Sunday, August 29, 2010

Ayah, Selamat Hari Lahir!!


Ayah!!
Selamat Hari Lahir yg ke 54

ayah masih cm dulu..rambut ayah hitam lebat..
eh, betul aku xtipu..mmg ni gene dlm family aku..

ayah masih lg belikan ape2 yg aku nak..
masih layan rengekan aq yg kadang2 cm nth ape2 je..mintak ampun..
masih suruh aku perbetulkan diri yg serba kekurangan ini..

Ayah masih anggap aku anak kecil..
bertanya seribu satu soalan jika aku hendak berbuat sesuatu
masih ketat peraturan beliau terhadap aku
tapi aku memberontak,
membantah
sebab aku anggap diriku sudah dewasa
tahu semuanya

Ayah geleng kepala
tapi aku masih tidak mengerti
mengapa ayah sebegitu
terlalu melindungi aku
sudah acap kali aku mengingatkan kepada ayah
aku sudah 20 tahun
aku sudah pandai menguruskan diri ini
aku sudah pandai
aku sudah pandai
itu dan ini

tapi jauh di benak ku
aku faham mengapa ayah begitu
ayah tidak mahu aku hanyut dalam dunia yang rakus ini
ayah mahu aku belajar
jarang sekali ayah berkata "tidak"
tetapi ayah telah menggunakan pendekatan lain dalam mendidik aku
sesungguhnya aku bersyukur
dikurniakan ayah yang begitu
melindungi aku
memahami aku
menjaga aku dengan rapi dan cantik sekali

biarlah orang kata
ayah aku kolot,tidak moden
tidak memberi kebebasan

tetapi pada aku
ayah aku yang terbaik!!

saya sayang ayah!!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

imma care for a friend..even ur at France

Today we ym
i told u i cant get over my shophaholic
about bags especially those on9
u told me
keep that money for something else
i laughed n said "i want those bags"
u said, "wait till ur prince charming come and brings a contena full of bags.."
"oh yes..i loike!!"

then u said
u got something to tell
but maybe it will make me angry
but i said "its okay..i'll swallow.."

so u told me
u went for medical check up
to renew ur visa or smthng
then doctor said u hev to excercise more
blood pressure and pulse are increasing
to which its still normal for a guy
but since ur told me bout the lifestyle and the food there
its exactly what i expected

i know, ur expecting me to nagging all the way
but actually i just feel like
crying
i cant believe what the food had done to you
dats why, i hate toulon, france
and the foods there
i cant afford to tell you everytime
u'll be mad at me later
so dis time i said "its okay, u can exercise more..."
"u can do it.."

but deep inside, i really hope
you know what you doing with ur health status.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Kisah ahli2 kumpulan


Tahu tak
betapa susah dan
lecehnya
bila dlm group assignment kite kat kolej ni begitu perfectionist?
ahli2 group pun bkn calang2 org..xmen la hat 2 pointer..depa men yg 3 pointer ke atas ja...
tp memang kne byk bersabar..contohnye..kalau buat assignment, group aq ni ade satu hal..
sorg incharge, pastu bile da siap kne persembahkan kt ahli2 yg laen..kononnye bile tutor tnye, ade idea la ape bnd yg ngh present tu..ni la kelebihannya.

tp kdg2, bengang plak aq sbb aq rse diowg ni cm terlalu particular.
tahu la pandai sgt sgt..tu xpe...ni ade yg berlagak pandai..ha..cmne tu...
ade gk yg bru nk pandai2, tp membe bodo ni dia xnk layan dahhh..ciss.lg kuang ajaq..
kalau ade certain procedure tu, mak aii...dia punya kelam kabut x igt dunia dahhh..
rilek2 suda...taw la leader kn..tp haihhh..aq sendiri pun xphm..

haa..pastu ade satu ahli group aq ni, mulut dia pakat men lepas jaa..
bru semalam dia cm mrh2 kt membe aq ni...membe aq ni ckp psal bnd lain kot, yg dia ni salah phm, lalu berkata begini..

"nasib baik kau xsme group ngn aq.."

kesian membe aq..dia ni jenis yg tacing2 skit..xpe la..aq pun sme gk..tp org tu ckp psal bnd lain kot..yg hang nk melalut skali pasai paa..?? gilaaaa..
aq habaq kt membe aq ni, dia mmg cmtu..kalau dia buat xpa, kalau kita xbole..abs cmne?
aq pun meluahkan isi hati aq gk kat dia, betapa susahnye hati aq berada dlm group yg mcm tu..

mintak maaf ye..ahli2 yg lain sume ok..just ade seteng dua yg poyo2..

membe aq ni ckp "taw la group kau perfect..sume buat bgus2 punya kerja.."
tp aq ckp "kdg2 tu la yg buat aq stress..baik group cm kau.."

tu lah..bak kata peribahasa "rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain.."
eh..betul ke? kalau salah sila beritahu ye..hehe..

niat dihati bukan nk ngumpat atau kene kn sape2..just nk bgtaw dan peringatan buat diri sendiri dan rakan2..bile berbicara hati kene jaga..kalau rse mulut tu cm gampang..baik diam je ye tak??

abis cite..

ps: kalau ade ahli 2 group terbaca post ni, sila renung2 kan..tapi igt... mungkin anda, mungkin tidak..

