I miss you

You know, my first choice wasn't nursing. it was more to hotel management and tourism. why? because i like to travel and telling people about great places in the world.

then, i want to open up a nursery. nahhh, not the plants one. its more like kindergarten. why? because i love kids. yes, you and you may not believe it but trust me.i can handle pretty much kids. my way of course. after spm, i worked as a teacher at this kindergarten, then i met this cute chinese boy..emmm that time he was just 3 years old..he so cute and cute, i wished he's 17 (im 17 at that time) i really like him. i still do. he got the cutest face and smile. anyway, i took care of him. pretty much everything. i taught him ABC,123..songs (even chinese one). i bathed him. i slept with him (yikes) woke him up. played around with him, scold him.

his parents are hard working people. they always came back late. then i had to stay with him until 8pm sometimes. i don't mind, but my parents are..so guess what?

i bwk dia to my house! yeay! he stayed with me until his parents came and pick him up. cool eh. amik cinapek bwk blk umh. ckp melayu wehhh..hahaha!! i miss those moments. dia sgt cute!

i think, he's 7 years old now! wow! same age as my niece. Good luck boy!

btw, ape motif kau tulis post ni?

ekeleh, aku rindu dia aku tulis lahhh! i miss Lee Hao Min!

I hate Rara!

I believe between 2 best friends there should be some healthy arguments, little bit of drama and so whatever. i didnt talk to my best friend since yesterday evening until..errrr..i can't remember the duration exactly. but hey, we talk now. like we never talk before.

anyway, i do feel bad. if i do something then my best friend is not by my side. usually we had breakfast,lunch, dinner together. but this morning (we dare not to speak yet) so i had breakfast alone. same goes for lunch. but somewhere between classes we 'bergaduh' and then there's more. then there's pause. then only we talked. and end up, having dinner together. which i called her because i had meeting but she's already in her room. so i straight away went to cafe and start to think "i can't do this. i have to talk to her, ala buat bodo je." then went to her room buat muke x malu sket, "ra, dinner jom." then segalanya kembali normal. tu je. all you have to do is. put on your thick face and say sorry.

tak nak kawan sudahhhhh!!

IHY

Memang malas nk type. nk story pun cm malas. disebabkan kau la.

i could never go to sunway,

could never go to cupcake chic,

could never walk around in sunway,

could never go to midvalley and hang out in mph again

could never go to carrefour in midvalley ever ever again.

could never watch the movie we used to watch again.

wait. i know you possibly don't care. but i do. its been this long and im really tired of this. all of this. i said sorry. for whatever i ever did to you. but you just don't care. i did wrong. and so do you.

i know we are not freakin couple but i went out with you way too many times than anyone else. i don't know why you kept secrets but i don't. i hate secrets. that's why i never keep one.

i really hate you. you are a distraction. big massive one. why can't you just quit your job and move from pj. that would give me some peace. cause i won't. i have contract. if not, i'll be out from your face.

even if i was mad at you, i'll be fine after a week. we could talk it over and apologize and do whatever we want to. but it has been 2 weeks. oh, i have my own reason why i text-ed you using rara's number.

i hate you i wish i never met you.

R&M part 1

Sem 6 byk mengajar aku. macam2 lah. self reflection, time management, leadership, communication and everything.

dan juga research and management project. ala, yg kne wat research about something that you think need improvement, especially about my college or clinical area. kawan baik boleh bergaduh (kalau dapat same group), musuh kne tolerate sesame sendiri, dan yg tak pernah bertegur atau tak rapat sebelum ni dirapatkan hubungan mereka..

seronok tu memang la, as im the kind of person who likes to work in a group. =) tapi bukan sume org suke bekerja dgn org ramai. ade yg suke buat kerja sndri, dan pass up hasil kerja mereka (kadang2 mereka beri rubbish pada leader) yg mana buat bagus tu, keep it up!. kesian aku tengok leader every group. to tell you the truth, even leader aku cried sbb dia igt diri dia tak layak jadi leader. eh, tak la! sebab leader ni, lecturer kitorg yg chose. mereka ade sebab tersendiri mengapa mereka chose kamu. jadi jgn bersedih dan cheer up! everybody made mistakes. so what we have to do? learn from the mistakes and never did the same thing again.

kalau kau leader dan kau ter amatlah soft spoken dan baik hati, emm be careful sebab as far as i know people like to take you for granted. haa, time ade meeting la kau nak dating, nak kuar la, nak tu la, nk ni la..kalau nk dating tu boleh, tapi habaq mai awai2 nokkkk..bukan last minute. sebab project ni group work, mana mungkin buat seorang diri (even ade lagi 10 org). lain la kalau emergency, dan berdating itu adalah kemahuan dan bukan keperluan, apatah lagi di kategorikan sbg kecemasan...pffttt..

part yg paling tension mase time literature review. nak kne bace literature tu bukan skit, tp byk taw tak! mostly ktorng amk from google scholar (thanx yaw!) dan database such as science direct dan proquest. lain2 tu pndai2 la korg cri. must be reliable taw. and give credit la tu those who cited the phrase. kang kau kne cop plagiarism.

part yg plng best adlh mase create questionnaire. time ni idea tibe2 je tumbuh cm cendawan (bernas ke tak, tu lain cerite)..hahahaa..pastu korg gembira bile questionnaire korg di approve oleh lecturer. time tu, boleh la distribute kat kawan2 dan junior2..tgk cmne hasil nya..so far ktorg bru buat pilot study..dan result serta feed back dari mereka not bad lahhh...ade gak idea nak wat bab management nanti..

yeay! malam ni nak distribute soalan yg betul2..nanti kite tgk hasilnya. :-)

k lah, nak rehat dulu. penat beb, kelas dari 8-5. otak ni kene rehat jap...zzzzzz...

1,2,3 Go. just let it go.

Ready dah nak tulis. sebab tak reply msg kite, x app friend request kite. so kite tulis kat blog je lahh..anyway, sume org taw..ape2 pun kite akan tulis kat blog.

fine. kalau tak nak approve friend request kite. tapi at least kite dah mintak maaf. kite dah pikir2, kalau maafkan kite pun, things will never be the same. so, takpe. maafkan lah kite ok. pasni kite tak kacau dah. lagi pun pasni kite akan jadi super duper busy.

actually, kite mmg tak patut pun marah dan tak bercakap. but, nth. cm tetibe lak. pastu bile pkr2 balik, like lahhh...bukan nya bf kite pun. so, watpe nak marah dan jealous (?). bukan nya pernah declare couple ke ape. even dah kuar byk kali pun cm..well..nth. takpe la. takde pape yg serious. just a picture je kan.

takde sape wat salah pape. ok. maybe kite.

hmmm, ok. dah. cm tu je la. it has to end. somehow, somewhere, and some time.