i think i cried. i hate you, aren't you suppose to make me smile? duhhhh..

it reminds of high school, way back then..

thanx Zainur Fareezal.. you have just completed my 24/day smiling actions!

nak dengar lagi lahhh..pergi main jauh2...syooo syoo..

oh oh, i posted it here so that i can remember.. you know, i got this thing called memori ikan emas :(and and, dis guy is my possible bf if you can see on my right side of blog..hehe

tulah, tak tahu ape tu? kan aku dah cakap, pergi la baca buku berilmiah sikit..or just Google!

ha macam ni, macam ni!! tapi rambut aku x panjang wehh =p

This is how i feel today

2010-12-06T16:33:00.006+08:00

Ade orang cakap aku ni pelik. skala kepelikan dari 0-10 i'm at 7. maybe because of this..

aku APATHY weii...ha? ape kebende apathy tu? korang ni, asyik bace komik je..cube la bce yg berilmiah sikit..wahahhaa..takde dow, aku kalau tak study psycho pun aku tak tahu..ye, aku study psychology, ade dalam syllabus..aihhh ape nk buat kan..nak tak nak kene amik tahu gak..

so here it is

apathy -absence or suppression of passion, emotion, or excitement.

-lack of interest in or concern for things that others findmoving or exciting.

exactly like me now

note: this only applies when i am not certain about something. most of the times the scale goes down. heh

all courtesy goes to http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/apathy

have a good day!

Missed connections

2010-12-05T22:46:00.001+08:00

Sometimes,

when the phone rings, it stops the minute you pick it up

the lift doors closes right before you can press the button

the traffic light turns red right before your turn

you run out of the most important ingredient for the recipe

an emergency happens right before you go on-leave

the client cancel on you right after you arrive at the door steps

you can't find your car keys when your rushing for a very important meeting

your boyfriend breaks up with you right before your birthday

missed connections are there to remind us of life's fragility

Setelah sekian

2010-12-03T23:18:00.009+08:00

Selamat bertemu kembali!! takde intro panjang sgt.aku tak tulis sebab aku malas. itu saje. senangkan hidup? aku fine aje, aku bahagia, gembira, ketawa dan senyum selalu. aku tak snap banyak gambar pun kali ni, yela macam aku cakap tadi, aku malas. takde pulak reaction muka aku yang fine, bahagia, gembira, ketawa dan senyum nak post pulak kat sini kn..haihhh selalu diorang suke snap time aku makan, comel katenye..bengong ke hape..jangan percaya itu semua tipu, aku makan macam gergasi sudaaa...teettt

haa, mcm ni la..makan je

okay, gagal untuk menyembunyi kan sesuatu adalah kelemahan aku. aku tak fine. aku sakit wey, aku tak bahagia macam kau, aku tak gembira selalu macam kau, hilang gelak ketawa dan senyuman..kalau aku senyum tu pun nampak tipu.

mengapa?

aku sedih. kau tak tahu.

aku tak suka pulak nak jaja cerita aku kat orang ramai, publisiti murahan.

aku nak kau tanya, tapi kau bukan selalu ada disini.

aku tak bahagia dan gembira sekarang. sebab apa? kau tak nak tanya. cuba tanya, nescaya aku jawab dengan jujur. tapi kau mesti tahu, aku paling gembira apabila bersama dengan keluarga dan rakan- rakan juga bila ada orang belanja aku aiskrim dan waffle..bertambah kegembiraan aku..tak kisahlah makanan tu menggemukkan ke ape, yang penting aku gembira kan? bab ni kalau x percaya boleh tanya rakan- rakan aku la..ingat aku nak gebang ke ape..

jarang ketawa menghilai dan gedik yang selalu kau dengar itu wujud sekarang. memang la, satu hal kau takde untuk mendengarkan nya (jika ia berlaku), lagi satu tiada apa yang paling kelakar untuk digelakkan dengan ikhlas.

monyok

aku tak tahu mana kau. apa kau buat sekarang. cisss, kalau ada pintu sesuka hati doraemon tu dah lama aku set nak jumpa kau sekarang jugak, boleh? ada ke jumpa orang tengah malam buta, tak senonoh dipandang jiran tetangga ye adik- adik...ish ish ish..siang esok je la kau jumpa..

tapi disebabkan aku stalker terhebat yang kau pernah ada, aku nak peep je la, jenguk- jenguk sikit..tengok kau sihat ke tak, kau sakit ke apa..then aku balik rumah aku..lega la kalau kau sihat.

aku sibuk, kau sibuk. masa memang jeles dengan kita.

lately ni, baru la aku dapat berangan dengan sempurna..kau tahu, aku punya sibuk sampai nak berangan pun tak de mase..patut la orang tua cakap berangan ni takde pekdah dan membuang mase..sebab kalau kau ade mase (sibuk sangat), eh kau takde mase la nak berangan -angan ni..memanjang dengan bb, asyik reply komen kt fb..haa tak sibuk kau kate..

mate sepet cam aku..boleh la.

aku takde bb, tapi pic kt atas ni memang aku selalu buat la..

aku berangan pasal doraemon, nak helicopter dia la, mesin masa la, pintu sesuka hati la..haihhh..padan la doraemon tu hanya dicipta kan sebagai watak komik, kalau real..habis la dunia ni...

laahhh..da terpesong aku ni. ape plak cite pasal doraemon. aku nak cite pasal perasaan aku.

btw, aku tak tahu apa dah jadi kat aku, pasal apa aku cerita pasal kau. dan ini semua.

aku selalu berpegang pada ini

" time will heal everything, if he doesn't appear sooner or later it will just fades away"

tak tahu plak sape nye quote ni..aku pikir sendiri kot..cuba kau pikir jap.

in the mean time, aku nak tidur..mata dah rabak ni..berjaga je keje (sibuk kan)

nites people!

best kan macam ni

2010-11-26T12:45:00.001+08:00

Dude,

mane kau? i think i need you now..

