those things

fear.
of failure.
of love.
of lost.

i dun want to fail. sometimes i thought i might juz breakdown. i dun really wanna say im in stress. but yeah, it shows.

i cried. sometimes for so long i never did.
n im scared.
of almost everything.

im sorry anis.
i can't possibly play when my fren is one of the judges.
im scared dat i might hurt u when ur not bein fair.
with words. enough said.
i can't play when my emotion aren't stable.
i might shout, hurting someone else.
nway, really great to be in the team.

i tink im already lost.
pls find me, n bring me back.
its too scary to stay here.