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Bon Voyage

I used to have best friend
dis particular friend
he was nice, charming, funny, brilliant
we used to watch movies together
it was such fun then
i really enjoyed it
every minute

but one day
u told me
u were leaving, to France
i knew the day will come
cause u r a smarty pants
u'll leave me, ur friends, and everything here
n travel to a new country, gain new experiences, making new friends, learn new things
it'll be so much fun than what we did here, ryte?

n dat's why, i dun fancy France, Italy, Rome, Paris etc..
they make me sick
they took you away
they made you
becoming not you.
n that is why you
you
changed.

its not the same
like when you're here
i think i said it about 10 times before u left.
and its true

up until now, i still don't know if we r friends.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Kisah kawan di bulan puasa

Fuuhhhhh!! tu dia..berhabuk blog aq ni haa...berzaman xhapdate..
xpe2..ni cek nk habaq mai satu story kat hang pa suma..

ini kisah pengajaran dan erti seorang sahabat. cewaahhhh...tu dia..lama simpan skali kuaq..xboleh nk ckp pa daahhh..
haha..rilek2

kes ni, bru berlaku satu jam yg lepas..aq ngn membe aq mmg plan nk mkn roti bakaq la..even lauk arini nasi lemak..agak sedap.. tp cm gemok laa aq en kalau mkn nasi lemak je kn..rase nye bru aritu aq da mkn..hisshh..x bole la mkn slalu..skali bdn kembang semangkuk cmne? haaa...spe nk jwb tu..hihi..

tidoq2..last skali ta jd mkn roti bakar tu..hampehh..disebabkan tido ta jd mkn dahh..so, ktowg siap2..nk turun kt cafe tu p mkn nasi lemak je la..

tup tup..pinggan ktowg da diisi kn dgn nasi lemak..oke..xhepi mne pun la kn..tp just ckp thanx je..xdak pe yg syok pun tolong amk kn nasi je..
ktowg duduk la en..tbe2 nmpk agak byk plastik atas meja..dr gerak hati tgk cm bru blk dr bazaar..
tnye la membe yg laen kn..ckp takde..xpegi pown..
tp ade satu minah ni, dia tbe2 pkai tudung..slalu tak. tergerak hati nk tnye la
"td ko g bazaar ek?"
"aah.."
ok fine la.

tp aq ngn membe aq da pandang2 each other..dlm hati aq mmg rase cm nk baling je pinggan kt muke dia..
nk taw sbb ape? ni laa..

aritu ktowg g bazaar, membe aq ni tolong la amk kn order dia..
dia punye order mak aiiii...smpai rm15 punye food..aq agk bengang gk time tu..aq nye food pown xsmpai rm15..
tp disebabkan ktowg pikir kawan, beli kn utk dia..first2 skali smpai sne mknn dia ktowg beli dulu taw ..adalah reason dia, sbb dia order byk, nt takut lupe plak..ktowg punye simple je..
pastu da beli...penuh tngn ni..sakit jari aq..tp xpe..sebab membe punya pasal..
ktowg ni bwk la mknn2 dia tu..

tbe2 arini, dia nk g bazaar..inform pown tak..g senyap2 je..lalu, tinggal lah aq ngn membe aq yg aritu dok terkedek2 bwk mknn dia..
alasan dia, xdpt jmp ktowg..
dlm pale otak aq, apakah punya alasan?
aq ngn dia dlm bilik je kot..xgerak mne2 pown..cisss..
membe aq yg laen boleh plak dia beli kn..

disebabkan perkara ni, membe aq da terkecik hati..sian aq tgk dia..
kalau ikut hati aq yg muda membara ni..dr td aq sound awal..biar terkedu sket..
tp dia ckp cmni..

"xpe ti (panggilan manja) mak aq ckp biar org buat kite, jgn kite buat org..."

so, aq pown da xckp pape lah..
diam seribu bhse membatu.

tapi dlm hati aq..
cmni ko wt kt membe ko kn..fine! lepas ni satu haram ape pown aq x tolong daa..
aku cm nk tulis satu peribahasa, tp cm xigt la..ape nth ala.."yg dibalas tuba..."aq da lupe..sori2..

aq habaq sat kat membe aq ni..pasni kita gerak 2 je...


kite ni dok sme2..mkn sme2..study sme2..igt la sesame sndri..kalau ko xsuke aq xpe..tp jgn wt membe aq cmni..membe ko jgk kn..kalau ko xnk beli kn utk aq xpe...tp jgn xbeli utk membe aq skali..dia ni baik..sini melayu xrmai..spe nk tlng kalau bukan membe sndri..