2010-11-16T00:36:00.002+08:00

Matang? kematangan?

ekeleh...ape benda ni? cm xpernah dgr la plak en...cissss

tak de la..

aku taw, dan selalu terpikir gak..cmne nk jd matang cm sis in law aku..cun plak tu..

dia lemah-lembut, ckp slow2, jalan sopan santun, xpernah jerit2 kt adik2 dia..everytime aku tgk dia en, mst cm "alamak, akak jija ni.."

da la dpt hubby cm abg aku..perghhh mantap siott..ckp stok romantik...abg aku pown cm dia gk ah..rilek je..cm cool.. =p so bile aku ngn kak jija en tbe2 aku berubah jadi lemah-lembut (sikit) ckp sopan santun, turun tangga slow2..cewahhhh..

tapi...kalau akak aku lain..

nak cite pown xabis..kalau nak dipendekkan akak aku ni rockerssss beb..dia men belasah je..cm aku..gasak kau la..tp hubby dia lain sioottt..kalau akak aku da gasak, gelabah..bro in law cool je..dia biar kn je..tgk2 ape next step...usha sket2..diowg ni age gap boleh tahan gak..6 years if im not mistaken...haaa..hebat x hebat akak aku..dia tackle..despite rockerss..sonang hidup dia..tup tap tup tap..anak2 da 2 org..terer la ko kak..

so back to the story

eh eh..aku cite ni sbg contoh kehidupan..bukan ape pown..ala rilek sudaa

unlike my sis in law..aku ni ekeleh..haishhh...ckp xde makne nye nk slow2, lemah lembut..ckp laju cm tren ade r..jalan tu cmne nk jalan cm pompuan melayu terakhir? xreti ahhh...cm miss world..xreti den..

talk when necessary..susah ni beb. soh diam 5 minute pown susah gak..

gelak cm senyap2 (giggle)..haihhh..ni lg susah..kalau ade membe cm cha, yatim, faiz..sume2 tu..haa aku pikir saploh kali boleh ke tak nak gelak ni..aku pernah try..cm kejap je diam dan tak gelak..pastu haaa..gasak kau lah..gelak x igt dunia punye..hahahahahaha..

cmne weii? nk jadi lemah lembut gak..sopan2..matured. mcm mereka..

oh lagi satu, even adik aku nmpk matang dan aku kdg2 nmpk cm anak bongsu (tp xmenjadi disebabkan pertumbuhan dan rupa fizikal kami) percayalah, aku gedik dan itu semua..aku masih tahu jage adik aku oke, masih tahu bagi alasan yg kukuh atas setiap kesalahan, masih tahu mengajar maths dan English dan science (esp certain topic..hehe), masih dan masih dan masih lagi..hehe..

best ape jadi kakak ;)

Bulan Sibuk

2010-11-11T19:33:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum readers!!

hari ini penat lah! korang xpenat ke? dah la ade lecture from doctor..tp xpe, disebabkan dia pkai kemeja kaler pink..so dimaafkan XD plus dia cute gler..so keje aku mse lecture dia, hanyalah usha dia dan said "yes" to everything..even salah..hahahaha..best tak? best kan kan...

oh, btw..sebagaimana yg aku tahu dan hopefully korg la kn..November adalah bulan yg plng sweet bagi aku..aku suka sgt november despite bulan ni mmg kecoh dan super duper busy..tp tu sume cam apa ade hal lah kn..npe sweet sgt november ni? hehe..mestilah sebab november 27 birthday aku..kalau toulon dude dgr ni mst kne lg..he said "jgn nak excited sgt november ni.." ekeleh, dia jeles..because he had to promise me dat he will say "yes" to everything in this month..hahaha..

so i told him this

" you are robyn"

"yes"

"and i am lily"

"yes"

yes to everything. yes! tp skg dia ngh tido kot. xpown study or worse case scenario, dota. biaselah, mat dota. Dunia Orang Takde Awek aka DOTA. ape la ko buat kat toulon tu kn..haihhhh..

OSCE coming up! tu psal la aq bz xtentu hala..ala practical exam. 24 aribulan. hari2 kne practice..penat gak, xsempat review utk kelas tadi..(mcm la ko slalu review pown kn tinaaaa)

next! Exam also coming up! on 29 november..final oi final..blaja oke! speaking of the devil, cmne nak jd rajin..dan genius..aq pnh dgr..mkn tempe boleh menguatkan ingatan..yela, besides kismis..i like tempe taw..

eh eh..nak tnye ah, cmne nak study tanpa buat notes..aq rse cm malas nak wat notes. cm malas malas..nak bce smpai muntah boleh? rumet aq x wat notes pown, rilek je..selamba badak dia tenung notes tu cm nak telan..pelik..markah lebih kurang aku, stok2 cukup nak gempak xsgt..average. yelah, bile da senior ni..dia slow sikit..average marks kire power r utk minah malas blaja cm aku ni..tido je dlm kelas. dan makan. dan berborak, bergosip.

dah malam kn? tgk la. jap g kne practice OSCE lg..sabar katil, pas abs sume bnd ni, malam ni juga aku beradu ngn ko..xkire2! aq rindu domo kun...t__t

Posers

2010-11-10T23:50:00.003+08:00

So what up with 2 post tonight? nahh, i just thought about something when i took my bath..

its about some people who like to wear glasses so they can actually look "stylish" and its a fashion (?) what i mean is, not the shades or sunglasses..its the dork nerdy glasses type or more like we called old school with the thick, big frame..usually black in colours..but oh well since its fashion they come in many colours..XD

let me tell you a story. true story about me.

i start to wear glasses when i was 9, and that is standard 3..so, when i was in form 1-3, let me calculate it for you..basically when i was 13-15 years old..well, teenagers at that time think that glasses is lame and not cool. at all. its like granny or something.. a friend of mine, told me that i actually look like nenek kebayan with my glasses. no, no..not the old school type, its just normal glasses with no frame..so i had high lens power..and it looks thick (believe me, i think so too)

what i did was, i took off my glasses the next day to school and everybody start to notice me. including the guy i like (yeay?). since then i become a trend setter. visually impaired student with no glasses. cool eh? my classmates and one of them is my bff followed me..well i influenced her actually..see, we went to school..crossing roads with no glasses just to be cool..no glasses and you are cool..when we wear glasses then? are we able to see what the teachers wrote on the blackboard? yes, we wear em only and only in the class, lab, etc..

yeah it was cool, and you started to wear makeup (yes, i wear makeup to school..so what?)

you see, the difference is..we nerds, dork and so whatever..wear makeups and bla bla..but we get good grades..not the same with you. you are posers. anyway..when you are not wearing glasses meaning you can't see clearly so even when your bf walks beside you, you didn't even say "hi" and this includes your best friends or any teachers called you..you just can't seem to respond. and that because you can't see. (clearly)

but i wear em back when i was in form 4-5 cause i dont give a damn thing about nerds or dorks. i just want to pass my spm. and i can say "hi" to my best friend again.

i just want to say that, i was like this when i was still a kid. you. yes, you. have a perfect eye sight. 6/6 non aided. i would be happy if i can see 6/6 non aided. but it always stated aided. so don't purposely go and buy those so called old school glasses just for the sake of fashion. plus it comes many bright colours, sometimes you can look like a mania person..its just ugly. trust me. your not having any eye problem, why want to be one. posers. nah, take my eyes..sepet. give me your big round eyes.

applies to you all. posers.

im cooler cause i've been wearing glasses since 9. and its old school, with thick, black-greenish frame..hah!

