Kisah kawan baik dan memori kami

Chinese New Year 2010 :)

Abang saya kawen pown dia dtg, sweet kan?

Saya sayang Rara!

ra, thanx sebab tinggalkan aku. ehhh, ni bukan post nk marah2 kau. takkk. no way! ni ikhlas dari lubuk hati aku. cewahhh!

tadi mase aku drive, yela drive sorang2 kan..tibe2 aku teringat.

teringat masa kite slalu g kelas same2 ngn kete kebal tuh.

teringat masa kite bangun lambat, then rushing g kelas.

teringat masa masuk kelas even dah lambat, wat muke innocent (ok. muke aku dah gelabah time tu).

teringat time pas abs kelas otw balik umah, lalu kt federal..kan ade jaspal punye iklan. kau slalu ckp, "ti, cube kau tgk..hot kan?" "hot dow, laki tu..pergghh nk kiss ke tak ni?" *merujuk kepada billboard tu lahh*

teringat kite slalu melalak lagu bruno mars.."today i don't feel like doing anything.." pastu kau lesap g dating..eh meeting. byk la lazy song kau! hahahaha..

teringat masa masak same2..eh ke kau je yg masak? hahahaa..inti karipap terlebih masin..tapi makan jgk..

paling teringat masa aku merajuk gile babun ngn kau, tak bercakap. tapi kejutkan kau jgk. wat breakfast for two jugak. still masih malas drive. tak bercakap dalam kete. hanya pandang ke luar tingkap (dah la time tu jem) sunyi sepi kete time tu. masuk kelas duduk asing2. tp depan belakang je pown. sume membe kite hairan garu kepala nape kite senyap je. sampai2 kelas terus study kauuu! terkejut mak nokkk! tapi along the class, ktorg dah oke. slowly la ice nk cair. wat2 muke toya tu dah biase. kau ingat tak?

ape daaa membebel. eh helo, ni luahan perasaan oke. rindu.

thanx sebab tak stay longer. kalau kau stay longer, mesti aku ni nk berkepit je ngn kau. sume bnd pown, "ala rara kan ade, oke punye..dont worry ehh.." mesti sampai skg aku malas yg teramat nk drive, manja ngn kau lebih2..padahal reti je. hehehe :)

yes, i tend to be clingy. i hang around you like its nobody business. ok tak la sampai cmtu. melampau lak aiii..that's why, long distance thingy is not for me. nanti hari2 aku meruntun hiba. kalau kau nk stay, stay here with me forever. cewahhhh! haru la kau ni tina! puuiihhhhh!

haha, i love you Siti Maheeran! muah muah!

berbuke same2 last year kot :)

Berdebar-debar

Assalammualaikum, readers!

aku nak tnye korg pernah tak kuar dating, then korg rse berdebar2 jantung cm nk terkeluar, segala hati, perut, limpa nak terjatuh? tbe2, korg flushed, tgn berpeluh- peluh dan jd clumsy (kalau kau mmg clumsy tu bertambah-tambah clumsy la)

ye. aku pernah.

byk kali dgn lelaki yg sama.

i mean kalau first time, kire logik la kan? ni everytime kuar kot, aku rse cm nervous gile. tapi, pasai pa pown aku xtaw.

lelaki tu, xde la hot cm aaron aziz ke remy ishak ke ape..dia biase2 je. normal kinda guy. dia just nice. and moderate.

so aku pown tnye la kat membe aku psal feeling ni. dia ckp itu adalah emotion reflection. waahhh. jap. aku tak paham. explain sket.

cmni, bile kau suke kat seseorang as in crush ke temporary feelings ke ape..sure lah kau akan berdebar2, tgn berpeluh-peluh, semua jd kelam kabut. or maybe kau just akan rse berdebar2 sgtttt, tak gitu? actually, dia pown mengalami perasaan yg sme. strong sgtt emotion wave dia ter-reflect kt kau. dan kau pown mendapat 2 kali ganda emotion tu.

tapi kalau dah byk kali kau cmtu, aku rse korg mmg syok la. tapi, tiada sesiapa yg berani berkata-kata. tiada siapa tahu mengapa tidak berani bersuara.

haaa, cmtu lah dia bgtaw aku. dia kate ade bce buku about it. aku nk kne cari la buku tu. nt kalau jmp, aku explain more and more.

ps: ngn lelaki tu je aku rse cmtu, ngn lelaki lain tak.

