Monday, January 25, 2010

abes cerite

annyong!!
finally..the other day..my parents came and pick me up.
told yaaaaa!!
walking alone in kl is a big no to them.
nway..
i went back to c my grandparents n my aunt n her family who stayed there too.
n guess what, they gonna place a wifi in the house yaw!!
after all my kampung is the best!!
we've got everythin. n dat everythin is so damn cool.
i love my kampung. the food is nice. the place is nice. the scene is nice.
like everythin is nice.
perfect.
but as for me, i can stay for awhile, but not for the rest of my life.
idk. i guess i dun belong there. i belong here. in this bz metropolis.
ermm..
so actually..2nyte i will go back to college.
had enough rest.
tp assignmnt xsiap2 jgk..hahahha..

Friday, January 22, 2010

kecelaruan hidup

tatkala aq sedang menaip ini post
hati sedang bercelaru memikirkan roster yg bru ku lihat di notice board.
ku sangkakan tidak akn dpt cuti, yela..apply pon tidak.
rupenye dpt!! cuti 2 hari plak tuh.
da la smlm xbley tido.
yela..da lme kt umh..ade air cond.
sini kipas ku pusing smpai n0 5..hahahha..
bese la tu..roomate kesayangan memahami.

so cmne..?
nk blk atau tidak..?
anis pon xtaw dpt blk kl mlm ni atau tidak.
sbb, dye kne blk umh. emergency katenye.
xtaw blk ble.

nk blk sendiri mst la boleh.
tp restu makbpk sngt penting bg aq.
kalo xbley xpe. akn ku negotiate kn.
bkn blk umh. blk office mrk la..
di bangsar. ku di pj. ape ke dkt sgt la.
naek je lrt..tup tup..da smpai..
"next station, bangsar.."

yela..xpyh la bwk laptop nih..kang nahas..
aq dgr byk cite owg kne ragut laptop kt kl.
lg2 kt bangsar.
aq kn dak kecik. mne ley.
mst diowg nk dtg sini punye. trust me.
pergi ke office mrk seorang diri adalah dilarang..kot.
terpaksa tipu..? tipu lg..
xpe kate je ade membe nk anta kn..naek kete..
mst ok punye..tp xkukuh sgt.
mgkn blh wt plot ni ngn mak aq la..
bpk xmngkn terpedaya..

nk blk x..blk..?

Thursday, January 21, 2010

pulang awal

sudah ku putuskan
untuk pulang pd mlm ini.
da la roster lmbt kuar.
parents nk blk kg plak en.
blk kl ahad mlm.
kang nt kalo aq keje ari ahad xke nahas nme nye.
so, utk menjaga plan kedua belah pihak
aq telah wt keputusan utk pulang mlm ni.
xssh kn org.

jumaat pon bley blk.
tp jumaat mlm nk kuar ngn anis, nt kalo xsempat cane.
dok melangut je la aq kt hostel tuh.
xsebenarnye, ade jgk sbb utk aq balik awal.
nk siapkan assignment yg aq rse kn kalo dok kt umh xtaw ble nk siap.
baek aq wt kt hostel. notes sume pon kt bilik.
xde owg nk kaco aq..hehehe..

aq ngh bengang sbb roster lmbt kuar
disebabkan roster lambat kuar
aq jd cmni.
aq mls la nk complain lbh2..yela..sister bz dow.
so baek diam je. shhhh..

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

boyfren baru =)



my second post for the day.
sje nk tulis byk2 plak satu hari en. haha..
eh asl aq tulis dlm bm ek..? slalu english.
nth la. tukar angin jp..woooooshhh...
td aq tulis psl CN blue. skg nk tulis psl vokalis dye yg ngh HOT cm pisang goreng panas. aha..
introducing....
JUNG YONG HWA!!

when i look at him
i thought, "man, he is the coolest guy dat i want to hang out with besides kim hyun joong or jihoo sunbae."
n so yeah. i stick to it.

when i look at him
i thought i want to learn how to play guitar as well.
but nahhh.. i rather hear him play.
wahhaha..

i mean, i dun always like dis type of guy, u noe.
a musicians. no.
but when i look at him everythng is pooofff!!
i tink i might like him. put aside my books n wtevr is dat.
listen to him. or his songs. n eventually..i like to see him with his guitar.
maybe he's an idol so its a normal feeling ryte..?

i always go for the preppy or the nerds.
but they r juz way too smart from me. it makes me feel im shallow.
they talk bout physics, chem, + maths..n i was impresed with myself. dat i already left all that thngs behind. but i love it if they talk bout stars. astrology is it..?
i can't really blend with astrophysics.
but medical students r not dat bad. we can share some thngs. disease n all dat.

i really like it.
but i wanted to try different thngs.
oh well nvm. bersyukur dgn ape yg ade ye.
enjoy the eye candy of jung yong hwa.