coretan hari ni:

"xpe, biar org buat kite..jgn kite buat org.."

hebat btol. aq xboleh pegang ngn prinsip ni..bg aq..walau xbetol la kn..ni kire cm org pijak pale kite je..
bg aq plak..kdg2..kite kne sound je org cmni dpn2..biar dia taw sket cmne dan ape perasaan org laen..
oppppss..aq xcakap aq ni perfect..ye ko boleh sound aq. dan kalau betol, xpe aq admit..tp kalau xbetol, sila dgr hujah2 bernas dr aq..tenkiu.

sekian. kalau membe kau gedik, merengek xnk mkn cm budak kecik xpe. kalau aq tarik muka sket, muncung sedepa ko da komplen en.



Tuesday, August 10, 2010

riang ria berpuasa ;)


yay
esok terawih ;)
suke sgt..(padahal tunggu nk moreh je)
ehhh...xkesa la..yg penting aq g terawih pe...
xmacam kau oke..hahaha ;)

haih..time bulan pose ni
teringat kenangan mse kt asrama ert dulu
mmg nakal ktorg ni
muke wanted, senior poyo..haa amk kau, sume ade kn..
ponteng terawih..hehe..
alasan..byk homework weyhh...xsiap nanti kne denda..
nk study la..
smpai je klas, letak beg..
cri port, cri geng..duduk dan mulakan gossip..
ish ish ish...ade ke patut cik tina.. =p

2 jam sok sek sok sek..
beli segala jajan kt koperasi (bukak plak mlm2 ek)
buat homework+ bergossip
kalau warden dtg esp sir jaa ngn ustaz zaid ktowg jd budak baik je tibe2..hehe
diam je ko kn tina.ceittt..mentang2..(padahal plng huru hara dlm kelas- ni statement sue)
hehe ;)
abis je prep..
g DM aka dewan makan, tempat plng baik cri food..
usha2 sat..moreh best ka..
tbe2 dtg biro surau.."ohh..terawih xnk buat, makan laju je korang ye.."
ehehee..sori2..esok ktorg buat ye...alalala

time sahur ni liat sket..konon boleh tahan la..minum air je..
ade membe ktorg ni nk sahur, tp hanya diterangi lampu koridor je la
dia pun g mkn roti ngn selambanya diambil dr loker..
fine r..
bile pg tu..ktorg bukak lampu, tgk roti tu ade kt tepi katil dia..
tgk2 da berkulat kot...
"eh,ika..ko mkn roti da expired dow.."
tp aq rse la kn...disebabkan bulan pose..
dia xsakit pape pun..
Alhamdulillah..

time berbuka..mak aiii...
punye la rmai org..(eh..mestila..abs tu mne lg nk makan kalau tak kt DM ni..)
barisan panjang nyee...xtahan nk beratur la...
memandangkan ktorg ni senior..
so ehemm..excuse me junior2 syg..senior tumpang lalu..zzzzuupp..
maka dgn itu, penuhla tmpt tu ngn kroni2 kami..
maaf ye..ala nt korg senior pun korg sme gk..percaye la..
tp xslalu la ktorg wt cmni..
tgk menu..hahahhaa ;)
pasal meja plak en..
mmg meja panjang, tiap2 tu ade kroni msg2..
so, da tertulis walau xnmpk ngn mata kasar..
nme2 kami diatas meja..eleh..ktorg da cop pkai botol air la..mne boleh amk..brani r..meh aq sekeh sorg2..

bile sume da dpt mknn tu mulut mmg xreti nk diam le bedahh...
nk dgr azan kot..kang xdgr..cmne plak en...
dah la sume pmpuan..mmg kecoh sekampung..ish ish..
akhirnya..diam gk korg en..dpt dgr azan..jgn risau ye..hehe..
almaklum la..org perempuan..

so, mcm tu la rutin kitorg sepanjang bulan pose ni..
ade je bnd nk dibuat nye...
rindu sgt le temah ngn kome..(slang mmg out..haha)
bile la dapat berbuka ngn korg lg...;)


Thursday, August 5, 2010

betrayal, lie and cheat

im not like you
i can't hide feelings very well
when im angry, i throw tantrum
when im sad, i cry a river
when its funny, i laugh out loud
when im worried, i frown
when im overjoyed, i jump sky high
when im afraid, i scream my lungs out
when im happy, i smile a lot
when im lonely, i talk
so you see, the bitter part of myself.
unlike you, who perfectly monster in disguise
well, while you're having fun with the mask on your pretty face
we both know its not going to last
quit playing now, will you?
hurting people, lying in their face, cheating
are you satisfiy with your achievement?
well you certainly have collect enough trophy to display
too bad you can't show em to your parents
cause i bet that is not what they wish for to see
you should stop
you don't like it when you have to see me stopping you
so, please just stop
grow up and be more sensible
up until now, im still hoping there's still you behind the mask.