3 things

Hai..ngh busy ni *lap2 sesawang, berhabuk!*

haa oke2.. 0_O

berkilat dah oiii.

setelah membaca/terbaca beberapa entry dari pelbagai blog lain, tbe2 aku rasa nk tulis jgk. bukan aku tak nak tulis bfre this, tapi rasa cm tak perlu. tapi entry kali ini aku rase perlu. *ekeleh, perlu sgt ke?*

ekeleh, bace la dulu..cmni..

dalam beberapa bulan yg lepas, which aku tak ingat la. aku ade kuar ngn sorang guy ni. dia classmate aku time skola dulu. actually, relationship ktorg mmg cm anjing ngn kucing. selalu bergaduh, tak same kepala, ade je point nk kenekan each other. tapi dia ade ajak aku kuar, most of the time aku tolak. sebab aku tak minat. *tapi aku tolak cre berhemah la* time tu mmg busy ngn exam bagai..so aku mmg tak kuar sgt. then tak taw cmne, tergerak plak nk kuar ngn dia. so set time sume. yela aku kan gatal. oke. maybe aku sje nk try. tgk cmne. besides ktorg dah kenal lme sgtttt. so xde pape la kan.

disebabkan rumah ktorg dekat, aku pown amk la dia. dan mmg aku tak naik moto sbb aku takut tahap gaban. dia tak kesa. ktorg g mne ek? haaa..sunway. lahh, aku mmg suke g sunway. so aku mmg happy la..tapi dia. dia tbe2 jd pelik. dia jd gentleman. wtf? bukan aku tak suke. tp aku terkejut. sebelum tu aku ade ckp kt dia, aku nk beli handbag sbb well..handbag yg aku pkai tu cm dah tak cantek. bile aku dah jmp, aku tros beli la *stok tak pikir pnjg punye, suke rembat* then tbe2..dia bawak kan bag tu utk aku. wtf 2? tbe2 dia ckp baik2 ngn aku. oke. pelik. sbb mne ktorg pnh ckp elok2. kalau tak jerit kt each other mmg tak sah.

aku bertambah pelik. plus dah start rimas ni.

then pastu, ktorg terus blk. sbb aku dah rse tak selesa dah ni. then ade la dlm seminggu dia try call aku. mmg aku angkat tp borak2 kejap je. nth. aku rse tak selesa. so aku tak suke.

pastu bru aku taw, ape perasan bile kuar ngn perasan cmtu. bukan tak suke totally, just tak selesa dan rimas. sbb ianye berlaku secara tbe2. kau bayangkan la, dulu time skola ari2 ktorg bergaduh, tp bile kuar jd lain plak. aku takut la.

point dia kt sini. tibe2. tibe2 jd baik, tbe jd cool. tbe2 jd gentleman. tbe2 aku jd takut. sbb ianye secara tbe2. dan slalu perkara yg tbe2 ni tak kekal. kalau kekal jd chronic. cm acute (tbe2) then kalau dibiarkan jd chronic. so aku dah tuka dia jd neutral blk.

dia mmg confident habis ble kuar ngn aku. maybe sbb dia rse dia continue degree ape bagai sume, ble keje dpt yg best, gaji pown masyuk nt kan..tp oh tidakkkk! aku tak terusik ngn itu semua. sbb satu. kalau aku tak selesa ngn kau, means its not gonna work.

oh lelaki, jgn kau ingat kau berduit, keje bgus, blaja smpai phd kau boleh dapat sume yg kau nak. including pompuan. tu sume bonus. tapi kau mmg bengap2, lembs dan tak memahami. so cmne? will it work with just your fucking money and title? nth. tp aku rse tak. kalau awek kau materialistik tu maybe la. oh and a gold digger. maybe, maybe.

aku slalu percaya, the best relationship will happen when you and your partner achieve this 3:

1. mutual understanding

2. mutual trust

3. mutual respect

"how can we be together forever if you don't understand me, and i don't understand you. when we don't understand each other, how can we trust each other and by that time, i don't think any of us will respect each other anymore."

i just want to be with the person with a common sense, please.

sekian.

5 things i did

I am sorry i ditched you. okay. that's harsh. again. i am sorry i abandoned you. its not your fault. its mine. totally mine. but i missed you. so i'm going to tell the craps that i've been doing for the past few weeks.

gonna do this in point form.