I just love dreaming

2010-11-10T21:48:00.007+08:00

I didn't talk to my best friend. it sucks i know. and it has been about emmm, 8 hours since after class..or its getting weird since lets see, the visits to malaysian for the blind association..speaking of which..the visually impaired people are cool! and im touched by their story..and and i learned braille..its awesome! oh last time when i was posted to the national eye hospital i met a friend..he told us about his story and of course it was sad t__t

btw, he is a paralympic and guess what? he's a rider, but of course he is visually impaired so its like this, they ride a two seated bicycle..the one infront is the one who have normal visual and at the back is him..how's that sounds? i have a friend competing in the olympic or sukan SEA? im not sure..but you know im proud of you Saiful! go and make Malaysia proud! i'll be waiting for the gold medal.. ^_^

Anyway, lets get back to the story.

im the one who frankly told/asked anyone about my opinion over something..so i frankly asked her, "ra, are we friends?" "or not?" or maybe i said in the kinda different version, it goes.."ra, we're not friends anymore, aren't we?"

then she said, "yeah, we're not"

i asked, "but why?" ( you know im not satisfied with just one gloomy answer and for the friendship's sake, I NEED TO KNOW FREAKIN WHY)

well then she said, " im just jealous cause everybody want to celebrate your birthday" (cause i insisted, and hey..its my 20th peeps! and birthdays are amazing! i love cupcakes, good music and nice place to celebrate and i want my friends to be with me on my 20th, especially)

btw, i just told her that i thought (oh, we didn't really get to celebrate hers on june) she's matured enough ( or that she wanted to be) and im still a kid, so i need a celebration =p

that's just it. and its this year is the last year im gonna celebrate with my college friends..i guess she still have time to celebrate hers next year june, right?

im sorry, its just me. i said it jokingly and everybody laughed okayyy ;) not about you, about the idea of my birthday..duhhhh. its kinda funny..the way i said it. and they thought its ridiculously hysterically funny (or i thought so) i just need 3 things on my birthday, and i will be happy on that day..

But im not that kinda person. sooner or later, im just gonna let my guard down (for awhile) and go to her room and sit on her bed and said "i hate birthdays! i don't think i can go to penang with you guys..just cancel the damn party (if they ever plan)" okayyyy..its my crazeee thought (hopefully i will change the script soon)

im just gonna say this "im sorry, im being selfish and childish but i love party and cupcakes and presents and surprises and most of all it would be just fun if im with the one im loved..especially you"

i just feel nice and good on november. especially there's cha and yatim who drivin me insane with their superficial lame but kinda works jokes..its like talking to the cast of HIMYM. wait, its like being in it!!

now, Tina..you need to stop dreaming about this nonsensical idea about birthdays, cupcakes or even parties..but you can dream bout HIMYM and their jokes. its cool and awesome, and you apply it to your regular daily life..hey, who knows it could be LEGENDARY!!

jom cuti-cuti!!

2010-11-04T10:49:00.004+08:00

Saya da blk kolej..tp sedih kne tido sorg2...rumet ksygn xde..kn skg ni cuti2..mereka xde la en. saya blk sebab nt nk g bercuti..tmpt berkumpul kt kolej r..tp en shhhh..sy xg taw sape2 pown kt umh..ha? xgtaw? asal nakal sgt ko ni tina?? *ini dialog membe2 aq* mereka risau tp sy xrisau sbb mereka ade..hheee sian korg kne jge aku..da la nakal, hyper, degil, suke lari sini sana..nasib nasib..muahahahaa...pegang tangan saya, nanti hilang aaaaa...xtaw nk mntk tolong spe daa..

tp nasib baik amer teman kite smlm..:) tgk sweet je kn sume org time november ni..

teman msg2 je..mne bole teman msk bilik..ape daa..

oke2, beg da kemas dan bak kate amer "bape tan lah bju yg dibwk nye tu?" tu la amer, smpai skg xtimbang2 lg..kang terlebih susa plak en..2 jam saya kemas beg, heh..penat taw..xde plak bibik kt kolej ni(ekeleh, lebey ni..) tp xpe, nasib baik ade amer ;) hehhee..

jom wat checklist, japg ade plak brg tertinggal en..

1.baju-baju (nighties, mandi-manda,jejalan)

2.seluar,skirts,leggings

3.beach sandals (cewaahhh, selipar sudahh)

4.dress (woot woot, biaselah..kate beach..)

5. tudung, shawls..

6. make up

7. toiletries

8. medicine (ya, saya sakit)

9. sunblocks ( errr...)

10. shades, hat..

eh ape lg ek? *sambil memandang beg besar kaler hijau* da mcm pelarian plak aq tgk, xpown dak2 lari umh...hehehee

11.towel

12. tiket? haa..xpegang la, tu kt mereka yg membeli tiket nth brp bulan yg lepas..

tu je la kot..hehe..nanti supir (ni kalau dgr sia2 lebam mate ko tina..) dtg amk kul 5pm..so kul 3 nk kne get ready dah..make up lg, mne taw bju x tune lak ngn shawls ke ape..haihhh..

ok...nk sambung tido..zzzzz...

eh xgtaw ke cuti ktne? aisehhhh...lupa2..langkawi..dekat je, saya x kaya cm awak nk cuti2 kt bali, bandung, london, nth mane lg...tp nak kumpul duit, honeymoon di maldives island bebeh..mauritius pown ok gak..

daa...sekian...

2010-11-02T12:53:00.003+08:00

muke excited

hai, hai..hari ni..rse cm nk tulis plak slalu tak nak la, gedik tak aku? gedik kn kn..tapi ni blog aku ske ati r..hari ni bngn pg cewahhh pagi la sgt..xde mkne nye. oke mesti r check fon en..first thing.hehe..dpt msg dr amer ;) beliau ckp, sori xdpt reply msg sbb kt sngpore ni reply msg rm1..otw blk kl da ni..sekian.

yela haritu ktorg msg mse dia kt sgpore agk byk la..haa ape dia wat kt sgpore? amboiii kemain cuti, siap la hang. nanti turn kite plak.muahahaa..dia kata g tgk concert, concert ape lupe plak nk tnye..sori2 aku mmg cmni, tnye what, tp lupe nk tnye why sometimes where..hahhaa selalu kne marah ngn rara sebab ni..lalalala~ dan bak kata dak toulon aku da tua..~~pffttttt

hari ni agak best sebab mok2 nk masak special utk kakak kesayangan..tp aku rase more to menggemukkan aku kn kn..bek ko ckp skg dik, ko nk bg aq gemok kn..cetttttt tak terpedaya..tapi aku terharu mok, ko nk msk kn utk aku, yela akak hang ni kalau pegang sudip, periuk belanga, kuali sume dia jadi lain mcm dik..tapi tak bermakna task reti masak, dia cm malas kalau ada org yg baik hati lagi comel cm ko tolong masak kn ( ayat dia len mcm tp xpa la, asal kn aku ikhlas puji ko) hahhahaa..cool kn akak hang ni?

ouh dan aku rase cm dak toulon da wat aku terharu gak, apsal sume org cm sweet je november ni? cewahhhh, perasaaaaaaaannnn!! amer sweet, adik mok sweet, toulon sweet(?) aku punya definisi sweet len mcm sket, especially bulan november ni..kalau gaduh pown aq rse sweet gak..hahahaa..ala dia kalau dia gaduh manja xpe..hehhee..sweet kn..eh cm byk je sweet dlm ni..cube kire bpe byk sweet daa...