Code Name Blue



ehehe..post kali ni mmg aq xsabor2 nk tulis.
psl my favourite band.
korean r of course. laen xda.
berdegup kencang jantungku pabila nk menaip nih.
lagu diowg pon da lme berkumandang kt headphone aq.

ok la. bising2 je. nme band xgtaw.
CN Blue.
tu la nme dye.
cool x. mst la cool. heh..

terdiri dr 4 owg ank mude.
nme korg bley tgk sndri kt pics.
mls nk gtaw. ahaha..
tp2..aq plng ske jung yong hwa.
ensem. tu je. nmpk cool dow.

actually diowg en. mgkt resources aq iaitu, http://www.allkpop.com/
mrk adalh indie band.
wah best gk lgu dak2 indie korea nih.
aha..korg patut dgr la.
lg best kalo korg phm lirik dye. most of u all pon xphm kn. so kne put some effort la utk memahami ye..hahaha..

first debut. im a loner. wah mmg best siot lgu nih. enjoy ya..
from album bluetory.

credit goes to


Tuesday, January 19, 2010

menangis


setiap hari selase
aq mst tgk citer nih. ghost whisper.
pastu somehow aq mst nangis.
cter dye mmg terharu beb.

arini episode yg, melinda g wedding fren dye. old fren.
then membe dye, trish yg nk kawen tu la. ade daughter, natalie.
natalie ade membe antu, owen nme dye.
so pndk kn cter, owen ni rupenye..membe trish mse dye kecik2 dlu.
dye mati lemas kt sg dkt ngn umh diowg. owen pkai leg braces..ala yg cm alat bantu jln tu la..
utk owg yg cacat ke, polio ke ape..cmtu la..pkai kt kaki ok.
dulu2 diowg men2, kne cross sg..owen ngn pkai menatang tuh..so ssh n ade risiko utk jatuh.
si trish yg baek ati g amk rope n tolong dye cross. one day, dak2 jht g potong rope tuh. xdpt la si owen cross sg n men ngn trish. dye pnggl trish tp trish xpnh dtg. nth g mne.
dye igt trish da cross, so owen ngn gagah dan berani pon cross la sendiri kt ats batu2 licin tuh. tanpa rope. tibe2, dye slips, terjatuh dan kpl dye terhantuk kt batu lalu berdarah dan die.
so jd la antu yg baek. yg ingin menolong membe time kecik. kn owen mati mse kecik so dye stay cmtu la.

trish punye future husband nih. mmg jahat.lingkup dan nth ape lg la. so si owen ade terdengar psl rancangan sumbang si polan tuh lalu cube utk bgtaw kt trish tp kuase antu ape la yg ade kn.
nk ckp xdgr, ckp plak owg histeria. so dye men cm nth ape game yg harus diselesaikan olh trish. time owg nk kawen ko nk men game plak en. mst r si trish xnk. lalu, melinda tlng la. bile da terjawab sgl teka teki. fine si trish da taw future husband dye penipu, dye pon membatalkan wedding mrk.

so thanx owen. tp blom abs lg. laki penipu td xpuas ati. ade lg kt umh tuh. sume owg da blk. dye sorg je. nth wtpe nth. manakala, jim..hubby melinda g la tlng angkat2 kerusi wed yg xjd. tbe2 dye nmpk umh tuh cm ade owg bkk lampu so ngn curiousity jim g tgk. rpenye2 si penipu xpuas ati. jim nk tlng dye sbb dye cm da psycho sket (bg pndgn aq la) ade pgg gun sume la.

melinda kol jim. xdpt. kol la plak det. neely yg ensem. soh tlng g check kn hubby dye.
pastu ade ke si det. ni g tembak jim. yela en kn gelap cuz dye cm nmpk byng owg dr dlm umh. det. tu kt luar umh. dye men agk je la tuh.

jim kne g anta hospital. owg gler tu da kne arrest la.
peluru tu da tembus lengan dye n terkene sket tulang rusuk dye.
so wt operation. lme gk.
da lme sket tu, doc kuar. dye ckp everythng fine. jim stable. tp kne thn kt recovery room.
melinda teman la jim. smpai tertido2.
ble melinda bngn je. tgk jim cm sihat2 dok kt sblh dye. senyum. ensem je jim.

pastu part nih aq xthn.

jim said "i look at u. u gettin prettier everyday."
melinda: ouh ur awake
jim: melinda look at me. look at me carefully.

melinda pon tgk. cm pelik. jim duduk. cm xsakit jep. tgk btol2. actually..