1. i am busy planning my future. yep. im graduating, gonna take the Nursing Board Examination this Wednesday. but, i've got contract so why do i still need to plan. what? i planned after my 5 years contract. yup, i knw. im optimistic. in this kinda way.

2. i'm in vain mode. what the? yeah. i do constantly compliments myself. i like my feature. my lips, my lower lip actually. my eyes. my chin. my boobs. my hips. my hair. listen. don't you ever hear people say, "you got to love yourself, before you want somebody else love you" or "love yourself, then you find somebody admiring you". call me whatever you want, but if somebody to compliment on your boobs, or practically anything about you there's only two meaning- 1. they feel superb jealous of yourself. 2. they secretly want to destroy you. enuff said.

3. im sky-ping-pong. okay. skype-ing. not just with you. i do it with my other frens too. and telling them basically my day, my probs. and gossiping. but i do it mostly with you. i often told you this bunch of my problems, i forgot to ask yours. i'm sorry.

4. i am busy daydreaming. Zzzzz..to go to an island and swim in the deep blue sea..and hopefully don't get sunburns. yikes !

5. this got to be the dumbest thing i've ever done since graduating high school. re-establishing a relationship that i know was worthless. why? seriously. okay. because there's so much memories that i don't want to let go. and yes, it's been in my sleep. pathetic. it took weeks after weeks until i've come to realization that he's not worthed. i really liked him, but it was long gone. and i threw the memories to the open sea.

i tink that's the most i did when you and i were separated for awhile. well, besides than studying and cleaning the house..pretty much yeahh..

okay. im gonna go STUDY ! seeya!

If you could see my hair right now. super duper messy. akibat dari input yg diterima pd hari ini dr pukul 9-5. i was so restless, everytime. and keep thinking about the breaks. and i wanted to pee. it was really cold. i'm sure its -ve something. haha. but really.

and we ate the candy, too much i tink im goin to get a diabetes soon. urgghhhh. but it was so tiring and cold and boring. but overall, the food was awesome! there's breakfast, tea @ 11 am, then lunch @ 1 pm. omg. see the time. and we still ate. rezeki jgn ditolak weii..kenyang giler.

btw, i attend this talk. nk cri tempat tu dah la payah. sesat. last2 naik teksi, itu pun lepas dah berpeluh-peluh. jauh kot ampang park ngn holiday villa. agak ah. long story. actually dekat je pown. salah direction.

jap g nk lepak ngn cha lg. mkn lg. oke. xyh la. minum je sudah.

Ketidaksabaran

OMG! best gak tinggal berdua je. x leh blah, balik umh sebab nk gune mesin basuh je. takde duit nk beli token kt sini (ye, mesin basuh kt kolej gune token rm 3). and ofkos, malas gile babs nk bsh tngn and and watpe nk membazir. gune kan je kemudahan yg ade :P

ohhh, before that g beli mee goreng and burger. sedap gak. not bad. share ah. aku dah pokai kot. then rara g explore dapur, tetibe.. "ti, sweet giler parents kau!!" lahhh. kau apesal plak? yela. parents aku mmg sweet dow. aku cm speechless. actually dapur tu mmg lengkap giler. tinggal nk bwk periuk belanga je. tu yg rara terharu tuuuu..dan excited. tak sabar nk masak. hahahaha!!

then nth la! cm best giler. borak2. pasal kawen, bf dan persiapan perkahwinan!! wahhhh! aku plak yg excited. padahal yg nk kawen sape. lol. ok tina, sila bwk bersabar. anda bukan sekarang. byk lg giler aku nk achieve! hahhaaaa!!

so conclusion nye. aku tak sabar tak sabar tak sabar!! cepat lah abs bulan 4.