2010-10-22T23:45:00.002+08:00

Im sorry i left you

i was caught in exam..cehhh

so tonight i was thinking, really i make used of brain. what have i done for these past few sems here?

i had this guy friend. yep, i know him early this year. and we started to hang out a lot much than i ever hang out with any other guys before, except that guy in toulon now. n i met his mom and sis and bro..pretty much. over the past few months, we texted, we met and he was fun. at that time, i think he could really be here if i wanted him to be. i guess you know why i never do long distance relationship, its long n far in distance and can't commit to that. i want the person to be here, right next to me incase i need a moral support or something. later on, we get really closed and it was still fun..and the way he treat me like different or at least thats how i felt..

i couldnt make up my mind. so i guess by time, he would know that he'll be just great as my good friend because the thing is, i like other guy, older, wiser and i couldnt figure anything out yet.

he's really great, fun to hang out with, and we could talk almost everything. and i guess he kinda like me, because that's what my friends told me..they saw affection in his eyes when we had conversation..i felt so too, but it was different kinda feeling.

my point is, why i never love the person who loves me? and im still go for the hard core. the one, who obviously i can go whenever wherever i want to..but i like someone else, and its not certain. if i ever like him, what if he never likes me back? and i got heart broken. toulon guy is not here ( definitely) by whatever means to tell me everything gonna be alright and make lame jokes about it..and tell me i deserve way better guy. now i dont like the hard ways. if u like me, tell me. if u don't well u deserve someone better and so do i.

do guys really think that between man and woman there's no such thing as "best friend"?

miss, to talk to, vacation, spending time

2010-10-14T01:31:00.003+08:00

oh i wish i can tell you that

i miss you

i really want to talk to you

i wish you can follow us go vacation together

i just want to spend my time in any way but as long as there will be you

but i guess you're busy

so im gonna keep these thoughts for a while

growing apart and its pain

2010-10-14T01:04:00.003+08:00

i think we all start to grow apart

you know when you just can't sit down on the same table

or look at each other without doubts in the eyes

you look down whenever the eyes meet

you start to keep things to yourself

you stop hanging out like we always do

we just grow apart

when everything you do seem so wrong

but you too scared to admit it

too scared to tell each other

that we both know

its just not going to work anymore

but among everyone in the cycle

you always have only this one person you can trust

you can tell every little secrets

the one where you always hang out with

spend most of the time together

cause you know one day

it will come to end

where you and that person will have to leave each other

so until the time comes

both of you decided to do everything together

and cherish the moment

there's only going to be and you

i'll be your diary and you can be the lock and key ;)

p/s: i miss you. wish you know that

10.10.2010

2010-10-10T11:57:00.003+08:00

10.10.2010

my brother wedding.

da besar rupenye abang aq ni..

we used to stay up all night watching mr.bean..and i fall asleep..hahaha

nahhh, im not dat close to my older sis when i was small, geezz..we always fight

and i would say to my bro.."abanggggg, tgk akak ni..." in a most gedik and ngade punya tone..hehe

but oh well..akak still win..ntah pape :(

oh n yes, dis is what i like bout my bro..

but ini mmg time skola2 dlu a..

i was about to take my upsr result, tibe2 my frens dtg ckp "omg, ade sorg laki coming dis way..jambu gak..."

n i was like..." watever..."

but suddenly.." tinaaa...how's result?"

omg, abang kau???

surprise! byk la surprise...

since then, membe2 aq sibuk tnye psal abg aq..mmg kembang abs la time tu abg aq..haihhhhhhh...

dia mmg supir terhebat ;)

time tu xde lesen, n my dad like..if u wanna go out, ask bro hantar , teman n jemput blk..

what???? not cool at all dad..

but my bro like..da siap shopping call, i'll come...jgn talk to stranger, jln bebaik, jatuh bngn sndri :) siot punye abg....nway, he is the best

mmg dia kne jd cmtu, sbb adik dia mmg degil, keras kepala, kepala batu..xdgr jgn ckp..hahaha

n n the age gap..so dia cm haihhhhh,,bebudak..layan je la..

smpai skg cmtu..still supir aq kalau di kampung la..sbb ayah xkasi bwk kete jalan2 kt melaka..

hahaha

pasni xbole daa :(

sedih..sape nk layan aq nye kerenah, yg ngade2 ni...hahaha..nk nangis plak en... T___T

xbole suke2 kol soh amk kalau sesat kt mne2...haaa...cne ni..

tp kalau dpt boyfie cm abg mmg best ;) seyes..xpenah tgk dia marah..dia cm rilek je..takut gk kalau tibe2 dia termarah kt aq..oke2..jadi budak baik..*duduk diam, xbyk ckp*

CONGRATS!

2010-10-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

Right now

i remember the moment when my dad used to buy me all the things i wanted, even i already got it.

u see, before my sis was even born..i used to get whatever i want. i enjoyed that moment. but that time, i never realized how hard my dad had to work to fulfill my wish..

its still fresh in my mind, when i was 8 or 9

i really wanted dis laptop, u noe those kiddy lappy...where u can play games, vocab, maths and everything..it was quite few hundreds..

but my dad can't afford it at that time..

so he told me "i will buy for u, but not today..not now.."

i ask, "y dad?"

then my dad told me, honestly.. "i don't have enough money now..but i promise i will buy for u.."

that time i realized, i shouldn't ask too many things from my dad..sure he will never disappoint me..but, it wasn't easy at all..

nway, he got me dat laptop...i really love it, i carried it everywhere like some sort of businesswoman..hahhaah...

the point is. i was raised with something like, when there is something u can't do, there's always reason y..i will understand if u told me y such things happened at the first place..