"code blue, code blue"
means dat emergency.
kt bilik jim.

jim: u noe, there's dis thng called embolism. its a med term n u dun need to noe.
melinda: no, pls not u. can't be u. not u. pls jim. pls..
jim: i have always love u, melinda..always..

actually embolism happened n dats y code blue in his room. jim noe cuz he's a paramedic.
the nurses mmg btol2 tlng nk slmtkn jim. cpr sume.
yg ckp ngn melinda tu adalah roh jim.
jim mmg syg gler ngn melinda la wey..
awwwww...mmg sad. nway..to b continue la..
so next week la..

actually en. tiap2 kali aq tgk ghost whisper mmg aq nangis punye.
last week ke ble nth. story psl ayah protect anak pompuan dye. ayah dye la ghost.
pon aq nangis gk tyme reunion antu ayah ngn ank.

adek aq ckp,
"kak, ko ni pelik r. tgk cter antu cm tgk hindustan."
"abeh banjir umh. tersumbat hidung menangis."

tu psl la aq xley tgk tv ngn owg. xpsl2 kang nangis. bak kate anis, aq ni kn emosi.
bende small matter pon nk tacing. tipu punye citer pon nk nangis. ish3...

so i juz want to say
i "HATE" ghost whisper.
buat aq nangis je keje.

Monday, January 18, 2010

us

i won't regret it
wtever i said
to u

u noe i won't take my words back
u said its the way i think
so it will stay that way

so everything has gone is it..?


Saturday, January 16, 2010

disspointed

ok. da amk result for dis sem.
drop dead.
but still 3.
dissapointed. cry n cry.
well i hev expectations k.
but why..?
my tutor asked me
"who did u mix with in this sem..?"
i said "em..everyone..?"
"no. there r specifically person dat u close with"
"idk. maera..?"
"why u can't influenece her but she influence u"
"idk. we only close in class."

the way she sid it make it sounds dat i hev chose wrong person to b fren with..?
im 19 n i can b frens wif whoever i want to.
she did not influence me.
i juz dun really like the subject for dis sem.
especially CN. n GIT.

nobody influencing anyone.
but i was really surprise to c dat i passed my cardiopulmonary subject.
wohoo..for the past year..other groups sucks at dis subject..but dis year..yeah..passed and happy with the only subject.

ouh n i cried lyke i hev never cried bfre in dis week.
n i thought im goin to breakdown.
pimples arising. result of stress..
i dun verbally say i am stress..cuz i dun want to say it.
even i dun say it..they can c from my pimples ryte..?
dat i am stress. n need a break. n sleep more. n exercise.
feel so weird dat didn't go for jog.

n for my frens, im sorry din hang out wif u guys lately.
bz sket.huh.

p/s: idk.how many donkeys days we didn't talk.

Friday, January 8, 2010

name.age.bla bla bla..

eiiishh..
aq benci btol la..
when someone add u..
doesn't matter la..in fb or myspace..
then..
ask bout my name, age..bla bla bla..

i mean lyke..come on..
dun u c their name at least bfre u add them..??
what la..

i really2 hate dat u noe..
then go private chat..askin bout the same thng..
name. age. study.
so lame..

pls do not do dat.
i did not enjoy dat.
i dun lyke repeating thngs.
n so do u.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

the truth

WARNING: im writing in anger. so u noe wt to do.

ya i will not tag u. in da pics.
if u got gf.
but as far as we both noe. u juz broke up.
im single. u single.
what the heck..?

i will not tag u. if u got gf.
but as far as we both noe. u juz wish to hev one.
u dun hev yet. gf.
what..? a fren can't tag another fren pic..?

i deleted u from my frens list.
in fb.
in phonebook.

y..?
i can totally understand. if ur in relationship.
got gf.
i dun disturb u when ur in one. didn't i..?
i still not.

but we both SINGLE.
FRENS.
not single..?
not frens..?

i can't tag u. oh wait. i tag u. i did. but u untag.

i dun UNDERSTAND.
really.

i juz can't b fren to someone who afraid of wt other ppl thinks.
who probably never admit me as a fren.
who can't take some risks.