Housemate

hey peeps!

ni entry syok berdua-duaan je ye. len xyah la sebok. errrr..

halamak! x sabar dow nk ber-housemate! da la ngn best friend! gegar weh rumah tu. sehari x jerit sesame x sah. jap! tu bukan jerit. tu mmg cre kami berkomunikasi dgn lebih efektif. ade satu hari aku dok ckp slow ah, lemah-lembut..skali rara " ape ti?? x dgr lah! "

"ape masalah kau? aku ckp kuat kau kate aku jerit, ni aku ckp bebaik,kau x dgr..ey kau ni "

so terpakse la ulang suare. ceh, cam PA system.

yang penting kau masak. len kasi aku setel. wah, kau kan chef aku. yela, fine ajar la aku msk skali. aku teringin nk masak yg susah2 skit. western reti la nokkkkkk! hahahaaa!! poyo. asam pedas tu penting, kang dia blk nk rse. nt aku fail dow!

yg plng excited nk angkut periuk belanga dan sgl bawang, kentang, garam, gula, nth ape lg. pastu nk wat house party! eh, silap. house warming! ni lg syok. rara nk msk cm kenduri. seyes. aku dgr cm penat. tapi rara suke so, oke la kot. dgn rela hati aku izinkan. mama pown x taw nk ckp ape dahhh...gasak korg la. yes yes yes!!

oh bahagia weh. chop! asal kau ckp cm pengantin baru? yeke? mne ade! aku cm happy tp sedih kot. ambivalent weh. yela. dia stay ngn aku smpai june. tu termasuk waktu dating ah tu. huhu~ nasib baik housemate, at least dpt la tgk muke kau, gado ngn kau, merajuk ngn kau, main masak2 sume..hahaha

well, at least aku x yah la nk terperap dlm hostel ni je. boleh la jmp jiran2 lain. borak ngn acik depan, beli jajan kt umh sebelah ke..tetibe rindu dok umh flat. sebab jejiran kt umh aku skg cm, oke. aku xde jiran sgt la. org yg aktif bersosial hanya ayah dan adik shj. membe aku mmg jauh skit la. cm umh dia down the hill..and ade yg kt tmn lain. so cm blk layan astro lg best! nasib baik aku oke je tgk siaran ulangan *smpai hafal skrip* bile diorg cuti2 uni, boleh la meronggeng.

ermmmm, so skg ni tunggu ah smpai abs bulan 4.

mood: tak sabar! :)

Happy

Yg ni post semalam. tulis arini sebab, semalam penat. tak larat. dan mengantuk giler2.

so tulis skg ah. tp cite semalam punye.

we can finally see each other in the eyes, and smile! omg! like seriously happy giler. ok. at least i'm happy. maybe kite sorg je yg happy? hehe~

Post penghargaan

So ade org tnye aku, pesal aku wat blog. dah la xde org komen nk wat gak. haha. senang dow. first, suke ati lah! second, i guess i'm a sentimental person kot.

mama asyik soh kemas almari yg kt kolej ni, dan segala bnd lah. *almari kt umh pown cm tongkang pecah*. bukak2 je almari, pkr2..nk buang ape. xde bnd nk buang. more to tak boleh buang. even baju tu cm x kene ngn style skg. susah dow nk buang bnd x pkai ni. sume cm pkai. tp kdg2 rse semak nk buang pastu pkr 100 kali, xjd buang. agak lme utk aku membuang brg. cm bnd comel2 lg lah aku tak buang, even x taw function bnd tu, aku simpan gak. mmg penyimpan aku ni. heh.

ouh, one more thing. i just want to say thank you ayah!

ayah, thanx for everything. kan dah ade kete. xyh la beli baru lg. pkai je yg lme.

ayah, thanx for slalu check kan engine kete. nk harap tina mmg lah tak. taw start kete, hit the pedal. tu je. tp skg dah taw! yeay!

ayah, thanx for byk2 bersabar. sbb ade ank yg degil, xdgr ckp, suke melawan (igt terer sgt)

lagi lagi

ayah thanx sbb subscribe kan channel 710, 711. bermakne skit. sbb ade glee kt star world. heh.

ayah, thanx sbb byk bg nasihat utk anak gadis yg bwk kete sorg2. huhu..dah la malam plak tu.

ayah thanx sbb you never disappointed me!

see, i want to marry a guy just like my dad! and for mama, thanx for the full tank, again. cm taw2 je aku xde duit nk isi minyak. heh.

Good luck for your games! have fun! try not to break or sprain anything. We both been busy, but its ok. we'll find some time. right? right? ok. maybe not. heh. T____T

Tonight

hello peeps. first thing first. skype not responding. heh. :(

bru lepas blk supper wif belinda, my roomate and one of my bestie. yup. if she can live wif me for 3 years, consider that awesome.

right now, i miss you. but i'm sure your not. kan kan?

so wassup? takde pape. just thought nk kuar mkn ngn rara and waited for her in her room and fell asleep. -__- she came back from work and i well...told her i'm hungry since i didn't had my lunch and dinner yet. just had a hotdog bun and a nescafe mocha. it already digested. anyhoo, she asked me to come with her and have supper or something..then i asked, "dgn sape?" she said, " spe lg?"