Home

2010-10-05T22:36:00.002+08:00

Oh gosh, im wearing the most comfortable nighties i got, but i still feel fat

what was dis all about?

dats it, im gonna starve until Thursday. note dat.

a lil too dramatic? maybe, but yeah whatever..

maybe its about time i start to whine about how i miss my home

really? or u miss the attention u got? exactly.

y i miss my home?

dis is y:

1. i can talk non stop to everyone

2. i can watch tv like i never seen a box and a wire at the back of it.

3. i can ask my mom to cook me delicious food

4. i can just take car keys and drive

5. i get to order my sis around..haha ;)

6. i can get cash?

but mostly, i miss my parents and sis.

its been 2 weeks, gosh. but i met them last Sunday ;) in some wed we agreed to go

they gave me $$$. thanx ;) really need it for shopping

since i feel fat, im gonna do cardio..

10 things that u aren't suppose to get mad when it comes to love

2010-10-05T15:27:00.002+08:00

This is just a reminder for me ;)

don't easily get mad if the guy u like:

1. didn't call u regularly
2. didn't reply ur msg asap
3. didn't text u 20/7
4. cancel the things that u plan together on the same day
5. never say "i love you" or "i like you" in the public or infront of his friends
6. stare at u n u dun know wherelse to look
7. didn't buy u the things that u want
8. introduce u to his colleague especially females
9. didn't write/ comment on ur stupid wall in fb
10. didn't wave u back

never ever get mad, get even!

hahahaaa..
no. seriously, don't get mad
i don't know why yet, but just don't do it cuz, its so immature? perhaps?

10 facts that always on my mind

2010-09-24T11:24:00.003+08:00

1. i always thought im gonna marry one of my childhood friends. tetttttt!

2. i always thought and knew, that my parents r the perfect partners!

3. i wish i can find a bf as nice as my brother.

4. i never thought im gonna do nursing. i always thought im gonna do tesl.

5. i never like all the subjects in school except for english. well, maybe biology as well.

6. hey, i played basketball back then. still am.

7. i like my husband to be just like my dad.

8. i can't cook heavy meal. aha..

9. i like to linger in my lingerie? haha

10. i always knew that i like to captured every moments when im with the one i love.

10 facts about me

2010-09-24T00:15:00.004+08:00

1. i am spoiled brat.

2. im talkative.

3. i talk nonsense all the time.

4 i take things lightly.

5. i said whatever that comes in my mind, first.

6. if "no" means "no". fullstop.

7. im a jovial person.

8. i throw tantrum, sometimes.

9. i act like the youngest because the youngest never act like one.

10. im content with what i have.

kisah hari terakhir ramadhan (part 1)

2010-09-12T13:18:00.003+08:00

Salam lebaran dari kuantan!!
huh..setelah bersusah payah di melaka
akhirnya..haha..
bersenang lenang r plak aq disini..

kisah hari terakhir berpuasa di melaka
pls note entri di atas..
ternyata aq salahhh..
blk2 je trus kne g dapur
masak!
haihhhh..
xsempat nk tanggal contact lens pown oke!
make up bertepek atas muke trus kne g tolong
masak.
masak
dan masak

opsss..masak ni cm nt dgr xcye plak en
ok la bkn masak pown..
tolong potong memotong, hiris menghiris, goreng menggoreng
haha..bru aq taw nk hiris serai cmne..
ok la. fine. mmg aq jarang g dapur
melainkan nk bsh pinggan ke tangan atau minum air..
tp xtaw npe, wujud satu kesedaran utk tolong lebih pada tahun ni plak..
bak kate kakak aq

"tahun ni, tina plng rajin masuk dapur..!!"

abs tu pakat sume org nk cucuk aq..
da ade bf?
doctor?
y doctor plak ni??
yela ko en nurse..mst la hubby ko doctor ngekk..
haa..xnk aq..mampus kebosanan..
fyi, doctor ni..dia nye wife pown doctor gak..
xkn choose nurse nye..

"abs tu ayah ckp nk plh en ko nye doctor??"
"apa??"
"ko ni mmg anak ayah, smpai hubby pown ayah plh en.."
"huh,mne ade!!"
"owg plh sndri ahhh..ayah men2 je kot.."
"we'll c bout dat.."

eh asal aq ckp psal kawen ni..?
xde dow..mak cik2 aq..da sibuk tnye psal bf ni..
aq plng malas nk lyn aq ckp je ade..
esok2 nk kawen da, jemput dtg ye...
hahahaha..

cmni la fmly aq, ko kalau da msk 20-an xde bf, cm 1 big problem..
abg aq nk kawen, line plng best diowg sakat aq berbunyi cmni
"abg zul da lepas, pasni turn ko plak ye tinaaaa..."
"lambat lg la mak lang..bf pown xde ni.."
"ala doctor kn ade..."

xde mknye nye la mak lang oiiiiiiiiiiii..

berbalik kepada cite td..
smpai mlm aq pgg blender taw x..
byk gler kne blend..
halia, bwg putih, merah, cili, serai..
haihhh..smpai pijar tngn aq..
pastu petua org2 tua
kalau tngan pijar perah la santan, konfem elok..
aq pown perah la santan beria ia perah ni..
taw je da baik..alhamdulillah..kalau x..menahan je la
abg plak xabs tnye soklan cepumas
"byk ke keje kau tina?"
"alamak, xnmpk ke?"
"ooohhhhh.."

to be continue...(xlarat da nk taip)

kisah balik lambat pada lebaran

2010-09-08T16:36:00.002+08:00

tina!!
bkn ke skg ko patutnye pack bju??
errrr..
jap2..fb first..
haihh..

hari ni maybe buke kt kenny rogers..yehaaaa..
ade org nk blnje ;)

btw, npe aq xblk2 kg lg ni??
sbr2..tngu kedatangan tetamu terhormat ni..hehe *perasan la kau*
ade exam la...
boleh plak en kolej aq ni..
mmg..dia bkn nye kire ko nk rye ke ape ke..
yg pntg exam tu..kne pass..
ni ha..td ponteng kelas jap..lari p bilik pack bju *noted hostel ngn kelas amat lah dekat ye*
tp smpai la ni xabs2..
hehe

oh ye, family aq sume da blk..
tinggal aq ngn kakak ngn abang je kt kl ni..hehe
ayah soh kakak amk aq esk...
ngn abang skali join..syok ahh..
actually kakak aq da married oke ;)
tp anak2 dia sume da blk ngn atok nye..(ayah aq lah tu en..)
mmg diorg sje ta nk jmp mak lang yg keseorangan ni..
huhu..

