for you i will

wandering in the streets, in a world underneath it all

nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet

as what i can't have

like you and the way that you're twisitng your hair

round your finger

tonight im not afraid to tell you

what i feel bout you

im gonna muster every ounce of confidence as i have
and cannon ball into the water
im gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have
for you i will
for you i will

forgive me if i stutter
from all of the clutter in my head
cause i could fall asleep in those eyes
like a waterbed
do i seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
i want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

im gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have
and cannon ball into the water
im gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have
for you i will
you always want what you can't have
but i've got to try
im gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have
for you i will
for you i will
for you i will
for you

if i could dim the lights in the mall
and create a mood i would
shout out your name so it echoes in very room,yeah

that's what i do
that's what i do
that's what i do
to get through to you

im gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have
and cannon ball into the water
im gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have
for you i will
you always want what you can't have
but i've got to try
im gonna muster every ounce of confidence i have
for you i will
for you i will
for you i will
for you i will

4 nights of marathon (part 1)

0900- 1550 : sleeping..Zzz...

plus, i elevated my leg.
so pain, i can't really stand properly.
man, u dun noe how i rocked my nyte.
i done sort of things during nyte shift.

tell ya something,
i kinda miss nyte shift.
ouh, no eye bag...yet.

n im working wif dis staff ryte..
she is so beautiful.
before start working, her hair looks fine.
eyeliner looks fine.

during work, even better.

after work, hours pass by..
damn, she still looks good.
while passing report,
the only thing i look is at her.

but..im not pervert!!
i juz mesmerized..
she used to be my senior u noe..hehe..

y sound so lesbians
no lah..its juz a compliment.

first nyte.

lesson: when oxygen in ur body is not enough, u can get confused. plus if u do hev lungs problem. it will be worse.


wish: second nyte more interesting and less work pls. esp. the not necessarily things to do, but we hev to do to satisfy u. huh..

i'll be ur greatest fan

currently in this mood.

the strands in ur eyes, they color them wonderful
stop me from stealin my breath
emeralds from mountain thrust towrds the sky
never revealing their depth

tell me that we belong together
dress it up with trappings of love
i'll be captivated, i'll hang from ur lips
instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

and i'll be your cryin shoulder
i'll be love suicide
i'll be better when im older
i'll be the greatest fan of ur life

and rain falls angry on the tin roof
as we lie awake in my bed
you're my survivor, you're my living proof
my love is alive and not dead

and tell me that we belong together
dress it up with the trappings of love
i'll be captivated, i'll hang from ur lips
instead of gallows of heartache that hang from above

and i'll be your cryin shoulder
i'll be love suicide
i'll be better when im older
i'll be the greatest fan of ur life

i've dropped out, burned up
and fought my way back from the dead
i've tuned in and turned on
and remember the day that you left

and i'll be ur cryin shoulder
and i'll be love suicide
i'll be better when im older
i'll be the greatest fan of ur life.

dis is what bothering me. RA.

i asked my frens to wish me luck yesterday before i sleep.
here is the reason.

i got RA dis morning.
ryte. what is RA?
Running Assessment.
i told u, i hate RA and all the little things we have to do.
sem 4. i hate num 4 as well. suey.
i stay in level 4. 4 is really something.
y not 8? ong maa..

nway, tell u a bit bout dis RA.
we have to choose a patient, which got a good case. for me, my tutor said i can chose mine. but my case is not dat satisfying, then she chose herself. if can i pray hard, not be a guy. not a guy. i..well..trembled..but she chose an uncle, almost same as my dad's age, so i guess its fine.
then we talked about y they admitted, the treatment, serve the medication, nursing diagnosis, plan the care chart and every little things..

review:
from tutor to me.

interview. she said im such a good talker, i noe how to bring up patient somehow to talk. talk is really my thing..good interview..

facts. not strong enough..should become more serious in class..and im sure u will success..n dun go round and round bout the facts..

ouh..n she said i should be able to interpret the lab data result and link to patients diagnosis. sure i'll do that. but i can't when u only give me basically 20 minutes to study bout the patient..argghhh...

btw, she changed my patient last minute and i have to study the case for 20 minutes. how cool is dat? im quite impressed wif myself, im able to tell the case almost perfect. n she had no questions to asked me. wohhooooooo!!

note to myself: i like interview people now.
pls. read more.
if ur in her game, make sure u win.


btw, there's dis health education i forgot to tell uncle. n she reminded me. but its too late..feel like wanna go back to uncle and told him. its really important. i cried because i forgot to tell him. but of course, didn't cry in front of her. what a shame..

overall: those wishes came true. pls do wish more.

how to save a life

step one one u say we need to talk
he walks away u say sit down its just a talk

he smiles politely back at you

you stare politely right on through

some sort of window to your right

as he goes left and you stay right

between the lines of fear and blame

and you begin to wonder why you came

where did i go wrong, i lost a friend

somewhere along in the bitterness

and i would have stayed up with you all night

had i known how to save a life

let him know that you know best

cause after all you do know best

try to slip past his defense

without granting innocence

lay down list of what is wrong

the things you've told him all along

and pray to God, he hears you

and pray to God he hears you

where did i go wrong, i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness

and i would have stayed up with you all night

had i known how to save a life

as he begins to raise his voice

you lower yours and grant him one last choice

drive until you lose the road

or break with the ones you've followed

he will do one of two things

he will admit to everything

or he'll say he's just not the same

and you begin to wonder why you came

where did i go wrong i lost a friend

somewhere along in the bitterness

and i would have stayed up with you all night

had i known how to save a life