remember me ;)

dear you,

remember me

and me.

ok. maybe you can remember others too

but you definitely can't forget me.

in other words,

remember me.

for good and bad.

after all, i will still remember you

even a thousand year.

sincerely yours,

author.

ps: have a safe journey.

super something

You see
I was nothing more
than a girl who wished
for something different
watchin her dreams
from a distance

You see
when you came in
its a different game
You believe in me so much
You turn me from nothing to a girl
whos super-something

You'll see
Im better
Im faster
Stronger
Im happier
when you by my side
(kulalui semua dengan senyuman di wajahku)

You'll see
Im better
Im faster
Stronger
Im happier
when you by my side
(ku tempuhi semua kerana engkau di sisi ku)

The truth is
I was never more than this
Something kept me reaching out
for something
but my heart is wanting
what its looking for
then you came
you turn me upside down
Im no longer afraid
of chasing
possibilities
Ill be the last one standing

~yuna~

marry u ;)

i want to get married!!
and fast.
but i dun hev bf.
seriously. while some people scared of gettin married at early age, i found dat married at early age is fun and exciting.
a whole new life begins. adventure. yeay..
but i hev different kind of reason too tho..
i want to hev baby. i love them!
they r so cuteee!! and love to cuddle wif them..
u see..
im a student nurse. so im posting in nursery and my gosh..
the babies are amazing. so cute. so nice. and they smell great. like babies smell u noe how it is..
n u culd c how the parents work together..maybe mostly the fathers as in mother is in pain or something..

family. is great. i want to hev one. a perfect one. then it will be picture perfect.
i dun mind married at dis kinda age. it will be cool to do everything wif the person i love and i want to be wif him and dun hev to worry about almost everything in the world.

let's grow old together

i love jacob

first: i love jacob.

y?

he's hot. he make me nervous. so im in his team.

not dat i dun like edward, but if im cold in winter..who's im goin to be cuddle with?

who's goin to keep me warm.

and the sounds dat, when jacob said

he's not even alive made me tink...ok. he's dead.

n doin everything wif edward sounds dangerous..

even physical.

second: i tink bella is super damn lucky.

edward and jacob both r fighting for her. n willing to do anythin to keep her safe..

and i hev nothing left to say..

bella and jacob. yeay!!

ok. its not goin to happen?

awww...bella. u must choose wisely..

u can marry edward but u dun hev to change. into blood sucking creature.

i keep my fingers cross!!

pls2..dun make jacob sad.

quit. berhenti. stop.

i hate num 4.
everything bout num 4 is not me.
num 4 made me tink.

a lot.

i want to quit. nursing. everything. and lead a happy life as kindergarden teacher. see children everyday. see toddler everyday. play wif them, teach them..go lawatan and do eveything together..dat is when i can smile effortlessly.

now, i hev to smile n laugh. even i dun want and i hate to.
i want to cry really hard. but tears not coming out. im stressed but i dun noe how to admit it. i dun noe how to say it. i dun noe how to expressed my feelings clearly. i only noe when im angry. like now, i dun even noe if im happy to go back home tomorrow or sad or no feelings at all.
i hate to burst into tears. im not a cry baby. i wont cry dat is what i always told myself.
i hev a strong heart. but it gets weaker everytime something like dis happened.
i hate myself.

yes i hev issues wif my ego. i noe.

im so dizzy i can't tink straight.
it feels like now how i want to get money to pay my contract.
i want money. now. 60k.

i never really wanted to do dis course. i dun noe what i want. i want to be wif the kids but at the same time i love to learn new things.

yes. im jealous wif my frens and roomate.
they're genius.

so my tutor asked if im still keen to learn. or my social life just won't let me do it anymore.
seriously, idk. i can't figure it out. yet.

i feel fat.
and it stucked in my brain.
i need to exercise.

i hate all this.

ps: if u just want to noe, u culd just ask me.