so td kakak kol la en..
tnye "sok amk kul bpe?"
"emm..kelas abs kul 1230.."
"1230????!!!!"
"yela..npe?"
"kalau jam cmne..? eh jam tak..?"
"na, tgk jln cm da empty.."
"kau mmg..npe ta nk nek train..?"
"errrr...ayah xkasi..soh akak amk gk..."
"naek la train, aku amk kt seremban ke ape.."
"tu laa,tp ayah soh gk akak amk nk wt cne?"
"hmm..ok2..1230 cabut..jgn lengah2.."
"yolah akak oiiii.."

eh ni bukan gedik,ngade..
tp mmg ayah xkasi nk wt cne..
buang tebiat ke ape naek train..setakat alor gajah tu jgn la.
2 jam je kot...kalau abg bwk maw lg skjp..rilek r..

hehe..so kebaikan blk lmbt utk org pemalas cm aq ni..
xyh kemas umh..
kite blk jd tukang rse mknn oke la tu..(ni bajet kalau smpai mlm la)
masuk kn kuih dlm balang aq suke..ni terbaek sbb bole rse satu dua ke..kalau rse ade lebih tu bole bwk depan tv sambil gosip2..kunyah la ape yg patut..xyh simpan2..ktorg gk yg pulun nt..
haaaa...jge bdk2 pown aq suke..sbb xyh tolong msk kt dapur ye x?
sng je keje ni..kte men ps2 ke wii ke rmai2..konfem diorg xg dapur cri mak..hehe
cri kak tina la..oke..
amboiiiii..senang je keje ko ek..
eh xde la..aq tolong gk masak..tp aq suke part yg ayah2 memasak..
rendang ke..nasi impit ke..
potong memotong, siang menyiang ni kureng sket..
aq amk part kawah nye..wahhh...
haihh..
bak kate zainur,

"masak. checked as fail"

budak gemok yg kecoh..bluekkkk!!

eh, alamak..da pukul 5??
xabs2 lg...
study pown xabs2 lg..
jap g nk g kenny da..
oke la..

salam lebaran!!

Ayah, Selamat Hari Lahir!!

2010-08-29T23:49:00.004+08:00

Ayah!!
Selamat Hari Lahir yg ke 54

ayah masih cm dulu..rambut ayah hitam lebat..
eh, betul aku xtipu..mmg ni gene dlm family aku..

ayah masih lg belikan ape2 yg aku nak..
masih layan rengekan aq yg kadang2 cm nth ape2 je..mintak ampun..
masih suruh aku perbetulkan diri yg serba kekurangan ini..

Ayah masih anggap aku anak kecil..
bertanya seribu satu soalan jika aku hendak berbuat sesuatu
masih ketat peraturan beliau terhadap aku
tapi aku memberontak,
membantah
sebab aku anggap diriku sudah dewasa
tahu semuanya

Ayah geleng kepala
tapi aku masih tidak mengerti
mengapa ayah sebegitu
terlalu melindungi aku
sudah acap kali aku mengingatkan kepada ayah
aku sudah 20 tahun
aku sudah pandai menguruskan diri ini
aku sudah pandai
aku sudah pandai
itu dan ini

tapi jauh di benak ku
aku faham mengapa ayah begitu
ayah tidak mahu aku hanyut dalam dunia yang rakus ini
ayah mahu aku belajar
jarang sekali ayah berkata "tidak"
tetapi ayah telah menggunakan pendekatan lain dalam mendidik aku
sesungguhnya aku bersyukur
dikurniakan ayah yang begitu
melindungi aku
memahami aku
menjaga aku dengan rapi dan cantik sekali

biarlah orang kata
ayah aku kolot,tidak moden
tidak memberi kebebasan

tetapi pada aku
ayah aku yang terbaik!!

saya sayang ayah!!

imma care for a friend..even ur at France

2010-08-26T21:09:00.003+08:00

Today we ym
i told u i cant get over my shophaholic
about bags especially those on9
u told me
keep that money for something else
i laughed n said "i want those bags"
u said, "wait till ur prince charming come and brings a contena full of bags.."
"oh yes..i loike!!"

then u said
u got something to tell
but maybe it will make me angry
but i said "its okay..i'll swallow.."

so u told me
u went for medical check up
to renew ur visa or smthng
then doctor said u hev to excercise more
blood pressure and pulse are increasing
to which its still normal for a guy
but since ur told me bout the lifestyle and the food there
its exactly what i expected

i know, ur expecting me to nagging all the way
but actually i just feel like
crying
i cant believe what the food had done to you
dats why, i hate toulon, france
and the foods there
i cant afford to tell you everytime
u'll be mad at me later
so dis time i said "its okay, u can exercise more..."
"u can do it.."

but deep inside, i really hope
you know what you doing with ur health status.

Kisah ahli2 kumpulan

2010-08-25T16:35:00.003+08:00

Tahu tak
betapa susah dan
lecehnya
bila dlm group assignment kite kat kolej ni begitu perfectionist?
ahli2 group pun bkn calang2 org..xmen la hat 2 pointer..depa men yg 3 pointer ke atas ja...
tp memang kne byk bersabar..contohnye..kalau buat assignment, group aq ni ade satu hal..
sorg incharge, pastu bile da siap kne persembahkan kt ahli2 yg laen..kononnye bile tutor tnye, ade idea la ape bnd yg ngh present tu..ni la kelebihannya.

tp kdg2, bengang plak aq sbb aq rse diowg ni cm terlalu particular.
tahu la pandai sgt sgt..tu xpe...ni ade yg berlagak pandai..ha..cmne tu...
ade gk yg bru nk pandai2, tp membe bodo ni dia xnk layan dahhh..ciss.lg kuang ajaq..
kalau ade certain procedure tu, mak aii...dia punya kelam kabut x igt dunia dahhh..
rilek2 suda...taw la leader kn..tp haihhh..aq sendiri pun xphm..

haa..pastu ade satu ahli group aq ni, mulut dia pakat men lepas jaa..
bru semalam dia cm mrh2 kt membe aq ni...membe aq ni ckp psal bnd lain kot, yg dia ni salah phm, lalu berkata begini..

"nasib baik kau xsme group ngn aq.."

kesian membe aq..dia ni jenis yg tacing2 skit..xpe la..aq pun sme gk..tp org tu ckp psal bnd lain kot..yg hang nk melalut skali pasai paa..?? gilaaaa..
aq habaq kt membe aq ni, dia mmg cmtu..kalau dia buat xpa, kalau kita xbole..abs cmne?
aq pun meluahkan isi hati aq gk kat dia, betapa susahnye hati aq berada dlm group yg mcm tu..

mintak maaf ye..ahli2 yg lain sume ok..just ade seteng dua yg poyo2..

membe aq ni ckp "taw la group kau perfect..sume buat bgus2 punya kerja.."
tp aq ckp "kdg2 tu la yg buat aq stress..baik group cm kau.."

tu lah..bak kata peribahasa "rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain.."
eh..betul ke? kalau salah sila beritahu ye..hehe..

niat dihati bukan nk ngumpat atau kene kn sape2..just nk bgtaw dan peringatan buat diri sendiri dan rakan2..bile berbicara hati kene jaga..kalau rse mulut tu cm gampang..baik diam je ye tak??

abis cite..

ps: kalau ade ahli 2 group terbaca post ni, sila renung2 kan..tapi igt... mungkin anda, mungkin tidak..