"oh, ur bf..". "ti, faster get ready, he's on his way.."

ok. i'm gettin ready. to be honest, i just want to spend my supper wif rara. not me, rara and her bf. then thank God, my rooomie's back. so i told rara.."ra, i'm sorry. tak nak kacau kau ngn bf. aku g ngn belle, see u at work tmrw.." then, of course.rara would say..its okay..bla bla bla..tp its me. aku tak biasa la weh..like segan giler..so its okay. maybe next time.

i'm okay with it. come on, ur my best friend. i'm happy for you. tapi, next time..girls day out.no boyfie. or even boys.

ps: sometimes i'm a person who enjoy table for two. no more threesome.

Whole lot things

There's really a lot of things a i wanna write. but there's you and rara so yeah, xyh la tulis2 sgt. skype kan ade. aha!

thank you ayah, mama! kereta. full tank! i loike! eh, i love! oke. setelah merajuk, menjerit, meluahkan ketidakpuasaan, explain bnd yg sme berulang kali, merajuk semula, letak, campak, tidak layan panggilan telefon. huh! eh, bukan psal full tank or not. tp pasal kereta di ambil alih oleh saya, maka di bwh pengawasan saya. ayah risau. konon. ayah, i'm 21. esok nk kawen dah! bak la kereta kebal tuh. tak ckp pown cmni. actually, xyh ckp. diam dan mogok.heh. jgn contohi perangai ni. ni anak gedik. mengade2. bajet bongsu.

ayah, jgn la risau. i can take care. i got rara. it's ok. i'll be fine. walaupun selalu giler merajuk ngn rara. ehemm ade la sebab2 merajuk tuh. selalu nye, ditinggalkan.huhuu..sedihhhhhhhhh. dan takut. last time kne tinggal, ade org nk fly. like omg, why is everyone leaving? yes. dude, i cried my lungs out.

dude, i am very happy. but scared. it will be when i'm graduating, i'm sitting for my final, when you come back and when rara's wedding. you come back and fly again. again? i really don't know what to say later, what to feel, what to do. i do awkward things. i'm scared.

you are by far, the most coolest dude i've ever met. i'm lucky am i? ok. perasan. haha.

Adam Young & Taylor Swift- Enchanted

They are so cute together! its Adam and Taylor! oh btw, he is the Owl City guy. yea, u know that songs..Vanilla twilight, and Hot air balloon. and everybody know who is Taylor Swift right? Can you believed it? he wrote a song for her! like a replied to her song- Enchanted. its awesome.

Taylor Swift and Adam Young

^__^

The letter that Adam Young wrote to Taylor!!

Enchanted by Adam Young (a reply to Taylor's song- Enchanted)

There I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered “have we met?”
Across the room your silhouette starts to make it’s way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you
Oh Taylor I was so enchanted to meet you too

This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go
I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you too

The lingering question kept me up
2AM, who do you love?
I wondered till I’m wide awake
Now I’m pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I’d open up and you would say,
Hey it was enchanting to meet you
Oh Taylor I was so enchanted to meet you too

This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go
I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you too

This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you too

Please don’t be in love with someone else
Please don’t have somebody waiting on you
Please don’t be in love with someone else
Please don’t have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go
I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don’t you let it go
I’m wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
Taylor I’ll spend my whole life wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you too

I was never in love with someone else
I never had somebody waiting on me
‘Cause you were all of my dreams come true
And I just wish you knew
Taylor I was so in love with you.

Parallel lines and the other lines

Sometimes i just wish we're like parallel lines. not the thing that we have in common. its that we never met, even though we are walking on the same path.

but somehow we're like that every other pair of lines, we met once and then drifts apart, forever.

and i think that is really sad, because every other time..i do think of you, and everything else in between. i don't know what am i suppose to feel.

but it's funny, sometimes in my dream..or i thought that you would text me, "i missed you". but it never happened, forever. i want to do that too, but i can't. i'm afraid.

it felt so weird that we always meet and i thought we could have the conversation we used to, but then again it stop me.

i could never look at you in the eye again. i am so sorry.