what..like im ur secret fren now..?
seriously..i dun like dat.
secret. secretive. mysterious.
not me.

i dun noe wt happened. really.
i juz had enough.
im sory i can't respond so well when u told me bout ur break up.
i barely had one. dats y.

no explanation. pls.
its scary to hear the truth.
i dun hev many guy frens offline u noe.
i pick my frens online. i actually chose them.
i dun randomly approve.

juz so u noe. im glad to meet u. to noe u.
FYI, i noe u for 6 years.
dats quite long. long enough for me to hev dis guts to tell u.

if u want to get angry. go ahead.
stab me.

p/s: thanx for the very best day today. i enjoyed myself. how bout u..? no..? thought so..

seharian





konichiwa!!
hehehe..
td kuar g jejalan ngn bdk bengong.
ala..budak tu..zainur fareezal..
yela dye asyik membebel aq letak nme dye kt blog..
fine..taruk pic la plak en..
perghh..ssh siot nk tngkp pic..dye r..mmg..
sengal..
hahahaha..xde la..maybe...hurm..xpe2..
g men arcade..men basketball..racing kete..
mkn waffle..btol ke aq eja ni..hahaha..
pastu..g karaoke..best gk..even aq xslalu g en..
wah3..byk jgk mende yg ktowg wt nih..
bli brng umh..hahhaa..mak aq la yg soh ni..

ktowg mmg da agk lme plan nk kuar en..sbb dye bosan n aq plak cm cuti lme en..
so,kuar r..g mines..

pagi2..bonda beta nk jmp doc, so..jmp doc..ade appoinment..
noon..mkn2..jmp mama pah jap..ouh..beliau mak angkat sy..suda lme jge sy..since baby..
ptng..kuar ngn budak tuh ah..
hurm..tu lah..
i dun noe wt to say..

maybe he still like miss his gf or wt..
i dunoe..i can't possibly ask him ryte..??
i juz can't..bcuz i dun noe how to respond later..
better dun..hahaha..nway..
thanx ya..for goin out wif me..
yalah..later i beat u in racing car..auto..?
chow~~

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

after the 4th nyte






okay!
finish night shift.
kesimpulan. penat.jerawat. eye bag.
tp xpe jgn risau, all dat will go off soon.
aaaa..all i need is sleeeepppppp..
zzzzzz..

igt kn blk blh rehat2, tp tp..
td bru blk. g mkn kt restaurant chops n steak kt serdang.
ktowg kalo mkn jauh2 pown ta pe. jnji sedap..
xde la jauh pown. balakong dekat je ngn serdang pe..hahahaa..
ayah belanja. so, rezeki jgn ditolak ye..

esok nk kuar ngn zyno ngok ngek..
tp tp..dye ade test kete!! gud luck dude! pasni bwk aq jln2 plak..
aq mmg da ade lesen la kn..so..ta yah cite r..
rabu kne teman mama g hosp..beliau ade 'dating' ngn doctor.
hehehe..(^0^)

haaa..lg satu, mse aq 'syok2' wt nyte shft.staff tnye aq ni bkn pure malay en..
so aq pown gtaw la..actually my grandma is chinese, but her biological parents had died n a malay fmly adopt her. so the blood still runs k.

dye pon tnye lg. yea bcuz the way u speak malay not lyke a pure malay. n u speak mandarin quite well..hehehe..*blush*
tq2..
tp en..da byk kali aq dgr komen cmni..x taw la..owg malay ckp malay cmne..?
cmni la en..
ade slang bese la tue..kekekekee..

ler..ade byk cite..tp sume da lupe..hahaha..penat.


p/s: nk g swimming kt karun mas..? tp xtaw..zyno xnk bwk..huhuhuhu..pegi la ko swimming ngn guy frens ko..hahhaaha..

Saturday, January 2, 2010

ALWAYS

I HATE YOU!!


i hate when ur lying.
i hate u when u say 'nothn'
i hate u when u broke up wif ur gf.
i even hate u after u broke up wif ur gf.
i hate u when ur hiding ur emotion.
i hate u when u told me u were ok.

so by the time if ur reading dis..
i already 'delete' u.
n im not talking.

i noe u're a bit freak.
but after ur break up, u become freakier.
if u can't get over it.
get her back.

im sorry for sayin dis without knowing what happened to u two.
but i dun hev a fren who's a freak.
juz go n get along wif ur guy frens.

n gudluck. for whatever.
seriously.