Bon Voyage

2010-08-24T20:39:00.004+08:00

I used to have best friend
dis particular friend
he was nice, charming, funny, brilliant
we used to watch movies together
it was such fun then
i really enjoyed it
every minute

but one day
u told me
u were leaving, to France
i knew the day will come
cause u r a smarty pants
u'll leave me, ur friends, and everything here
n travel to a new country, gain new experiences, making new friends, learn new things
it'll be so much fun than what we did here, ryte?

n dat's why, i dun fancy France, Italy, Rome, Paris etc..
they make me sick
they took you away
they made you
becoming not you.
n that is why you
you
changed.

its not the same
like when you're here
i think i said it about 10 times before u left.
and its true

up until now, i still don't know if we r friends.

Kisah kawan di bulan puasa

2010-08-20T20:47:00.002+08:00

Fuuhhhhh!! tu dia..berhabuk blog aq ni haa...berzaman xhapdate..
xpe2..ni cek nk habaq mai satu story kat hang pa suma..

ini kisah pengajaran dan erti seorang sahabat. cewaahhhh...tu dia..lama simpan skali kuaq..xboleh nk ckp pa daahhh..
haha..rilek2

kes ni, bru berlaku satu jam yg lepas..aq ngn membe aq mmg plan nk mkn roti bakaq la..even lauk arini nasi lemak..agak sedap.. tp cm gemok laa aq en kalau mkn nasi lemak je kn..rase nye bru aritu aq da mkn..hisshh..x bole la mkn slalu..skali bdn kembang semangkuk cmne? haaa...spe nk jwb tu..hihi..

tidoq2..last skali ta jd mkn roti bakar tu..hampehh..disebabkan tido ta jd mkn dahh..so, ktowg siap2..nk turun kt cafe tu p mkn nasi lemak je la..

tup tup..pinggan ktowg da diisi kn dgn nasi lemak..oke..xhepi mne pun la kn..tp just ckp thanx je..xdak pe yg syok pun tolong amk kn nasi je..
ktowg duduk la en..tbe2 nmpk agak byk plastik atas meja..dr gerak hati tgk cm bru blk dr bazaar..
tnye la membe yg laen kn..ckp takde..xpegi pown..
tp ade satu minah ni, dia tbe2 pkai tudung..slalu tak. tergerak hati nk tnye la
"td ko g bazaar ek?"
"aah.."
ok fine la.

tp aq ngn membe aq da pandang2 each other..dlm hati aq mmg rase cm nk baling je pinggan kt muke dia..
nk taw sbb ape? ni laa..

aritu ktowg g bazaar, membe aq ni tolong la amk kn order dia..
dia punye order mak aiiii...smpai rm15 punye food..aq agk bengang gk time tu..aq nye food pown xsmpai rm15..
tp disebabkan ktowg pikir kawan, beli kn utk dia..first2 skali smpai sne mknn dia ktowg beli dulu taw ..adalah reason dia, sbb dia order byk, nt takut lupe plak..ktowg punye simple je..
pastu da beli...penuh tngn ni..sakit jari aq..tp xpe..sebab membe punya pasal..
ktowg ni bwk la mknn2 dia tu..

tbe2 arini, dia nk g bazaar..inform pown tak..g senyap2 je..lalu, tinggal lah aq ngn membe aq yg aritu dok terkedek2 bwk mknn dia..
alasan dia, xdpt jmp ktowg..
dlm pale otak aq, apakah punya alasan?
aq ngn dia dlm bilik je kot..xgerak mne2 pown..cisss..
membe aq yg laen boleh plak dia beli kn..

disebabkan perkara ni, membe aq da terkecik hati..sian aq tgk dia..
kalau ikut hati aq yg muda membara ni..dr td aq sound awal..biar terkedu sket..
tp dia ckp cmni..

"xpe ti (panggilan manja) mak aq ckp biar org buat kite, jgn kite buat org..."

so, aq pown da xckp pape lah..
diam seribu bhse membatu.

tapi dlm hati aq..
cmni ko wt kt membe ko kn..fine! lepas ni satu haram ape pown aq x tolong daa..
aku cm nk tulis satu peribahasa, tp cm xigt la..ape nth ala.."yg dibalas tuba..."aq da lupe..sori2..

aq habaq sat kat membe aq ni..pasni kita gerak 2 je...

kite ni dok sme2..mkn sme2..study sme2..igt la sesame sndri..kalau ko xsuke aq xpe..tp jgn wt membe aq cmni..membe ko jgk kn..kalau ko xnk beli kn utk aq xpe...tp jgn xbeli utk membe aq skali..dia ni baik..sini melayu xrmai..spe nk tlng kalau bukan membe sndri..

coretan hari ni:

"xpe, biar org buat kite..jgn kite buat org.."

hebat btol. aq xboleh pegang ngn prinsip ni..bg aq..walau xbetol la kn..ni kire cm org pijak pale kite je..
bg aq plak..kdg2..kite kne sound je org cmni dpn2..biar dia taw sket cmne dan ape perasaan org laen..
oppppss..aq xcakap aq ni perfect..ye ko boleh sound aq. dan kalau betol, xpe aq admit..tp kalau xbetol, sila dgr hujah2 bernas dr aq..tenkiu.

sekian. kalau membe kau gedik, merengek xnk mkn cm budak kecik xpe. kalau aq tarik muka sket, muncung sedepa ko da komplen en.

riang ria berpuasa ;)

2010-08-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

yay
esok terawih ;)
suke sgt..(padahal tunggu nk moreh je)
ehhh...xkesa la..yg penting aq g terawih pe...
xmacam kau oke..hahaha ;)

haih..time bulan pose ni
teringat kenangan mse kt asrama ert dulu
mmg nakal ktorg ni
muke wanted, senior poyo..haa amk kau, sume ade kn..
ponteng terawih..hehe..
alasan..byk homework weyhh...xsiap nanti kne denda..
nk study la..
smpai je klas, letak beg..
cri port, cri geng..duduk dan mulakan gossip..
ish ish ish...ade ke patut cik tina.. =p