I didn't talk to u . but i wished, u would have talk to me.

Now we are strangers.

Too

too tired to write.

too sleepy to think. until next morning.

too happy to have a plotting or blair waldorfing.

too confuse to care about you.

really. im confused. so i've decided to just let it be. whatever happened for a reason.

you happy with your life. and i have friends to make my day better.

so me no worries.

i really hope you'll be happy. eventhough i always have my best memories with you.

it's okay. we're moving on.

Almost.

I don't know if you still mad at me. or really hate me. i don't know.

but why does it seem that everything i wanna do, it almost included you?

for the past 2 days, i have watched some interesting movie trailers. okay. then without my conscious, i said "okay, nak tgk movie ni dgn _________". tapi tibe2 en, "eh dah tak kawan, mane boleh ajak tgk wayang". same goes to when i wanted to buy something, "rse cm nk beli gak lah utk _______" but then again, "eh, mne boleh.."

so cmtu lah. i guess i just have to get use to it. sometimes when rara said something then tibe2 aku ter-reply plak "ouh..dia pun suke gak, or ade..."

pastu cam "asal lak aku ckp psal dia ek, sengal lahh.."

you see. often we spend our time with someone for a certain period of time, then suddenly a crisis happened and we both keeping a distance from each other. first, we thought..its okay..will be alright soon. then, after days and weeks when you were alone and suddenly thought of that person. that's when maybe all the memories came back. then again, ego will try to stop and things will be back to normal.

yes. eventhough im busy with my college life, everytime i paused the memories came rushing through. what should i do now?

no. i don't want it to end like this.

i hope so too

Sehari harian

Nak tgk suju tak dpt. bruno mars tak dpt. bieber jgn haraplah. oke. maroon 5?

bukan tak nak tapi, dah pokai. nasib baik aku mkn free. kalau kne byr, kurus dah aku. size 0 weh. boleh join ANTM. eh silap, MNTM.

dah la takde duit. nasib baik ayah kasi every week. ;) boleh la survive skit2. tapi, byk bnd kne byr sbnrnye, for example, duit kelas, duit coupon food fun fair etc. dah la coupon tu 2. 2 book. aaaaa, lebih kurang lah. so, nak tak nak kne la byr. aku lg byk spend duit utk kolej ni dr diri aku sndri weh. rse nye kne gune khidmat AKPK lah..susah gak nk uruskan kewangan ni. math kau dah la lembsss tina oi! hahahhaa..cne kau boleh dpt A? nway, spm kot. dan ye, aku bukan bdk account. so logik r..kan kan??

weh bedah!

asal kau 'in a relationship'? ngn sape? asal aku xtaw?

huh? kejadah?

ini satu trick kot weh. utk mengelakkan..well you know what lah kan..

aku kan single n ready to mingle.

ahhh, aku x cye kau ni.

xcye sudahhhh!

kau takde pakwe? xcye aku!

ye, bedah. kwn kau xde pakwe kot.

-____- '''

heh. bpe kali aku nk terangkan ni. ye. kau stalker aku kt blog ni haa. tp tp, dia best friend aku kot. tolong lah percaya. haihhhh, nt dia blk kau tnye lah! byk bising plak. hahahhaa...

oh kau nak taw tak?

haritu kan kan, aku plan mcm2 utk future aku. nk continue post basic lah, degree lahh..smbg contract lahh..mcm2 lahh..so time aku plan2 tu, tbe2 cm terlintas plak. bile nk kawen kalau cmni? (pergghhh, pikir psal kawen dah kau, beso dah!) ekeleh, gadis normal cm aku mmg la. kau tu lain la, cantik, pandai. sekali petik je wei (nth2 xyah petik pown). buat itu ini itu dan mcm2 lg, dah late 20's. kire cm nk 30 dah la. gulp! kalau aku sebok nk cri duit dan kumpul sijil serta merantau, alamatnye bedah, tak kawen lah aku! tapi, tibe2 rara ckp.."along the way ade lah tu..yg kau nk cri watpe.." eh, betul lah kot. :p

kau sengal lah Tina. patut la Zainur pnggl kau noob -___- ''' haihhhh..

ergghhh, ape noob noob??!!

siap lah mamat tu! hahahhaa..

dan td tbe2 aku menangis wei. aku takut. tbe2 aku terpikir (byk bepikir betul lah bdk ni, pastu nangis). nth cmne aku boleh terpikir, mst ade hikmah aku jd nurse kan wei. sepatutnye, org degil dan noob cm aku xleh jd nurse. pastu aku terpikir (again) byk bnd aku blaja semenjak aku jd nurse, well at least aku taw ubat2 ni. dan juga family aku sgt lah health conscious, so aku tak risau sgt..bpk aku terer wei gune glucometer tu haa, prick sndri kt umh. (tp aku pantau buku dia) so far, undercontrol. sume sihat sejahtera. alhamdulillah..

dah la kau ciwek! nangis je keje. sume nk nangis. tgk 127 hours nk nangis, tgk code blue kt tv nangis. ape lg yg kau nak nangis? terharu then aku nangis ahh..sedih kot weh code blue tu. aku kalau pasal bpk ngn anak ni aku tacing beb. aku dah la slalu degil, tak dgr ckp, degil, suke buat sesuka hati dan sesedap rse, merajuk plng lme kat umh..haha..rina pown pening ngn aku~

ni haaa, membebel je keje. pergi tido lah! orait bosss! nyte!

Long post

Its a short weekend. why? well..as you r reading this, i'm already at my college. probably attending meeting. if not. well...skype? maybe..reading notes. or else..zzzzzz.

anyway. even though its a short one. i learn a lot and do the thinking.

firstly, human are definitely not the same. maybe i misjudge. or being judgmental. call it whatever you want. i said this because, i often posted somethings for my friends, either good or not so good (won't say bad though). for example, i often write a post about my friend in France. either i miss him, or simply because i miss him (again). or just wanna tell him about my chaotic life. yes, i do tell him by writing because sometimes writing is way much easier than telling. maybe we both kinda bz and if i talked, i probably forgot what i'm talking about. so if i wrote, i could just re-read. anyhoo, my point is. you can't get upset (way over upset) about what i'm writing. especially if i didn't maki you, can't say i did. it is wrong. and i don't understand why are you being so upset when i already said "i'm sorry"? for my France dude. thanx for giving me a definite answer for my question. no dude, its not you. but rather a guy whom i ought to know. but somehow, i couldn't recognize him anymore.

secondly, i hate living alone. i just don't understand my dad. why can't i go live nicely in balakong? oh, wait. its quite far. so my dad bought a house (just a flat) for me to live and near to my workplace. okay. thank you daddy. appreciate it. living alone is scary. but my dad said, i can't be too dependent on people. its time for you to stand on your feet. stop being clingy. and everything. oh well, just want you to know dad, i'm the-more-the merrier kind of girl.

thirdly, i miss you. and i love our friendship. i love it so much sometimes i'm afraid i might lose it. well, you know i might say something unintentionally and next thing i know, you don't talk to me or even skype or ym me anymore. then i'll be more than just a loser. what's more than a loser? idk. and i don't want one. so sometimes i just keep quiet. but being too quiet is weird. so i talked. a lot sometimes. and when you called me, i often forgot to ask about you. i'm so sorry. and you are not calling from anywhere near. better remember that next time.

DAIR

Maaf wifi. aku x kisah dah. nak gune jgk (dah nak abs download bru mntk sorry, ceitttt). biar exceed asal kan dpt tgk GG ep 18. episode ni sgt critical oke. Hopefully, Chuck sempat tgk dgn harapan mata dia terbeliak dan aku tepuk tngn dgn happy nya..yes! take that Bass! in ur pretty face!

ye. kau lupekan lah si Chuck (taste dia urgghh). amik lah Dan. Walaupun dia Humphrey dan tinggal di Brooklyn. tapi tapi, dia lagi baik baik dan baik dari Chuck. memang kau tak rase nk naik limo dah pas ni Blair. sila naik cab. atau naik limo anda sendiri (memang sah lah). padan muka Chuck! hang pi lah kat Raina hang tu. Go Humphrey! ehem, aku suka Dan lah. eh, mane ade khianat. mmg aku dulu dulu suke Dan. tapi Archibald tetap di hati. dia punye charm you can't resist. tapi taste dia, org tua2! takpe, asalkan dia bahagia.

Sabar wei sabar. esk bwk earfon g kelas. tgk dlm kelas. mantap!

ni episode 17. berdebar weh tgk episode ni..haha