2 jam sok sek sok sek..
beli segala jajan kt koperasi (bukak plak mlm2 ek)
buat homework+ bergossip
kalau warden dtg esp sir jaa ngn ustaz zaid ktowg jd budak baik je tibe2..hehe
diam je ko kn tina.ceittt..mentang2..(padahal plng huru hara dlm kelas- ni statement sue)
hehe ;)
abis je prep..
g DM aka dewan makan, tempat plng baik cri food..
usha2 sat..moreh best ka..
tbe2 dtg biro surau.."ohh..terawih xnk buat, makan laju je korang ye.."
ehehee..sori2..esok ktorg buat ye...alalala

time sahur ni liat sket..konon boleh tahan la..minum air je..
ade membe ktorg ni nk sahur, tp hanya diterangi lampu koridor je la
dia pun g mkn roti ngn selambanya diambil dr loker..
fine r..
bile pg tu..ktorg bukak lampu, tgk roti tu ade kt tepi katil dia..
tgk2 da berkulat kot...
"eh,ika..ko mkn roti da expired dow.."
tp aq rse la kn...disebabkan bulan pose..
dia xsakit pape pun..
Alhamdulillah..

time berbuka..mak aiii...
punye la rmai org..(eh..mestila..abs tu mne lg nk makan kalau tak kt DM ni..)
barisan panjang nyee...xtahan nk beratur la...
memandangkan ktorg ni senior..
so ehemm..excuse me junior2 syg..senior tumpang lalu..zzzzuupp..
maka dgn itu, penuhla tmpt tu ngn kroni2 kami..
maaf ye..ala nt korg senior pun korg sme gk..percaye la..
tp xslalu la ktorg wt cmni..
tgk menu..hahahhaa ;)
pasal meja plak en..
mmg meja panjang, tiap2 tu ade kroni msg2..
so, da tertulis walau xnmpk ngn mata kasar..
nme2 kami diatas meja..eleh..ktorg da cop pkai botol air la..mne boleh amk..brani r..meh aq sekeh sorg2..

bile sume da dpt mknn tu mulut mmg xreti nk diam le bedahh...
nk dgr azan kot..kang xdgr..cmne plak en...
dah la sume pmpuan..mmg kecoh sekampung..ish ish..
akhirnya..diam gk korg en..dpt dgr azan..jgn risau ye..hehe..
almaklum la..org perempuan..

so, mcm tu la rutin kitorg sepanjang bulan pose ni..
ade je bnd nk dibuat nye...
rindu sgt le temah ngn kome..(slang mmg out..haha)
bile la dapat berbuka ngn korg lg...;)

betrayal, lie and cheat

2010-08-05T23:55:00.003+08:00

im not like you

i can't hide feelings very well

when im angry, i throw tantrum

when im sad, i cry a river

when its funny, i laugh out loud

when im worried, i frown

when im overjoyed, i jump sky high

when im afraid, i scream my lungs out

when im happy, i smile a lot

when im lonely, i talk

so you see, the bitter part of myself.

unlike you, who perfectly monster in disguise

well, while you're having fun with the mask on your pretty face

we both know its not going to last

quit playing now, will you?

hurting people, lying in their face, cheating

are you satisfiy with your achievement?

well you certainly have collect enough trophy to display

too bad you can't show em to your parents

cause i bet that is not what they wish for to see

you should stop

you don't like it when you have to see me stopping you

so, please just stop

grow up and be more sensible

up until now, im still hoping there's still you behind the mask.

i feel touched

2010-07-27T23:14:00.002+08:00

last sunday, i hev no money and im at hostel.
i hev no food except milo fuze 3 in 1 and green tea..
so, i cried (fine. i noe sgt memalukan)
because i hev never been so poorer in my life..
i called my parents and told them everything..i asked them if they can bring food over here. cuz im hypo already..
n i hev no money, mom. im broke.
next thing i know..my dad called back. he asked for my acc num and wanted to bank in. he said, we will come in the evening, so what r u goin to eat for breakfast and lunch?
i was touched. i never thought my parents would really care, cuz well u noe..im boros. n no money bcuz i spend too much dis month..

n they came..brought foods!!
all the foods i like!! all kinds of biscuits and believe it or not, i love milo so much..my dad bought 18 boxes of milo!! goshhh!! ala, u noe those..6 boxes..but like he bought 1 carton..
i asked, "dad, who wants to drink all this??"
and of course lah..nasi wif ikan parang masak sambal and sup ayam (my fave) and acar sayur..
tp x abs..wat jadi sahur plak..
all my fave biscuits taw x..
jacobs, oat crunch, lexus kaler purple..hehe
saya suke sgt!!

well..i really really thank my parents for dat.
they were really concern for me. cuz u noe..i always wanted to do everything alone. and i thought i noe everything in the world..
and i never listen to them..literally
im a horrible daughter. i feel bad. n i cried again..they would do everything to make me happy..
i was just touched. n always feel grateful with what i have..

i love
mom
dad

2010-07-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

Confession

2010-07-20T23:20:00.006+08:00

tonight i have a confession to make.
its been a long time i keep it to myself and finally tonight i want to tell. for whoever dats been reading my blog =p

so people asked me, " tina, ur not bad. ur a good girl, u hev perfect family, u study very well..but y u never had a bf..?"

i simply told them. im not interested to hev one. but dat was just to covered up the whole confession thing.

u see..when i was in high school, i used to date guys. like every teenage girls in high school, popularity is very important, reputation is number one, status is like currency..and so on..
but seriously, dat was high school..n i never dated them outside from school..
they were mostly athletes, basketball player..and some are bad boys..which i found very interesting to be with..just dat time and no more.

lets check, last time i broke up with my bf is because he was way overprotected..
he wanted to do anything and everything together..its like no air. no space. n i got scared. he caged me. and it was so hard to earn his trust..so one day, i found my chance..and i escaped. i told him the truth. so we broke up. it took me years to put up wif his ego.

i sit in the corner, n promised not to ever fall in love. if i noe it was so hard to keep a relationship, i wouldn't want to do it. i rather be friends wif everyone..

so everytime people want to get to noe me, i hev already shut it down. i blocked my heart. keep pushing everyone away..
cuz the way they wanted to noe me, like u noe..those pervert. ok maybe im paranoid? idk..

trust and respect. dat is what keepin love together. or at least for me.

so now u noe, when u told me to go out and look out for friends..meet new people especially guys, it wasn't easy. its not like i can't, but i dun want. im always content with whatever i have.
i have very few people dat i trust. one of them is you.

and i always thought guys at my age are lack of maturity and knowledge. all they want to talk about is sex. n i know their anatomy better than they do.
its just not cool at all when they actually try to talk bout it, but it turns out they even sucks at their own anatomy. and i have to correct them everytime. its pathetic.

just so u noe, i dont fall in love wif guy dat same age as me.